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‘No! Yn, don’t! Fall back! Get safe!’, Nyx called out, seeing the big paw aiming for her position. It was a nightmare…no! Even worse. It was reality that reminded him of one of his nightmares he had during the last months. Since he noticed he had feelings for Yn, his best friend and partner, Nyx got nightmares on a regular basis. And all of them had one thing in common: Yn was always dying
No matter what Nyx did to fight back. No matter how fast Nyx was to hurry for help. No matter how much of a hero he was. He was always too late. And every single time, he had to watch her die like his sister.
In his dreams, every time, Yn looked at him helpless, seeking or pleadingly for rescue. And every time, Nyx reached out for her. And still, he was too late. Sometimes, he couldn’t reach her at all and just could watch from a distance. Sometimes, he could reach her and was still not able to save her. Nyx always lost her. And each time, when he awoke, soaked in his own sweat, panting for air, he was determined to bury his feelings for her as deep as he could.
Then, Drautos had teamed her up with Nyx to fight against a Behemoth. A big, mean monster of a beast that had found its way to the wall. Of course, Yn was hooked immediately, she was always ready for a fight, but Nyx started to argue that he wanted a different partner. Just someone else than her.
From the corner of his eyes he had seen how Yn’s face fell. The former excitement changed into resentment, unsure why her friend reacted like this to work with her. Nyx saw the betrayal in her eyes. Doubting their friendship and everything nice he had ever said to her.
But in his eyes, it was the best thing that could happen to her. Nyx knew that he brought bad luck to the ones he loved. And this time, he wanted to make a difference. This time, he wanted to control Fate like it always controlled him. And if that meant he had to deal with her anger or that she even ended their friendship then, he would live with it.
Much to his dismay, Drautos didn’t listen to whatever Nyx came up with without telling him the truth behind his request to switch partners. His captain stuck to his plan and Nyx had to obey…
All this ran through his mind, as Nyx entered his room after they were back from the mission. He was sweaty, dirty and tired but they had lost no one. Not everything had been easy on this mission but at least, Yn was still alive and healthy.
Nyx was just about to take a shower, he already opened the jacket of his uniform, as someone knocked aggressively on his door. As he opened it, Yn stormed into his room. Not her typical, civil manners but Nyx wasn’t really surprised. Now, he just had to be careful to say the right things.
“We have to talk.”, Yn demanded, stopping in the middle of his room with crossed arms and tapping foot.
“About what?”, Nyx asked coldly while closing the door. He avoided her eyes in fear of what he would see. Alone her angry voice let him already regret a few things.
“About today? First of all, why did you try to team up with someone else? You refused to work with me. Why? You never did that before.”, Yn asked and waited. She noticed that Nyx stayed in some distance to her, leaning against the wall next to the door. He wasn’t even able to look her in the eyes. It was unusual and if she wouldn’t be that angry, she might have asked about it.
“I had my reasons.”, Nyx just said.
Yn waited but as he stayed silent, she stepped forward, “Oh, yeah? You wanna tell me what reason?”
“No, I don’t want.”, he said serious.
Surprised, she raised her brows before her face went back to the angry grimace, “Alright, then what was that on the battlefield, huh? Can you talk about that?”
Nyx clenched his jaw together. He was tired from the mission and tired from the countless, sleepless nights. He also feared if he wouldn’t watch out, he could say something he might regret later. Obviously, the fight to keep her safe from him was still not over. Maybe Nyx had to be more mean to save her from himself, “I saved your ass. You wanna thank me? Fine. You’re welcome.”, he said snappishly, finally looking into her eyes. What he saw in them froze his blood. He had never seen her so angry before. Pure hatred stared back at him.
With gleaming eyes, she stepped forward, “I didn’t mean to thank you. It’s arrogant of you to think I needed your help.”, she hissed.
“You trust me, right?”, Nyx asked calmly and saw that he took her off balance with this question. Slowly, the anger vanished from her face and almost completely out of her beautiful eyes.
Yn stopped in her moves and stared at him with big eyes, confused about the sudden change, “Su-sure, I do, but-”
“Good. Then, you have your answer. Trust me, I did the right thing. And now, leave me alone.”, Nyx said, pushing himself from the wall to pass her.
Yn grabbed his wrist and turned the taller man back to her, “Are you nuts? Are you trying to get killed? The situation was under control and you ran into my line! I almost hit you!”, she said. Her voice had changed from anger to concern. And even her eyes were filled with it.
Nyx saw how much she cared about him. She took the actions from the battlefield as something reckless from him. He saw that she feared for his life or what he could do to himself. That was wrong, at least, in some way, “I had to protect you!”, he called out, losing his nerves slowly.
Yn’s eyes went big by surprise about his sudden outburst before she became serious again. She knew that he thought he had to protect everyone around him but Yn saw it kinda differently, “I didn’t need to get protected!”, she called out but tried to calm herself because in the end, it was still Nyx, her best friend. Of course, he would watch out for her, “Listen, there was no danger. Everything went like planned. And even if, why do you think you have to save me?”, she asked softly.
“Because I god damn love you!”, he blurted out, yanking his wrist out of her grasp to turn around. Angry about himself, he raked violantly his fingers through his hair as he realized what he had said.
