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“Alright, so this is the reference video. I want a feeling like this. Do you understand?”
“Yes, director!” Sunoo replied. He wasn’t known as the facial expression master for nothing. The directors always said working with him was a pleasure since he knew exactly how to portray the exact emotions.
The members were currently filming their blessed-cursed mv and it was Sunoo’s turn for the solo shoot. Nervousness was not in his vocabulary right now. This is when he feels the most confident. In front of the cameras and lights all focusing on him.
Then why? Why is the director looking at him angrily right now?
Sunoo was confused.
What is happening? Is something wrong? Did I do something? What do I do if I mess this up?
A million thoughts that had never crossed his mind before suddenly arose and it scared him.
“Sunoo.”
“Yes, director?” Sunoo said in a small trembling voice, gulping to brace himself for the impact. He knew he was not always perfect but never had somebody looked at him like that before.
“This was amazing! Just what I needed. It is very rare that we get the right expressions on the first take. You are done here. Go take a rest.”
To say that Sunoo was relieved was an understatement. He had been preparing himself for the worst and now that he had not been yelled at but instead praised, he felt his heartbeat slowing down and his knees were no longer trembling.
“Come on, director! I thought you were going to shout at me!”
“Hahaha! I was just joking around with you Sunoo–yah.”
To be honest, the director and the rest of the staff were planning to pull a prank on the boy but after seeing the panic-stricken expression on his face and looking as if he was seconds away from crying, the director immediately felt his heart soften.
How could one even bear to raise their voice with this sunshine? Was that even possible?
As soon as Sunoo was out of earshot of the staff members, all of them started talking about how they were worried that Sunoo was going to cry. Of course, the director got teased for not being able to be harsh to Sunoo.
The long awaited comeback day was finally here. The music video had just been released and the members were all huddled up on the couch in the living room of their dorm, eager to know the reactions of their beloved engenes.
It would be a lie to say they weren’t nervous since they had tried a new genre of music and were not quite sure what people would think of it.
Fortunately, all their worries were put to rest when it had not even been 5 minutes and Twitter was already blowing up with nothing but good things to say about their new song.
Jungwon, Heeseung, the 02z and the maknae had big smiles on their faces, drowning in the amount of praise they were receiving for they had worked very hard on this album.
Amidst the noise, there was just one person who was getting quieter, his face darkening as the seconds went by.
@solostan69: Sunoo, don’t you think you are bringing the group down with visuals like that?
But I tried to break the cute image this time. Isn’t this what you wanted?
@anonstan: Why does Sunoo have so many lines :( It’s destroying the song! I can’t stand his voice at all omg.
A lot of lines? I don’t even have that many lines. What do they mean? Am I not good at singing? Do my vocals not fit the song? Why are they saying this?
@judgycandy: Ok guys is it just me or did Sunoo get even uglier this comeback? He should really try losing some weight or get surgery at this point.
I did lose weight. I gained muscles too. Is it my cheeks? Am I really ugly? What should I do? Do I really need to get surgery? Will the company force me to get surgery? What do I need to fix on my face? Is it everything?
@karen: Lmao what was the purpose of Sunoo in this comeback? You would think after a year he would have improved in his dance but I can do better than that. Where’s the effort? If he can’t do that then he should just leave Enhypen.
Is my dance bad too? Then am I the problem? But Riki had said I had improved a lot. Was he lying? Am I being a burden? It should be very bad to the point where they want me out of Enhypen. What should I do? Do I really leave?
@bitch: I am surprised that weak Sunoo managed to hold on but it’s time for him to go now. I am done with him.
Weak? Is that all I am? Weak? Am I really weak? Is that why they don’t want me here anymore? Will my leaving be better for them?
Sunoo looked at his members, debating whether or not to tell them about what he had just read but dark thoughts flooded his mind before he could even make up his mind.
Should I tell them? But how? Am I the only one who got negative feedback? What if they too have the same thoughts about me? What will I do then? Will it be the end of my journey as a member of Enhypen? What should I do?
Not able to hide his feelings anymore, he stood up from the couch, thanking his stars for having taken the seat that would allow him to go to his room unnoticed.