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*Third person POV*
It was a Thursday night in UA's dormitory. Most of those in class A were having a blast as if it were a Friday. Usually everyone would storm off to bed at around 8, but once again the whole class found themselves tied in Mina's game shenanigans. Midoriya was staring out the window mumbling to himself not having a measly idea of the craziness going on around him. He noticed Shinso taking a walk around the dorms before he was cut out of his long daze by Kaminari. "Yo Midoriya, come play this next game with us!" he shouted with a bright smile. "Yea sure" Midoriya smiled back.
Everyone was sitting on the floor in a circle with the monopoly game plastered out in the middle. Izuku looked at the circle and saw a single space opening next to Bakugo. As he moved to sit down,- Bakugo made a loud 'tsk' sound. "SIT SOMEWHERE ELSE NERD!" he shouted nearly startling the whole damn dorm. Izuku felt a slight tightness in his chest at the hostility he was still receiving. "Dude calm down," Eijiro said venomously at his best friend. "Shut uppp" Bakugou whined back.
Izuku didn't want to play anymore because of Bakugo's outburst. "Sorry Kaachan..." He stood back up. Uraraka and Ida shifted over trying to tell Midoriya to come next to them but he declined quickly, "Actually there was something I really needed to do so you guys can go ahead and play without me" he smiled brightly. "Are you sure?" Eijiro said, sounding slightly disappointed. Izuku took one look at Bakugo for barely a second and took notice of the deep scowl on his face. "Yea, don't worry I just forgot something so I'm gonna go grab it" giving off a false giggle at the end before excusing himself.
The cold breeze hit Midoriya's exposed skin causing him too shiver. But he didn't mind, he told himself that he could use the fresh air. The pang of hurt held heavy on his chest.
*Izuku POV*
Why does he hate me so much? This isn't fair, I try so hard to get him to like me and I have nothing to show for it. I felt the tears begin to prick my eyes, so I quickly ran away from the dorm building. I don't want anyone seeing me like this, so vulnerable over something so stupid.
Kirishima has only known him for a few months and it feels like they became best friends in seconds... I've known Kaachan for most of my life and not even for a second has he thought of me as a friend. I can see why he prefers to be friends with Kirishima over someone like me. He's energetic, kind, understanding, and cool. But so am I...
I was sitting under a nearby tree trying to stop my tears from falling when I heard a deep yet gentle voice call out to me.
"Midoriya is that you?"
"Shinso it's you" I quickly stood up wiping my eyes dry to avoid being questioned. He takes a step closer to me. "I was taking a walk and I noticed you running here. Are you doing ok?" Shinso and I have been on good terms recently so it's nice to see him and finally get to talk, but I didn't want to worry him. "Oh I'm fine! What are you doing out here so late?" It wasn't common for students to be leaving the dorms past curfew but as long as you stayed on school grounds it was okay.
" I should be asking you the same. But the reason I'm out here is to clear my mind". He suddenly pulled out a bag of this green stuff. Grass? But then the scent hit me. WHY ON EARTH DOES HE HAVE DRUGS ON SCHOOL GROUNDS. I gasp. "UM" I'm starting to feel nervous, he can get into a lot of trouble for this, it would be a waste if someone as amazing as him got expelled. "Calm down its prescription marijuana, the school has given me permission to use it outside the dorm buildings since its medical." My shoulders relax and I'm finally able to breathe. We both sat down under the tree.
I didn't want to pry too much but I became curious. "Um Shinso, if you don't mind me asking" he raises his eyebrows at me while trying to roll his product. "Whatsup?" "You said it's for medical reasons. What do you mean by that?" I notice him take a deep breathe, and I immediately regret asking. " I'm sorry you don't have to tell me if you don't want to!" "No no it's okay. I'm going to tell you because I can tell you're actually a good person and I know you won't go around telling people." His words made me happy, I'm glad he can see something good in me. "As you know people used to and some still believe my quirk is more villainous that heroic... Growing up I was always told that and it made me feel like shit if I'm being honest. I started distancing myself from others socially and began to have mini panic attacks when any form of attention was brought onto me. My therapists said that I had depression and instead of my parents putting in the work to actually deal with my mental problems they signed a pretty permission slip so I could just be given drugs like weed to help me cope. But I'm not complaining".
My eyes were wide now, he always seemed so strong and put together. I didn't realize how much he was struggling. " Who ever says your quirk is villainous is stupid! There's so much good you can do with an amazing quirk like yours. Just imagine all the criminals you can force to stop or-" I begin to ramble on and on about all the good. For the first time, I saw him smile and then laugh. "Thank you Midoriya '' he says softly.
We sit in a comfortable silence and I watch him slowly as he smokes the smelly essence. "W-what does it feel like?" I ask. He takes another puff and releases. "Amazing. It makes me feel safe, not normal but better than normal. Takes my mind off of my troubles. It makes me feel something." His last sentence echoed in my head for some reason. Before even thinking I opened my mouth "Can I try?"
