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Sunoo didn’t know how much the others must’ve drank, but one after one his hyungs started passing out around him. Even Jungwon, ever so responsible, had drank a bit too much, and had some time ago gotten up and stumbled towards the bedroom, and Sunoo hadn’t seen his face since. Sunoo figured he was out cold, just like the rest, but they hadn’t had the sense to get into bed, rather laying around him and Ni-ki, snoring on the floor around the sofa and the living room table. Everyone had been so busy making sure Ni-ki didn’t drink too much on his first time, that they hadn’t noticed how much they drank on their own.
Sunoo, who had been legally able to drink for over two years at this point, knew that his tolerance was low, so he had been careful. He thought he was probably a bit drunk, yes, but not as bad as his hyungs were; unconscious.
Sunoo moved his gaze from where Sunghoon was lying ungracefully with his head on Jake’s lap, who also looked quite silly - his fingers were itching to photograph all of his hyungs in their current states - and looked at Ni-ki, who was the only one still conscious. Ni-ki was looking down into his can, frowning at the yellowish beverage. His cheeks were flushed from the alcohol, and all in all he was quite cute, Sunoo couldn’t help but think to himself. Even if he was an adult now, he was really cute, pouting at his drink. Sunoo couldn’t help the giggle that slipped through his lips.
That caught Ni-ki’s attention, and he blinked, before turning his gaze to meet Sunoo’s.
“Hyuung”, the boy said, slurring slightly. “Why're you laughin' at me?”
Sunoo couldn’t help but let out another giggle, despite the glare it earned him. It didn’t look very intimidating, accompanied by the other man’s big pupils and droopy eyes.
“I’m not”, he simply responded, smiling.
Ni-ki squinted at him, but then he did a once-over, looking around them.
“Huh”, he said, looking at the hyungs. “Are they sleeping?”
Sunoo giggled again. God, he always got like this when he was drunk .
“Yeah”.
Ni-ki hummed.
“And they boasted about how well they could hold their liquor too…”
Sunoo nodded.
“I think they were busy making sure you and Jungwon-ah took it easy, but look how that turned out”.
Ni-ki hummed again.
“Did Jungwon hyung go to bed?”
Sunoo took a sip out of his cider, before responding.
“Yeah, a while ago, he had more brains than the rest of them, who simply just laid down and slept”.
At that, Ni-ki grinned, looking towards the hyungs again.
“Our hyungs are morons”.
Sunoo giggled, feeling like a parrot at this point. But how could he not laugh? Everything was great.
“Moorons”.
They shared a smile, and then Sunoo held out his hand.
“Gimme your beer, Ni-ki”.
Ni-ki raised an eyebrow at that, and then squinted.
“No, why? 'M not done with it, and you’re as drunk as me, hyung”.
Sunoo sighed.
“Silly, I’ll give you my cider, you were so busy glaring at your can that you didn’t notice any of the others passing out. I could tell you didn’t like it, but you drank it because Jay hyung and Heeseung hyung were so happy to see you taste it, right?”
Sunoo lifted his own can towards the maknae, to show him what he’d get in exchange.
“This tastes like soda, I bet you’ll like it better. I’m fine with beer”.
Ni-ki hesitated for only half a second, before he nodded, and held out his beer. Sunoo took it, and then gave his own drink to the other boy. Ni-ki looked down at the can, and then took a small sip. Sunoo saw immediately that it was more to his liking, judging by how Ni-ki’s eyes widened, and he took a bigger sip. He couldn’t stop another giggle, it was impossible to stop it.
“Better?”, he said, smiling and taking a sip out of Ni-ki’s drink. It wasn’t too bad, not as good as the cider, but not as bad as Ni-ki seemed to find it.
Ni-ki nodded.
“Thanks, Sunoo hyung!”
Sunoo smiled, and hummed.
“If you finish it, we should have a few left, unless you’re starting to get tired”.
Ni-ki shook his head.
“‘M not”. He then blinked. “Are you?”
Sunoo shook his own.
“No, not really”.
That earned him another smile, which Sunoo returned. After taking another sip out of his can, humming appreciatively, Ni-ki spoke.
“What should we do?”
Sunoo shrugged.
“Don’t know, what do you wanna do, Riki-ya?”
Ni-ki smiled.
“I like when you say that”.
Before Sunoo could react though, Ni-ki continued.
“We could play truth or dare”.
Sunoo blinked.
“But there’s only the two of us here, where’s the fun in that?”
Ni-ki pouted at that.
“I know, but I’ve never played it and I’ve seen them play it at parties in movies”.
Sunoo rolled his eyes.
“Is this a party?”
Ni-ki gave him his pleading look, blinking at him. Like a puppy .
