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“Stop getting into trouble Hyung!” Han Yoohyun sighed. He looks straight at his Hyung who got hurt after returning from the dungeon.

“How long do you want to keep going?” Han Yoojin was about to open his mouth but Han Yoohyun cut him off.

“You always cause trouble Hyung. I can’t always take care of you when you are in danger. I have so much burden I need to take care of for example my guild and now you always enter the dungeon and end up getting hurt. You don’t know how much trouble you gave me every single day.”

Han Yoohyun knows it was a harsh thing to say to his Hyung, it’s just, he wanted his Hyung to stop entering the dungeon. The word was not a safe place for his beloved Hyung. Not now, not ever.

Han Yoohyun put both of his hands on his Hyung shoulder. He sighs and lowers his head so that his Hyung didn’t see his expression.

“What exactly do you want me to do, so that you will stop doing all these things?”

Han Yoohyun just wanted his Hyung to always stay safe. He can just do it easily, like prisoning his Hyung or faking his death but he doesn’t want Han Yoojin to hate him.

Han Yoojin lowers his head and says “can I ask you something?” Han Yoohyun was curious about what his Hyung going to say.

“If someday you have achieved your dream and all your burden has gone, will you be happy?” His voice was trembling and his body was shaking.

If that dream will truly be accomplished, of course, Han Yoohyun will be happy. It means he can be with his Hyung without worrying about his Hyung’s safety. No. He will make sure that dream will be accomplished.

He wanted to be with his Hyung, he wanted his Hyung warm hug that can make him feel safe from the outside world. He wanted his Hyung’s attention and smile only to him. Only him. He will not let anyone get between them and if someone did, he will kill them all without mercy.

Of course, Han Yoojin didn’t know his true attention. It was for his Hyung’s safety. So Han Yoohyun’s answer was “yes” to his Hyung question.

Han Yoojin was in shock at what his brother answered. He once hopes for Han Yoohyun to explain to him why he left the house. He waits and waits for his younger brother to come back home but unfortunately, his younger brother never came back or even call him to say sorry.

Was it his fault that Han Yoohyun became like that? Did he do something to make his younger brother mad? He doesn’t want to be left alone in this cold and empty apartment. He was lonely, so lonely, and to make it worse, the whole world says bad things about him on the internet. They say that he only wanted his younger brother’s fortune and fame. They also say that Han Yoohyun abandon him because he was just a burden to him.

He was not an S-rank like Han Yoohyun, he was just an F-rank who always got hurt from entering the dungeon. He was not strong enough to fight the monster like his younger brother. He was just a bother to his younger brother. He deserves to be criticized by the people if its means that he can help Han Yoohyun to have a better life and always be happy.

Han Yoojin put his hand at Han Yoohyun's head. This makes Han Yoohyun surprised because it has been so long since his Hyung pat his head.

Han Yoojin smile at his younger brother. " I understand. I will stop worrying you anymore now if that means that I can help you even the tiniest bit." Han Yoohyun was shocked at what his Hyung said. Does this mean his Hyung will stop entering the dungeon and stay safe where Han Yoohyun will always see him? It was good news but why does it feel like his Hyung will go far away from where he can't even reach. Maybe it was his imagination. His Hyung finely understand his trouble, what more he could ask for.

"I'm glad you finally understood Hyung." Han Yoohyun hugs his Hyung and put his head on Han Yoojin's shoulder. He was smiling so brightly but Han Yoojin didn't smile brightly like his younger brother.

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It was midnight when Han Yoojin return to his apartment. His apartment doesn't feel like home since Han Yoohyun left. It was quiet and cold. It doesn't feel warm at all. Han Yoojin goes to his bedroom and sits on his bed. He felt his face feel wet so he touches his face and then he realize he was crying. He wanted to stop the tears but they kept falling and falling. He knew the reason he is crying right now. He knew, but it hurt so much that the only way to stop the pain is to cry.

Why did it turn out this way? Since when did it go wrong? If someone out there can answer him then maybe he can repair his relationship with his younger brother but is there? His parent had died due to an unspecific cause and the only family member he had is his younger brother. Han Yoojin just wants someone to be there for him when he's feeling down or when he got a bad day. Was that so much to ask. He loves Han Yoohyun so much that he is willing to sacrifice many things. He works many types of jobs so that Han Yoohyun can study in a good environment.