He looked at me for a moment and I could tell he was thinking deeply about it. "I-I don't know. People have different reactions, and the feeling can be really addicting. You're an amazing person, and I don't want to be the reason for your downfall". I was really curious and a little desperate to try. I've been doubting myself, my place in the world, if I could make All Might proud, Kaachan... "I promise it will be a one time thing". Little did I know that it wouldn't.
Shinso took a deep breath. "Okay fine, just one hit. But if you don't feel good let me know." I smile brightly. He puts the bud over my lips and tells me to breathe it in until he says stop. I do as told and I immediately feel the burning sensation in my lungs. " Hold it," he says. I try my best to not cough, it just burnt so much. "Okay you can let go". I start coughing hysterically and he pats my back to get me to calm down. Tears were running down my eyes, it felt terrible. But once my fit of coughs stopped I felt like I was being rushed into the sky.
"Oh shit"
"You okay?" Shinso asked, shocked at my curse. "Yea" I say slowly. My heart was beating so fast for a second I thought I was having a heart attack. I felt so calm, for once my mind wasn't running a thousand miles per second. I felt amazing. I looked up at Shinso, who had a worried expression on his face. " I feel so wonderful" I then burst out into laughter. Shinso watches me with wide eyes and he begins to laugh as well. It was a sight to see.
I don't remember our conversations but we laid on the grass not noticing time passing by. Having meaningless conversations. I forgot about everything I was ever worried about, I even forgot that I was cold!
"Shinso you and me are like gods, we are gonna be amazing" I said feeling hyped up. Shinso smiled. Our conversation was cut short when we heard someone calling my name. "OI DEKU! WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU!?" Me and Shinso quickly stood up and disposed of the bud and he quickly put his stash away. This can't be happening! If Kaachan found out I would literally be dead garbage to him. "Try your best to act normal," Shinso whispered to me. Kaachan emerged from the bushes eyeing us.
*Third Person POV*
Izuku tried his very best to compose himself. The thing about being high, is that you automatically assume that everyone knows you're high.
Bakugo marched up to the pair of friends with a scowl on his face, hands in his pockets.
"You dumb ass! Everyones been looking for you, do you know what time it is?" Midoriya flinched and started pulling his sleeves down and scratching his hands. A habit he does when he's nervous. A habit Bakugo knows all too well. " I-it's only like 8:30" Izuku tries not to stutter. Bakugo looked like his eyes were about to pop out the socket. "You think it's 8:30! It's 10:00!". Izuku's eyes widened in shock, and Shinso's eyes stared at the rock on the ground like it was the most interesting thing alive. Izuku stands there wondering how time went by so fast when he felt as if everything was going in slow motion.
"Oh my god, I'm so sorry K-Kaachan. I didn't realize, we were so caught up in our conversation", which wasn't a lie exactly. "Yeah sorry" Shinso finally speaks.
Shinso and Bakugo stare intently at each-other , not breaking eye contact. Neither one is scared of the other. They barely had any interaction but the one time they did wasn't good. So they weren't on the best terms.
"I guess we should really go back to the dorm now," Izuku said, breaking the tension. Bakugo scoffed in annoyance. Shinso and Izuku said their goodbyes as they walked off into different directions.
Midoriya walked behind Bakugo trying his best to act normal. 'Is this how I normally walk?' he thought to himself. "Oi Deku! You really cost everyone some trouble, especially me. Why the fuck would you tell everyone you would be back soon and just disappear? Dumb ass". He glanced back at a zoned out Izuku. Izuku had been skipping over the tiles on the ground as if he were playing hopscotch. Bakugo stared intently at him. 'Why the fuck are his eyes so red? Nerd is a crybaby, but he's acting so weird'.
Midoriya realizes that he's being watched and notices that what he was just doing isn't normal behavior so he immediately stopped and apologized again.
They finally reached the dorm and stepped in the elevator, clicking on their designated floors. Bakugo had already sent a message to the group chat stating he found Deku.
The elevator ride felt like an eternity and Midoriya was higher than a kite. "So what were you and that extra doing?" Bakugo side eyed him. Midoriya wanted to avoid eye contact at all costs. "Like I said earlier Kaachan we were just talking." "For two hours, yeah right, then tell me what you were talking about."
'Fuck' Izuku thought, he couldn't remember a single conversation they had even though they talked about everything in the world from food, to animals, to how butts were awesome, literally everything. "Just quirk stuff", there was a ding and the door flew open. Izuku got off the elevator "well goodnight Kaachan" he said with a big smile and quickly ran to his room slamming the door behind him. 'That was insane! I hope Kaachan isn't suspicious'
'Somethings definitely going on. The damn nerd was acting way too weird, what is he hiding!?"