“Hyuung, c’mon, it’s my birthday”.
Sunoo sighed, and shrugged.
“Alright, alright. I haven’t played it either”.
Ni-ki nodded, smiling at once.
“Great!”. He then frowned. “How do you play?”
Sunoo couldn’t help but roll his eyes again. This kid…
“You ask the other person ‘truth or dare’ and then depending on their answer, you either ask them to answer something or do something, and if they refuse, they have to drink”.
Ni-ki nodded, and left his hand to scratch the top of his head, messing up the styling of it even more.
“Okay, okay. Who goes first?”
Sunoo scooted forward, getting closer to Ni-ki where they were sitting on the sofa, and pointed to himself.
“I go first?”
Ni-ki nodded, crossing his legs. Sunoo mimicked his position, and then asked.
“Truth or dare?”
Ni-ki didn’t hesitate for long, an expectant look in his eyes.
“Truth”.
“Uhm…”, Sunoo tried to think of something, but his mind had nothing to offer. “How do you like drinking?”
Sunoo saw as the other man hummed, pulling his fingers through his hair again. He had to bite his lip to refrain from leaning forward to fix the mess he made of it.
“Boring question, but okay. It’s nice, I think”.
Sunoo stuck out his tongue.
“Your turn”.
Ni-ki nodded.
“Truth or dare”.
“Dare”.
“Take a photo of Heeseung hyung’s face up close”.
Sunoo groaned, but only partly serious. He put down his can on the table next to the sofa, and reached for his phone that was next to him. With one last look at Ni-ki, lifting his finger in a shushing manner, he crawled to the far corner of the sofa, where Heeseung was sleeping on the floor, back against the edge of it. As he clicked on the camera app, he heard Ni-ki let out a small laugh, and he did his best to not laugh himself. It was hard though, especially when he saw his handsome hyung’s face through the camera lens, looking absolutely destroyed. He took a quick picture, before crawling back. Immediately he put his phone down, and lifted his hands, pushing them against his lips. Just barely did he manage to keep the giggle that was trying to slip out at bay. Looking up, Ni-ki looked to be struggling just the same, and they both looked away from each other until they had their breathing under control.
Sunoo let go of his lips, breathing heavily.
“God”, he said, sounding crooked.
He looked at Ni-ki, who took a deep breath.
“Show me that tomorrow. Not now”.
Sunoo nodded, focusing on not laughing. They couldn’t wake them up.
“Truth or dare?”, he asked, as a distraction.
They went back and forth like that for a while, and it was quite fun, even if it was just the two of them. They cheated a bit, and drank even if they passed the request made, but it didn’t really matter.
This time, it was Ni-ki’s turn.
“Truth or dare?”
Sunoo fiddled with his can. He felt himself grow a bit tired, and he had started to grow a bit uncomfortable in his tight jeans. Pajamas sounded nice.
“Truth”.
When he met Ni-ki’s eyes, the other man had his brows in a furrow, and the next words seemed to come out in a rush.
“Have you ever kissed someone?”
Sunoo felt himself grow alert immediately. Kissed …? At once, his face felt hot, and he widened his eyes.
“Kiss?”, he repeated, feeling as if Ni-ki would laugh and point if he took it seriously. Was he joking?
But it didn’t seem so. Ni-ki let out a breath, and then nodded.
“Answer or drink”, he simply said, trying to sound nonchalant, even though his voice slightly shook and he looked flustered.
Sunoo swallowed.
“Uhm…”
What should he do?
“No”.
It seemed his mouth made that decision for him. Ni-ki’s eyes widened, and then he nodded, clearing his throat.
“Cool”, he just said.
Sunoo felt his face burn, and nodded too.
“Uh…”, he said, trying and failing to seem unaffected. “Truth or dare?”
He saw Ni-ki bite his lip, before he replied.
“Truth”.
Sunoo swallowed, as Ni-ki met his eyes, looking as if he was daring him to ask the same question in return. And, well, Sunoo didn’t like to lose, even if he wasn't really sure about what the stakes were at the moment.
“Have you kissed someone?”
Ni-ki’s reply came quickly.
“No, I haven’t”.
Sunoo nodded, feeling shy all of a sudden. The mood had changed, and he didn’t know how he felt about it. It felt heavy, loaded, unfamiliar - but not bad. He looked down on his can, now almost empty. Was it because of the alcohol?
“Okay”, he just said in response.
Ni-ki was silent for a few moments, and then his voice could be heard again, low and soft. It did something to Sunoo, but he wasn't sure what.
“Truth or dare?”
Sunoo couldn’t handle more questions like that, he felt weird, so he spoke quickly.
“Dare”.
Ni-ki didn’t say his dare for several moments. He heard him gulp, and then Ni-ki slowly spoke.