But ever since the dungeon appears, Han Yoohyun cut ties with him. Han Yoojin doesn't know the reason, so he thought that maybe because he was an embarrassment to Han Yoohyun. So Han Yoojin tries to become strong like his younger brother so that he can be at the same level as Han Yoohyun. But every time he wanted to enter the dungeon Han Yoohyun will get mad at him. Was it wrong for him to enter the dungeon or is it because he was an F-rank. Why can't Han Yoohyun explain to him the reason for all this?

Ever since then Han Yoojin can't feel the warmth in his younger brother's eyes, not like when Han Yoohyun was little. Every time he sees Han Yoohyun on the television or the internet, he feels like he was not in Han Yoohyun's world anymore. He can feel the distance between them is already far enough.

"If that is the only way to release the burden on your shoulder Han Yoohyun, then I will gladly help you do so. I will stop entering the dungeon and watch you from afar until you have achieved your dream. Then after that, I will remove your last burden Han Yoohyun. At that time, it will be the last duty as your older brother that I will do for you. Han Yoohyun, until then, please be safe."

Han Yoojin talks to himself. He imagines he is talking to Han Yoohyun. It make him feel that he was not alone. He always does this to make him feel better. To always feel that his younger brother was always beside him but the reality was different.

Maybe it's time for him to learn how to let go.

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It has been a month since Han Yoojin stopped entering the dungeon. Han Yoohyun always takes note of what his Hyung is up to every day. What his Hyung eat, the place his Hyung visit, and so on. Is Han Yoohyun a stalker? Well, you can say he is obsessed with Han Yoojin.

Who can blame him? It was Han Yoojin who always take care of him and gave the love that he didn’t get from his parents. Han Yoojin was the one who fill his lonely soul with sincere love. It makes sense if he is overprotective of his Hyung.

Back to the topic, Han Yoojin didn’t do much. Every morning he does some exercise at the park. He doesn’t need to work because Han Yoohyun always provides him with some money. But most of the time Han Yoojin just stays inside his apartment.

It makes Han Yoohyun finally feel at peace but not really. There are still many people trying to take him down and to that, they will target Han Yoojin. So Han Yoohyun will have to tighten the security around Han Yoojin. His Hyung safety is his top priority.

“Did anything happen to Hyung today?” Han Yoohyun ask to Kim Sunghan.

“As usual, there is nothing to happen to Sir Han Yoojin.” Kim Sunghan says.

Kim Sunghan remember there were a lot of reporters in front of the building. He just came back from observing Han Yoojin to make a report of his activity.

“Sir, what do we do with the reporters? They wanted to know why Han Yoojin didn’t go to the dungeon anymore.”

Han Yoohyun sighed. These reporters were annoying to him. Why do they so interested in his relationship with his Hyung? They are the reason for his relationship with his Hyung crack. Well, he was one to talk, he was the first reason Han Yoojin became more distant but he did it for a reason.

“Just ignore them, they will stop when they know they can’t get the information that they want.” Says Han Yoohyun.

Kim Sunghan just nods his head and exits the room.

When Kim Sunghan leaves the room, Han Yoohyun leans back on his chair and looks outside.

“What is Hyung doing right now? It has been so long since I have had a taste of Hyung food. Is he taking care of his health? Ugh, I just wanted to run to Hyung right now and hug him so tight.”

“If only I could.” Han Yoohyun smiled to himself. He feels like he is a useless younger brother right now. Will everything turn the way it used to be where his Hyung gave him a warm smile and always welcome him when he returns home? Will it?

If his Hyung was here, he will say that Han Yoohyun should never give up. Han Yoojin will hug him and tells him that he believe in him just like when he was in high school.

“Hyung, please wait for me. I will make sure that you won’t have to suffer anymore. We will be together.”

“Forever.”

It’s been a month seen he saw Han Yoohyun, well face to face of course. Most of the time he saw Han Yoohyun on television. That is the only way he feels rest assured to know that his younger brother is in a good health.

Ever since he agrees not to enter the dungeon, Han Yoojin just lives like a normal person. But if he wanted to go outside, he have to wear a mask to run away from reporters. So that is why he only goes out early in the morning to do some exercise and to buy some groceries. It was the only time the reporters weren’t in front of his apartment building.

It was hard but he is already getting used to it.

Most of the time Han Yoojin just checks his younger brother on the internet, reads some books, or sees an old album of his and Han Yoohyun picture.

“Oh, how cute Han Yoohyun at this time. It was his first time going to kindergarten. At this time he doesn’t want to go. He even pretends he is sick. It was a really cute moment.” Han Yoojin says happily. It brings back many happy memories he had with Han Yoohyun.

“Oh, this is at the time Han Yoohyun was about to take an exam for entering university.”