Yn stood there, staring blankly at Nyx’ back while she tried to process what just had happened, “Y-you do- what?”, she breathed. Her mind searched for a way to see that as a joke but there was no payoff. Slowly, Yn raised her eyes back at her friend, “You can’t do that… You’re Nyx… You never love someone. Y-you stay away from any romantically involvement-”
Nyx turned around, staring angrily at her that let her flinch. He saw it but he couldn’t change it, “Because I already lost too much!”, he hissed.
“Nyx…”, Yn said softly, knowing exactly what he meant with his mother’s and sister’s death. He had lost his home. He had lost a lot of things. He was alone and felt maybe even lost. The easiest way was to cage himself.
He shook his head about her calm voice and the soft, loving glance in her eyes. He wasn’t allowed to give in, “Alone the thought of losing you gives me nightmares and today, it was pretty close…”, he whispered, fighting back tears he wouldn’t shed.
Yn stepped forward, reaching out for him, “Nyx, please…”
But Nyx stepped back at the same time to keep the distance. He knew, if he would get touched by her for one second, he would be done and then, there was no way to go back, “Please, just leave.”, he whispered.
Yn considered her next step carefully, maybe to give in to his request, but as she saw Nyx’ tormented, painful expression, she couldn’t leave him alone. She didn’t want to leave him alone. So, she ignored his plea and stepped further forward to reach him. Softly, Yn laid her hand on his scruffy cheek, brushing against the small braids in his hair with the tips of her fingers while looking into his perfect blue eyes.
Nyx leant against her touch, closing his eyes while inhaling her warm scent. Alone this small touch let his skin burn in an all consuming fire. He was craving for more and knew at the same time that it would end him and his strong will to resist his wish to be close to her if he would give in.
Tilting her head, Yn smiled about this innocent move from this tough man, “Nyx, you can’t block out everyone from your life.”, she said softly.
“But I can try.”, he whispered.
“But you shouldn’t. For what reason should you be all alone?”, Yn asked and waited for his reaction. Now, where everything became calmer, she noticed how her heart was racing because of his confession. Without knowing it, Nyx had said the words Yn craved to hear from him.
Slowly, he opened his eyes, meeting her intense glance watching him, ‘God these eyes’, he thought. They were haunting him day and night and he wished he could see a love-filled glance in them that would be reserved just for him. At least, for once, “It could save lives. It could save your life.”
Yn chuckled softly, “I’m pretty good at watching out for myself. Always have, always will. Don’t worry about that.”, Yn said reassuringly, “That shouldn’t stop you from getting what you really want.”
Nyx snorted low about her confidence and shook his head with a smirk. Slowly, he snaked his arms loosely around her waist as he noticed that his neatly built wall started to crumble slowly, “You’re so extremely persistent.”, he whispered.
Yn snaked her arms around his neck, raising her head to keep eye contact, “Of course, I am. You’re so damn handsome and perfect, Nyx. I always thought I would never have a chance with you. That we would be just friends. And then you drop this confession? Count on it that I would fight for this opportunity to get close to you.”, she said with a smile.
Steadily, Nyx dragged her closer to his body, tossing his doubts and concerns slowly overboard after her words, “You mean close like this?”, he whispered smirking, enjoying having her in his arms finally.
Yn matched his smirk and pulled him down, closer to her, “Actually, I mean close like this.”, she breathed and connected their lips. Both relished in the pleasure to feel each other. Yn shuddered as she felt Nyx’ warm, strong hands sliding underneath her shirt. He caressed her skin with his fingers and nails as he dug into her back, pulling her as close as possible.
Blissfully goosebumps spread down Nyx’ spine as Yn tickled his neck with her nails. Softly, she let her fingers slide into his black-greyish, long strands, playing with the braids that granted her deep, throaty moans from the hero. She smirked against his lips about his reaction. To know to have this kind of impact on such an incredible man, turned her on even more…
A knock on the door let them both freeze in their moves but as Yn tried to escape his grip, Nyx held her strong in his embrace and shook his head slowly with a smirk. His breath was uneven and his heart was racing but his training as a Glaive allowed him to keep his composure. Still staring into Yn’s hungry eyes, he answered: “What is it?”, his eyes flickered down to her slightly swollen lips.
Provokingly, Yn licked over her lips with her tongue as she saw his dark, lust filled glance.
“Nyx… Drautos wanna see us all.”, Crowe called through the closed door.
“Alright, I will be there in ten.”, Nyx called back, letting his eyes roam over Yn’s face, already having certain ideas in his mind how the night would continue when they were alone again.
“One more thing… uhm… I can’t find Yn. Do you know where she could be?”, Crowe asked and even through the door, Yn and Nyx imagined her frowning where their friend was. Yn raised one brow questioningly about how Nyx would answer.
“Sorry, I haven’t seen her since we’re back. But maybe she’s at the training ground. Letting off some steam.”
“Okay, I’ll go and get her. Thanks.”, Crowe called back and left.
“Letting off some steam, huh? Quite the opposite, I would say.”, Yn breathed seductively against his lips.
“True, but that gives us a few more minutes for this. A foretaste for later.”, Nyx breathed, matching her tone, and crashed his lips hungrily back on Yn’s to feel her close again. More than willingly, she moved with him. Pulling him even closer with her hands grabbing the fabric of the shirt underneath his jacket, feeling his body reacting to her touch.
And just like this, Nyx’ sleepless nights filled with nightmares got exchanged with another type of sleepless nights… shared with Yn…