“Kiss me”.
Sunoo’s eyes widened, and he couldn’t suppress the small gasp that slipped through his lips as his head snapped up to face the other. Ni-ki’s face looked red, he looked affected by more than just the booze, but he also looked determined. Sunoo saw the maknae raise an eyebrow at him, once more challenging.
Sunoo couldn’t help but lick his lips, and swallow. His mouth felt dry all of a sudden.
“A-are you serious?”, he asked, voice sounding out of breath.
Ni-ki nodded, and shrugged, trying to look as if it was no big deal, but once more his face betrayed him.
“Yeah, I’m daring you to”.
Sunoo swallowed once more, as his mind feverishly tried to come up with the right answer to it. Could he really…? But then again, he thought, what was the harm? One, neither of them had kissed anyone, and both of them were adults. Two, between two friends and boys, it didn’t mean anything, right? Three, it was a dare, and he didn’t want to lose. And four, Ni-ki wasn’t a bad choice for a first kiss, was he? Ni-ki was so… Sunoo looked at the other, eyes going from his messy, dark hair, it was quite long now and it suited him, framing his face perfectly. And Ni-ki’s face was perfect, from his eyebrows to his deep eyes, to his handsome nose and then those plum and soft looking lips… He was tall and athletic, the black shirt, slightly tousled now, made him look so, so good. And Sunoo knew he smelled really good. What was the harm? It was just a dare, and at the end of it, if anyone should be his first kiss, why not Ni-ki? Someone he trusted and liked?
He was so lost in thought, that Ni-ki eventually turned away, looking embarrassed.
“Forget it hyung, it was… dumb. You don’t need to-”
Sunoo widened his eyes.
“No!”
They both flinched at the volume of his voice, and Sunoo swallowed, looking around to make sure he didn’t wake someone up. His heart was pounding in his chest. Now that he had made the decision, he would be very annoyed with himself if he ruined it. He looked at their hyungs, and they all still seemed to be sleeping, light snores filling the room. He had to be careful, if they woke up…
He turned back to Ni-ki, who’s eyes were wide.
“I’ll do it”.
He saw Ni-ki swallow, looking surprised even though he had been the one to dare him in the first place.
“... Really?”, the maknae said.
Sunoo nodded, feeling his face burn. Oh, he wished he had a mirror, just so he could see how his face looked right now. He had never felt self-conscious about his face around his members like this.
Not wanting to lose his courage, Sunoo put down his can of beer on the table in front of the sofa, which was now pretty much empty. He saw Ni-ki follow his movement, and then how he did the same. Sunoo took a deep breath, and then scooted closer to the other on the sofa, stopping when their knees touched. Like this, they were close, and Sunoo’s heart felt as though it would pound out of his chest. He could hear his own pulse in his ears. How did he end up here?
Ni-ki seemed to feel much the same, judging by how his breaths came out quicker.
“How do we…?”, he said in a hushed whisper, his breaths coming out against Sunoo’s face.
He smelt of raspberry cider, and Sunoo hoped his breath didn’t smell like beer.
“I guess we just…”, he said, and then reluctantly lifted one of his hands, putting it against Ni-ki’s cheek. Oh. It was so smooth and warm.
He felt the movement of Ni-ki nodding against his hand, and then the other man mirrored his movement, putting his own palm against Sunoo’s cheek. Ni-ki’s hand felt warm and slightly clammy, but it didn’t matter. Like this, the masculine scent of him was taking over Sunoo’s every sense, and combined with the smell of raspberry, it made him feel almost mad.
Sunoo swallowed, and wet his lips.
“I think we just lean in”.
Ni-ki nodded.
“Okay, hyung”.
“I think we should close our eyes”.
“Okay, hyung”.
And such, Sunoo closed his eyes, breathing through his nose and he slowly leaned in towards Ni-ki’s face. His face and body felt so warm, and he wondered if Ni-ki could hear the beating of his heart. When their lips touched, it was very soft, so soft it barely felt like they even touched. He let out a breath through his nose. Was this a kiss? Sunoo’s brain offered.
It seemed Ni-ki thought the same, based on how he pressed his lips harder against Sunoo’s, applying pressure so their lips were fully touching. Sunoo let out another breath through his nose. This was better. But still not enough .
In a moment of bravery, he tilted his face slightly, so their noses weren’t pressed together, which gave them better access to each other’s lips. With a baited breath, Sunoo slowly parted his lips a bit, letting his tongue stick out, wetting Ni-ki’s in the process. It’s because of the dare, it’s because of the dare, it’s because of the dare , his mind repeated, as he prodded his tongue slightly against Ni-ki’s lips, asking for access. His heart was pounding, he didn’t know what he was doing, but he had read enough romance novels to know what a real kiss was. And he wanted that, the warmth in his lower stomach really wanted it.
