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"So that's it... You're just gonna leave me because I'm not good enough for you or was it because you cheated on me with another girl who you thought was better than me Buckley?" I questioned and a tear rolled down my cheek.
We were in his living room, fighting and he sighed softly. It was hard with our schedules always being so different, either he was going onto work as I was getting out or vice versa. Some days he had a day off from an 18 or more hour shift and I worked or I gotten out of working the graveyard shift for month plus and having two or three days to sleep while he busted his ass. It was rare for our days to be off at the same time because during the time he was laid up, I was working at a coyote style bar to pay for our apartment.
We had been together for almost two years, after meeting at a party at Station 118, because I was Bobby's soon to be adopted daughter at the time. He had drove me over, and was introducing me to everyone when I had met Buck and we instantly bonded. As time went on we became best friends and soon into lovers and I soon became his fiancée. As time went on though, things started to change not just in the house or at the station, but between us. It was small things like forgetting things or making other plans when we had already made plans. Then he came home late on nights he didn't work late claiming to be with the guys or hanging out with Maddie and Chimney at their place. He would also have his phone locked and having it on him constantly and hiding it from me when I was around. He even began forgetting things like our anniversary date and forgetting date night and what not. He would even sleep on the couch most nights and barely even touched me anymore.
Enough was enough, and I needed to set my anxiety filled mind at ease because I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't constantly worry about him being out while I worked extremely late nights. When I did look through his phone, it broke my heart to say the least, so I decided to screen shot every conversation and sent them through email to myself and began to cry. How could someone do this to their loved ones and destroy marriages like that. That right there was what hurt me the most.
"She was some pussy I wanted to drunk fuck at the time Tallahassee! What's it matter anyway? You don't seem to care!" As soon as those words left his mouth, I smacked him hard... No not smacked, more like punched him hard. My blood boiled at the fact that he could do that.
"How many Evan?" I asked after sucker punching him in the face.
He sighed and I asked again. "How many Evan!?"
"Five, the sixth one is the affair," I laughed in disbelief and shook my head.
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After I had moved out, I stopped showing up at the 118. It held to much memories of us, and I couldn't do that to myself. Eddie Diaz allowed me to see Christopher on days Buck wasn't at his house (which was constantly) and I was thankful for Diaz. He soon became my rock after Buck and I had broken up and it killed him to see me in so much pain. How was it that somebody could cheat on their significant other if they didn't love each other the way they did once before.
After we broke up I got in this depressive state of mind. I was heart broken and devastated that he could do something like that to me. Basically everyone wanted to kill him for breaking his promise to me. I didn't even have the heart to throw my gifts from him away.
I never left my bed and hardly even ate food alone even take a shower. I used water as way to fill my self up and my hair looked like a disaster from not brushing or cleaning it. The only time I got up was to use the bathroom and check the mail. I had called my boss and told her I needed some time for me at the bar and at my main job. They both had heard what happened and knew I needed some mental time for myself, and said to come back when I was ready.
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One night, Eddie had came over, and surprised me with a care basket he had made at the station. It was filled with movies, snacks, a couple of build a bear kitty and cow stuffed animal and some hygiene and that's when I became emotional. I was happy he even thought of me because I was such an emotional wreck. We sat on the couch as he told me about Buck and his new girlfriend and how they were fighting already. It wasn't over major things just a few spats here and there but they seem mooshy and lovey dovey.
"Honestly, I hope his new girlfriend and karma kick his ass. He deserves it after cheating on me with that stupid bitch. I'm sorry you had to drive all this way to see me in such an emotional state Diaz," I explained as he brushed his teeth and he smiled.
"Honestly it was no big deal. Besides I've seen a lot worse, and you kind madam need a shower and I'm going to help."
A blush swept over my face as he helped me get out of the clothes that I was currently wearing, and began the shower. He slowly washed my hair and took his time and began to wash my body and watched as I covered certain parts of me, and he untangled my limbs and kissed my forehead.
"It's okay querido (dear), nothing I haven't seen before," nodding shyly he washed my body and rinsed me off and went to go find some new clean clothes.
After doing that, he did my laundry and cleaned the house as I put my hair in a towel and changed and watched as he put fresh clean sheets on my bed. Smiling, he pulled me into a hug and kissed the the top of my head. It was one of the things that made me love the big oaf, was his kindness and his quirkiness. And I adored his son who had a way of making people smile. His son, Christopher was kind to and was always asking me to come over. He drew me pictures and he made me smile and he had a way of making sure I was okay. He had came over with his dad that night and had sat with me while we all watched movies and he mentioned Buck.
"How come.... Buck isn't here?" He asked in the middle of Frozen.
Looking at Eddie, I sighed softly. "Buck and I didn't agree on things and he did some things that hurt me very badly and that I didn't like. We decided that we didn't love each other anymore and some times adults do that so they go their separate ways. I love you and your dad very much but it's a different kind of love. I know that it's kind of hard to understand right now but one day you will."
He smiled and crawled into my lap and hugged me. "It's okay. We still love you any ways even if you are broken and hurting." I teared up at that as I hugged him back as Eddie smiled with unshed tears in his eyes too.