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sighing softly Ashfur headed out of the thunderclan camp. he didn't know what to do anymore... he loved a cat named Squrrielflight for basically his whole life.
and recently Ashfur felt like he had a chance with Squrrielflight since recently she was spending a lot more time with him. but when Ashfur asked her out on a date she refused and said that she only likes Ashfur as a fiend. this of course upset Ashfur.
After all, it seems that Squrrielflight was the only cat that cares about Ashfur. but now that Ashfur knows that Squrrielflight doesn't love him back they can't even still be friends because that will only make Ashfur love her more.
as he was walking Ashfur then began to sob. this was so unfair! in fact, his whole life was unfair.
Ashfur's siblings besides Ferncloud all died at a young age. then his mother, Brindleface was slain by a pack of dogs. then his mentor, Dustpelt ended up becoming mates with Ashfur's sister, Ferncloud, and neglected training him.
then Ashfur's father, Whitestorm ended up dying in the battle with bloodclan. the only cat besides Ferncloud that cared about him was Squrrielflight and now she was gone.
Ashfur didn't know what to do.
he didn't know how to comfort himself. most of the time he talked with Squrrielflight or thought about her. but now that Ashfur knows that Squrrielflight doesn't love him he can't think about her anymore.
Ashfur was thinking about going back to an old habit. he knows that what he did was bad and self-destructive. but right now he doesn't care. he just wants to try and make himself calm down.
sighing Ashfur stared down at his wrists. they were still scarred from his previous attempts. sighing a part of Ashfur didn't want to do this but the other part of him did and that part was winning.
unsheathing his claws Ashfur then looked them over. he was most likely going to regret this. but right now Ashfur doesn't care. not wasting any more time Ashfur then slashed his claws against his wrists, making them bleed slightly.
Ashfur glanced down at his wrist. the cuts that he just made weren't that deep. then again this was the first time Ashfur cut himself in a while. shaking away his thoughts the grey tom then slashed his wrists again, this time making even deeper cuts. he had to admit that this did hurt like hell. but Ashfur didn't care. after all, he deserves this.
as he was cutting himself Ashfur only did it deeper. but then he heard a horrified yowl behind him.
"w-what are you doing?" the cat demanded.
his eyes widening Ashfur leaped up and swiftly sheathed his claws. he didn't know which cat was behind him but he assumed it was Squrrielflight. but once he glanced around he felt even more shock pulse through him. it was Daisy!
Daisy is a cat that recently joined thunderclan. she used to be a loner, living at the horse-place. but she then joined thunderclan with her three kits Berrykit, Mousekit, and Hazelkit.
Ashfur didn't know much about Daisy. so he wasn't sure that he could trust her. so he was just going to lie.
"I was doing nothing." Ashfur spat back.
"don't lie to me." Daisy urged, taking a step closer. she then stared down at Ashfur's bloody wrist. "You cut yourself. didn't you?"
Ashfur didn't know what to do. but he couldn't lie. "Yes." Ashfur admitted.
"you poor thing..." Daisy said, pity in her gaze. "let me get some cobwebs."
Ashfur was half-tempted to argue but the grey tom decided to just nod. "alright..."
once Daisy arrived back with cobwebs the cream she-cat then wrapped them around Ashfur's wrist, making the blood soak up. once all the cobweb was red she then placed new cobwebs on.
"there. does that feel better? I can go get some poppy seeds if needed." Daisy offered.
"I don't want to bother you..." Ashfur said. it was embarrassing that he ended up getting caught doing this again.
"you aren't bothering me, honey. here I'll get you a poppy seed anyway." Daisy then returned with one and Ashfur ate it.
"So, what's wrong honey?" Daisy asked.
"I-I loved a cat named Squrrielflight for a while. she has been my only support for a while now. my mother died, my father died, my siblings died and my mentor went to go fuck my sister instead of training me. I have nobody and nothing to live for." Ashfur spat.
Daisy's eyes widened. she then sat down next to the grey tom and wrapped her tail around his shoulder. "your name is Ashfur. isn't it? I'm Daisy. I'll have to admit that I don't know much about you nor clan-life in general. but we are very similar. my mate, Smoky ended up dumping me for his new mate, Floss, and I had his kits and felt heartbroken. so I came here."
as Daisy spoke Ashfur's gaze traveled down to Daisy's pretty cream fur and he noticed that she had self-harm scars like him. although they weren't as deep or fresh.
"well, it looks like I'm not alone." Ashfur commented.
"of course your not alone, honey." Daisy smiled. "I'm here for you. I'm always going to be here for you. even though we don't know each other that much I would like to get to know you."
Ashfur's heart began to pound at the thought of being friends with a cat. Daisy seemed kind as well.
"I would like to get to know you as well." Ashfur grinned.
"It's getting late," Daisy muttered. "do you want to go back to the camp?"
Ashfur froze, not knowing what to say. "You can go back to the camp if you want. I do not want to be around my other clan-mates though. so I'm just going to sleep out here."
"that's fine. are you okay if I keep you company?" Daisy asked.
"s-sure...." Ashfur replied.
the two thunderclan cats ended up making a mess with a pile of moss. the two cats then curled up next to each other. Daisy was larger than Ashfur and ended up spooning him.
"good night." Daisy purred.
"good night." Ashfur replied, letting out a yawn and closing his eyes.
as he fell asleep Ashfur couldn't help but blush. he hoped that him and Daisy could become good friends.