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Iksun came back home, her face still blended with sadness, her emotions still fractured with everything that had happened today, Junwan finding out secrets she had wanting to hide from him. She melts into the bed, sighing loudly. “There is nothing to hide now, hah aaaaaa” she shakes her head. “I so wanted to run, I have never felt so vulnerable, his eyes full of love yet cold, what do I reply to you Junwan” She started placing her thoughts, she didn’t want to be impulsive and yet so thoughtful that she misses it, she didn’t want to miss it, not this time. “Who am I really? The villain who pained me or the idiot who left him or the hero who wanted to protect him? Who am I?” “Or may be just human trying to do the best but still messing it up a little” another voice said. “May be” she presses her lips “I have to deal with it the Lee family way, I can’t let this take over me, not this time” and she gets up going directly to the bathroom to get changed.
There is only one thing that separates drama from reality and that is Madness, a drama can accept it, reality cannot. But that one step of crazy is what let’s people feel the real and be the real and that is what she wanted to do today, express the madness, that was the only way. “How do they do it in movies, get drunk probably that makes it easy” she thought to herself as she picked her favourite perfume. “I don’t know when I will do this again, so my body please cooperate” she said smiling to herself in the mirror.
“Oppa, I am going out for a bit” she shouted to Ikjun who was in another room “Are you crazy, where are you going, you just recovered from fever, you are not going” he says running to her. Too late, Iksun is already out and cracking her fingers “It doesn’t hurt, if you do it right” she smiles. “This girl” Ikjun murmurs to himself then he notices his bike is gone. “Oh no, oh no, she is definitely crazy, whose sister is she” Uju who was now standing with him replies, “Yours, Appa”, Ikjun looks at him, “Right, Uri Uju is so so smart, but it sleep time now comeee”
Here Iksun puts on the helmet and off she goes, smiling at herself and remembering the message she typed, “Meet me at the park right now near hospital, I know you just got off duty” She breathes as she reaches the park, she needed this ride to clear all her head and get back to her plan. She had taken a sandwich and Coffee for Junwan on the way here and was now waiting for him, there she sees the tall, handsome, grumpy man walking towards her for a minute she is lost but she shakes back (Same Iksun lol).
“You are not even okay, why are you here Iksun” Junwan speaks as he approaches her, “I thought you would be hungry so I got you food, you don’t want?” Iksun jokes. “This woman wasn’t even saying a word earlier in morning and here she is, I cannot understand her sometimes” Junwan thought to himself. “I surprised you right, and you can’t understand me right” Iksun puts smiling. “Are you reading my mind” Junwan questions, “I have been reading for a long time” “Now that’s a lie” Junwan says while standing next to her. “And what is this bike, you are still sick”. “I know, I know, I just wanted to share something, I can’t keep it to myself now.” Iksun sighs, her earlier emotions coming back to her a little.
They sit down on the bench, Iksun gives him the snacks but he is too focused on her. She gulps and starts, “So there’s a friend of mine, she loves a guy but she broke up with him because she felt she is not good enough for him and because that person is hurting because of her, also because the she feels the guy is not comfortable as he doesn’t share his low points with her and it’s a burden” She stops looking at Junwan. “So she should talk to him, why did she break up” “Because she was afraid he would sacrifice for her and that’s the last thing she would want, also because the guy wanted to settle down and might waste his time on her” She licks her lips “Also because she is a fool and she messed a bit” “Iksuna….I” Junwan finding words to speak, “Why not tell later?” he questioned. “Because she didn’t want to be selfish, She got sick and she doesn’t know what will happen to her” she smiles again, “Why should the guy waste the most important part his life on this and then be heartbroken, it’s unfair. Why should she make him worry about her, she can take care, it’s better to love just like that don’t you agree?”
“I don’t, would she have done the same if the guy was sick, would she have left him? No right? Then how did she expect he would leave her, she just wants to stay by his side, he gets happy when she does and she is a little foolish too, he doesn’t know how to express himself that well” Junwan presses. “He does, he does very well, and he just doesn’t know how to be vulnerable. You haven’t changed a bit, you were the same an year ago, you were the same 20 years back, wanting to be strong and I was a fool I believed you” Iksun lets a fake smile.
Flashback to year 1994
Junwan is crying in the park corner, Iksun sees it nut instead of going there she stands outside that area and doesn’t let anyone reach there, until Junwan comes out, then she takes him on her cycle to his home. (Flashback over)
“Oppa, I messed up, I did, I didn’t want to be a burden on you, I thought you will be fine, I thought we will be fine, but we are not aaaa” she looks up “How should I explain you, you saw me at my worst and I just wanted to be strong because I know you will breakdown, I know you, I can’t even say sorry”
Junwan stays silent, Iksun doesn’t say a word too. She clears her throat, but Junwan takes the lead, “You know you are the only person, I have ever fallen for and I can’t even tell you why, I should have asked you out in college, then at least we would have been together” “You don’t even remembered my name” Iksun Scoffs “Or I pretended I didn’t” “Now Mr Kim, this is untrue, you didn’t even look at me at that time”
“Iksun do you remember how many times have you blocked the entrance of the park corner for me, how many times you gave me your candy and how many times you took me home on your bike” Junwan looks at him determined, Iksun Gulps. “Oh, you have a sharm memory, I thought you weren’t noticing” “Iksun I have been in love with you since so long, I can’t even tell” he stares straight into her eyes.
Flashback shows Junwan deliberately leaving his bike so that Iksun could take him back
“I don’t care what happened, I know we both love each other…” Junwan pauses “and you want us to stay together no matter what” Iksun completes. “Can you forgive me?” she asks looking down, “I was never angry, can you forgive me?” Junwan says holding her hand now. She brushes her thumb on it, looking straight into his eyes, “only if you give me my ring” she smiles with slight tears, “I love you, Oppa, I love you” and she moves closer, letting her lips meet his. Junwan responds holding interlocking his hands with her, she comes closer now hugging him tight while kissing him. They break from it after a minute, Iksun caressing his face. They hug each other tight again and let their breaths sink in. “I have one condition” Junwan whispers in her ear, Iksun shivers “What?”, “You have to give me a ride back home” Junwan laughs. She Pushes him to the side, “Nope this is special deluxe ride, it has its charges” she makes a face. “And what are they?” Junwan asks enjoying “Lots of kisses” Iksun responds while kissing him again.