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you blink once and the world turns upside down. its almost laughable how fast things can change. one moment, you've never contemplated your gender. the next, you're a girl.
one moment, you think you're a big man. the next, you tower over others and it makes you feel on top of the world and maybe a little bit lonely. you wouldn't call it dysphoria per se, but even the absence of it makes you feel a bit like a dunce.
you blink once; the world shifts around you.
"brothers" becomes siblings, and "siblings" becomes... something else. it's weird, because you like girls, right? so it makes sense that you try to say that you have a connection with lesbians--
(please, oh please, someone understand what the fuck you're saying.)
but even though you like the terms lesbian and sapphic (it feels right -- everything feels right about it), it doesn't change the fact that now you view your used-to-be brother figure in a different light. you're not sure how it started; it's almost as if you blinked and suddenly you were a different person, and he was a different person, and you couldn't stop thinking about how both of you could be different together.
maybe it sounds stupid, and maybe it is, but you don't care and maybe you are a little stupid, but love had always been stupid to you, so this wasn't really any different from before, was it?
you blink, and simultaneously everything changes, and everything stays the same.
"sunshine" becomes "my sunshine sister" and the word sister from those lips makes you want to both leap for joy and moan in disbelief. because would a sister want her brother to kiss her, hold her close, and stay there forever?
... if forever was a feeling, this would be it.
and you don't mind it, if it means that it's a feeling you get to share with your beloved wilby. being alone together wouldn't be so lonely, wouldn't be so bad, wouldn't it?
you can only hope that whenever you get the courage to tell him, he'd feel the same way. that he'd pull you close and kiss you, and that kiss would be a promise of forever and always, that he'd call you his sunshine, that you'd be his everything just as he's your everything in turn.
you blink.
in the span of a millisecond, you were his girlfriend for a moment in your mind's eye, and wouldn't that be just perfect?