“It was …”

“It was the last time we spent together and the last picture we had taken.” Han Yoojin says with a sad voice. He smiles sadly at the picture. He caress the picture like it was the most treasured memory he hold.

Tears start to stream down from his face. He hugs himself like it would help me to calm down but it didn’t.

After Han Yoojin stops sobbing, he gets up from his spot.

“It’s not time to be sad Han Yoojin, it’s okay because you still have Han Yoohyun. You are still not alone.” He says that to himself so that he knows that he doesn’t have a reason to be sad.

“Right, Yoohyun-ah?” He looks at the imaginary Han Yoohyun that is standing in front of him. The imaginary Han Yoohyun caresses Han Yoojin's cheeks. Han Yoojin closes his eyes to feel the warmth of his younger brother’s hands but what he feels was no warmth but a cold and lonely apartment.

Han Yoojin fell from where he stood and start to cry again.

That night, Han Yoojin sleep while holding his younger brother’s picture.

One of the groups of reporters:

“What should we do? We don’t have any information about the Haeyeon Guild leader's older brother.”

“It’s been a month now, we should at least have some little information.”

The reporter sighs.

“If it comes to this, why don’t we just make fake information?”

“What do you mean?”

“I mean, we can just say that the Haeyeon Guild leader Han Yoohyun finally abandon his older brother Han Yoojin. The younger brother is finally free from the grasp of his useless older brother.”

The reporter smiled like a man who was about to kill someone.

“It will be the top news in the headlines tomorrow.”

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“Hyung, wake up. You promise me that we will go to the park today. Wake up Hyung!”

Who voice is that? Yoohyun-ah? His voice is the same as when he was a kid. There is no way that was his voice because the Yoohyun-ah voice is more mature than this. Why do I feel a tiny hand pulling my arm?

“Hyung, it’s time to wake up now!”

Han Yoojin opened his eyes and saw the room filled with sunlight, making the room bright. He turns his head to where the voice comes from. He shocks to see his younger brother whose body had turned into a kid. Han Yoohyun had a tiny body and his height is the same as when he was a kid.

Is this a dream? Han Yoojin touches Han Yoohyun’s face. He feels like it was not a dream. Does that mean the memories Han Yoohyun left him were a dream? But if this is truly a dream then Han Yoojin hopes he won’t wake up from this dream.

“Hyung, stop touching my face. You promise we will go to the park today so get ready.” Says the younger Han Yoohyun.

Han Yoojin pat Han Yoohyun’s head. “Okay, I’ll get ready. Wait for me in the living room.”

Han Yoohyun nods his head and leaves his Hyung room.

After Han Yoojin was ready, he goes to the living room to see Han Yoohyun but Han Yoohyun was nowhere to see. Han Yoojin calls Han Yoohyun’s name but was greeted by silence. He searches the whole room but Han Yoohyun was gone like a speck of dust.

Han Yoojin search his room again and how glad he was to see Han Yoohyun was in his room all this time.

“So this where you have been Yoohyun-ah. I search for you everywhere. Why didn’t answer me when I was calling your name?” Han Yoojin says to his younger brother.

“You are not my Hyung.” Han Yoohyun’s head was down so Han Yoojin can’t see his younger brother’s expression.

“What did you say?” Did he mishear what his younger brother says?

“I SAID YOU ARE NOT MY HYUNG!” Han Yoohyun shout to Han Yoojin. Then, he points to Han Yoojin.

“My Hyung wouldn’t cause me trouble. He would just sit still and know his place. He will live his life quietly. He will not embarrass me for being an F-rank. Give me back my Hyung.” Han Yoohyun grips his hand tight. Han Yoojin can see a lot of hate in Han Yoohyun’s eyes.

Han Yoojin was going to touch Han Yoohyun but was slapped away by his younger brother.

“I SAID, GIVE BACK MY REAL HYUNG TO ME. DON’T ACT LIKE YOU ARE MY HYUNG. I DON’T HAVE A HYUNG THAT IS USELESS TO ME.”

“You don’t deserve to live.”

Han Yoojin’s eyes turn wide. His whole body trembled like a leaf and his face turn pale as if he saw a ghost. Han Yoojin grabs Han Yoohyun’s hand.

“It’s not true Han Yoohyun. I am your Hyung and always will be. This fact will not change. Yoohyun-ah look at me and tell me you just joking with me. Please Yoohyun-ah. I’m begging you, please says this is not true.”

“Stop dreaming and see the true reality. I don’t and will not ever have a worthless Hyung. You will be more useful when you are gone.” Han Yoohyun’s words were like a dagger that pierces his heart.

