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Both my brothers are gone. Benkei and Wakasa are trying to take care of me, at least till Takeomi will be back. If he'll be back...
Did i do something wrong?
Why did my family leave me?
Wakasa told me there is nothing wrong with how i feel so i shouldn't put the blame on myself. But then why did they leave me, all by myself. Takeomi did it to finally have his own freedom but what about Haruchiyo, we were doing just fine. I was behaving like any other kid. Just like any other little sister.
I feel drained. I dont feel anger, only tired...
The only thing that's been helping me cheer up is fighting. I feel happy when i let my emotions out through fighting.
I beaten all the guys that I've faught before. Wakasa told me im the best. Benkei and him cant even beat me. I feel better.
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I dont feel good.
I feel like I'm gonna throw up.
Not even fighting helps me anymore.
Takeomi and Haruchiyo left me for good. Omi's been living his best life now, im guessing money really does bring happiness. Haru joined Toman. I heard everything from Wakasa. He doesn't know i overheard.
They're living their best life and im suffering alone. I cant tell Benkei, hell i can't even tell Wakasa. They'll think its just some teenage breakdown.
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I found some pills from the medicine cabinet at home. I don't know what exactly they're for.
I'll take two and I'll find out tomorrow.
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They're sleeping pills. They help me sleep better.
I couldn't sleep since my brothers left. So they'll help me rest.
I'll take them just for a while.
I will take two today.
I'll try three tomorrow.
Four the day after and so on until I'll sleep for more then a few hours. Maybe days, maybe weeks.
Probably forever.
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I wonder if someone will notice.
If my brothers will even know.
If they'll care...