He felt Ni-ki shudder slightly, at the touch of his tongue, and the hand on his cheek moved, coming to hold over his neck, as Ni-ki parted his lips in a breath, and in that moment, his tongue slipped in between Ni-ki’s plum and soft lips.
It felt as if he got electrocuted, when Ni-ki’s tongue, hot and wet, hesitantly touched his, and Sunoo couldn’t stop the small sound that slipped through his mouth, sounding needy and embarrassing, but he couldn’t stop. They should’ve done this sooner, he thought. How had he been able to live on the earth for over 20 years, without experiencing this? It was hot, messy, uncoordinated, but still the rhythm worked, how their mouths moved against each other, their tongues entwined in a warm mess. Sunoo felt so hot and warm and good. Everything that existed was Ni-ki’s hand against his neck, holding him in place, the scent that surrounded him, and the sound of their kissing in the room.
Sunoo wanted more, he never wanted it to stop, he wanted to hold Ni-ki close, he wanted to touch him, he wanted Ni-ki to touch him, he wanted to taste him, he wanted to-
But like all good things, it came too a stop too soon, as a loud groan could be heard in the room. A groan that didn’t come from neither Ni-ki nor himself. Sunoo froze, and he could feel Ni-ki do the same. Sunoo opened his eyes, and found himself staring into Ni-ki’s, and for another moment they just stayed like that, mouth still on mouth, until another loud groan could be heard from beneath the sofa and Sunoo quickly snapped into motion, untangling his body from Ni-ki’s, scooting back on the sofa. He stared in horror at Ni-ki, who looked absolutely messed up, lips swollen and wet, and he knew he had to look the same. And he felt even more horrified, when he realised that he was so absolutely, terrifyingly turned on . He had gotten turned on from kissing his dongsaeng, on his birthday party, while under the influence of alcohol, on a fucking dare . Sunoo felt like he would start crying, even more so when he heard the snoring and the groans from around them, they had done that while the rest of their members were in the same room, and possibly could have woken up any minute. Which one of them now had.
He heard a voice speak from next to him, voice sounding thick and tired.
“Did I pass out?”
Sunoo glanced to his side, and saw Jay peek over the table, rubbing his eyes. Sunoo swallowed, putting his hands against his face, and nodded.
“Yeah, all of you did”.
Jay hummed, groaning again.
“Ouch, my head”.
He heard Ni-ki speak in a snarky tone, and it made Sunoo look up at him through his fingers.
“You all fell asleep, it was just Sunoo hyung who kept me company on my birthday, that was foul of you all”.
The way Ni-ki seemed to have collected himself, grounded enough to speak as if nothing, made Sunoo’s heart sink in his stomach. He was not okay, and he was still so painfully turned on in his tight pants, and it made him feel ashamed and dirty. It had just been a dare. Why had it turned out like this for him?
He interrupted anything Jay was about to retort, and put his legs over the edge of the bed, trying to get up without anyone seeing the state he was in.
“I’m tired, goodnight, happy birthday Ni-ki, goodnight hyung, bye”.
He didn’t wait for a response, but simply speed-walked to the bathroom. He felt close to tears, and he needed to take care of his awful problem.
***
When Sunoo got into bed about twenty minutes later, having taken a cold shower, cried and then jerked off, all while being attacked by the thought of Ni-ki kissing him, he didn’t feel much better. God, how could he mess up that badly. How could he ever look Ni-ki in the eyes again, knowing what he had done? He would have to quit the group, change his name, get plastic surgery, move to a new country, become a stripper... and then he would probably die. Oh, he would die before even turning 21.
He picked up his phone, checking it one last time before putting it to charge, and then blinked.
He had gotten a text.
[01:47]
Ni-ki 🐆🐥 : thanks for staying up with me hyung. sleep well. lets do that again some time, if u want to.
Sunoo blinked, just staring down at his screen. Then, his face blossomed up with heat, and the fear and disgust he had felt just moments prior vanished, giving way for wonder and something that felt closely resembling hope. Wait, wait what? As he typed a message back, he couldn’t help but smile, nervous but excited. Was this real?
He pressed send, and then put his phone down. He laid down on his back, just staring up onto the ceiling, breathing. Holy shit. He closed his eyes, feeling tiredness come over him. This time, when his brain was filled with thoughts of Ni-ki’s warm palm against his neck and his hot lips on his, he didn’t force them away. He just let them flood through his mind, and smiled.
[01:55]
Me : Don’t stay up too late. And sure, let’s do that, haha, it… was nice.
Truth or dare wasn’t a half-bad game, huh?