It hurt so much. Han Yoojin feels like he is drowning in a deep sea. He feels like he can’t breathe as if someone is choking him. Maybe he should die now rather than make his younger brother suffer.

Han Yoojin woke up in shock. His whole body was sweating. His breathing was unstable. He tries to calm himself down.

“It was just a bad dream. Yes, just a bad dream. It is not real.”

After he had calmed himself he look at the clock and see that it was already afternoon. He left his bed to get something to drink. After he gets a glass of water, he turns on the television.

There was news about Haeyeon Guild, so he turn on the volume.

“Is it true that you finally cut ties with your older brother? Please answer our question Haeyeon Guild leader.” One of the reporters says.

They were in front of the Haeyeon Guild while asking questions to Han Yoohyun who was trying to get into his guild building. Han Yoohyun stops to answer the reporter’s question.

“It’s true.” Says Han Yoohyun

There was a silent moment after what Han Yoohyun said. Then, the reporters start asking questions again. Han Yoojin on the other hand was shocked. Did Han Yoohyun want to cut ties with him? Since when? This is just another nightmare right. This is not real.

Han Yoojin pinches himself. He felt hurt from where he had just pinch. It is not a dream, this is real. His younger brother is finally cut ties with him forever. This is not what he wants. This is not how it is supposed to go.

Han Yoojin felt like he was panicking. He doesn’t know what to do. It felt like he had no more reason to live.

“No. I have to ask Yoohyun-ah myself. I have to meet him face to face. He must have his reason why he answers like that. There is no way Yoohyun-ah will do that to me. I’m the only family member he had. I know my sweet younger brother is still there.”

“He still the same dongsaeng I know.”

At Haeyeon Guild

Han Yoohyun was doing his work when he got disturbed by an argument from outside of his office. He was going to ignore it, but when he heard his Hyung voice he change his mind. When he opens the door of his office, he sees his Hyung’s desperate reaction for an answer. He know what Han Yoojin was going to ask.

“I’m sorry Sir. You ask me not to let anyone disturb you but Sir Han Yoojin wants to meet you. I already tell him that but he doesn’t want to listen.” Says Kim Sunghan

“Yoohyun-ah, please tell me what you answer the reporter’s question was not real. Please Yoohyun-ah.” Han Yoojin’s facial reaction was like he was about to cry.

“The answer I have given is clear Hyung or should I say Han Yoojin. Believe what you want but know this, we don’t have any connection anymore. So don’t act as if you know me.” Says Han Yoohyun coldly to Han Yoojin.

“Kim Sunghan, show Sir Han Yoojin the way out.” Kim Sunghan nods his head and takes Han Yoojin out of Han Yoohyun’s sight. Han Yoohyun close his office door and he fell to the floor.

“I’m sorry Hyung. I’m so sorry. Both of us should live this way. It is for the better.”

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It has been 2 weeks since the news about the Han siblings. Many people still talking about it. Most of them were happy about the news and most of them commented negatively about Han Yoojin. Every time Yoojin watches Yoohyun on youtube or any other website he always found bad comments about him, like…

“Han Yoojin should just end his life, he is such a pester to Han Yoohyun.”

“Man, why did he even born for, he just keeps giving his dongsaeng headache.”

“Poor Han Yoohyun, how hard was his life to live with his selfish brother.”

“Han Yoojin should be glad that his little brother didn’t kill him, if I were him I would already kill him long ago.”

“Serve him right for treating his younger brother like that. Han Yoohyun should cut ties with him a long time ago.”

Even if the comments about him all felt hurt, the most hurt he felt was when his dongsaeng didn’t acknowledge him as a family anymore. It hurt so much that he cries for 3 days. He didn’t eat or go out for fresh air. He just lock himself in his bedroom for the whole day.

Even worst, he keeps having nightmares every time he tries to sleep. The nightmare was like a loop, it keeps showing the same dream about Han Yoohyun leaving him.

Because he lacks sleep, he always feels like he saw black shadows surrounding him and hears a weird voice. He knows it is just a delusional but it feels like he is turning crazy right now. He keeps asking for help but there is no one to give him a hand.

One day, because he can’t take it anymore, he goes to a medical clinic to get some sleeping pills. It did help him for a few days but the sleeping pills weren’t enough to help him get rid of the feeling of pain inside of him.

He wanted to relive the pain so much that he started doing self-harm-like cutting his skin. When he first did that, he feels like he can be alive again. It makes him so happy.

