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And you know, in a faraway, practical way, that it won't be a daydream; that you're both still so young, and you aren't as well endowed as he thinks you are, and your first time isn't going to be some seismic event. It's going to be messy, and clumsy, and you'll either finish too fast or you'll exhaust yourself trying to make it happen, it's going to take ages of practice to get even halfway decent at a blowjob, and sometimes you won't be as sexy as you feel and sometimes you won't feel as sexy as you are, and you better start figuring out how to get olive oil stains out of clothes and sheets, like, yesterday.
But it's not about any of that right now, it's about pretending, about fantasy, about satisfying even a fraction of the boiling desperation you feel for him. It's about being brave enough to let him know you want to go there with him, curious enough to figure out how to get it, and vulnerable enough to share the process with him.
If the best you can get from him right now is his voice and his willingness to play along, then you'll simply have to make do.