But it didn’t stop there, he start cutting himself every time he feels lonely, sad, angry, or something that make him uncomfortable.

This time too he wants to cut himself. The reason was when he goes out to buy some food at the convenience store, the people who saw him start to talk badly about him in a low voice while looking at him. It felt so uncomfortable.

When he was done buying some food and exit the convenience store, some random people start to throw rubbish at him and yell at him “You should just die you pathetic jerk!”

The people who saw the situation started to laugh at him.

Yoojin return home quickly as possible and drop the bag that was full of food on the floor while hurriedly grabbing a sharp knife in the kitchen and locking himself inside the bathroom.

He starts to cut himself on his wrist. It was one cut but then it turn into two and two cuts turned into three and three cuts turn into many cuts. There was so much blood on the floor. The blood keeps falling from where the cut came from.

Yoojin then flops to the floor slowly. Yoojin smiled like a madman who had fulfilled his lust.

“Oh, how I love this feeling like being alive again. It’s like I can breathe again. But, why do I feel like it is not enough? I want more, more. These small cuts are not satisfactory enough. I need more!”

Yoojin starts to cut himself again.

“I deserve to feel this pain. It is because I was not a good brother to Yoohyun-ah! I’m the reason Yoohyun-ah became like that. If only I pay attention to him more, if only I listen to him from the start, this whole thing will not become like this!”

Tears start to roll down from Yoojin face. He stops cutting himself. He starts to cry his eyes out while sitting on the floor and hugging his knees. The blood keeps falling without stop.

After a few minutes later Yoojin felt sleepy and his vision was a bit blurred. The last thing he saw was Han Yoohyun face that was like he was shouting his name and then everything turn dark.

It’s been a while since the reporters stop following Yoojin. It was because the reporters that make the false news were all dead. They were found dead in the Han River one week ago. The case was still a mystery because the killer was not found and there were no signs of the case being a murderer. So the police still investigate the case.

Yoohyun was happy that he get to get rid of the annoying bugs that were always near his Hyung but this still didn’t help him to repair his relationship with Yoojin. The reason he answers “yes” to the reporter’s question is that he got the news that the other guilds were trying to target Yoojin.

If he can kill the other guilds easily, he can but he doesn’t want to get his Hyung in trouble. So the only option is to show to the other guilds that he doesn’t care about Yoojin’s safety. The plan did work but the effect is he had just hurt his Hyung heart.

He thought that Yoojin will understand but it seemed that he thought wrong. He heard from Kim Sunghan that Yoojin had been locking himself inside the apartment all day and today he heard from Kim Sunghan that his Hyung was being tormented by the people when his Hyung was buying some food.

He says that the expression on Yoojin’s face when he was running from the people was like he was not okay.

So today Yoohyun decide to visit his Hyung. He was now in front of the apartment but hesitated to ring the doorbell but suddenly he heard a loud thud inside the apartment.

He ring the bell 3 times but no one answered so he tries to enter the password to open the door. He remember Yoojin liked to use his birthday for the password but to his surprise, the password was still the same as it was before.

When the door opens, Yoohyun quickly searches for his Hyung. He search for him in every room but he was nowhere to be found. There was still the last room he didn’t search yet and that is the bathroom. When he opens the bathroom door, his eyes turn wide, and his body trembles. He can’t believe what he saw.

Yoojin was on the floor that was full of blood. Han Yoohyun quickly goes to his Hyung.

“H-how did this happen.”

“Y-Yoohyun-a-ah.” Says Yoojin while holding his brother’s cheek with a trembling hand.

“Hyung can you hear me,” Yoohyun says while looking at Yoojin with worried eyes.

“I finally see you. I have been waiting to se...” Says Yoojin when his voice starts to sound like a whisper and his eyes start to close.

“Hyung wake up. WAKE UP. DON’T CLOSE YOUR EYES. LOOK AT ME HYUNG, LOOK AT ME! YOU GONNA BE OKAY! TRUST ME!”

Yoohyun quickly picks his Hyung up in a bridal style and uses one of his skills to go to the nearest hospital.

When he arrived at the hospital he quickly call for the doctors to take care of his Hyung as soon as possible.

“If anything happened to him I will kill every one of you and burn this place to the ground,” Yoohyun says in a serious voice to all the doctors that were supposed to attend Yoojin.

After Yoojin enters the emergency room. Yoohyun sits on the chair and bends his body.

“Hyung, please be okay. Don’t leave me. You promise me you will always be there for me forever.”

“Hyung, I’m so sorry.”

“Please be alive.”

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Yoojin open his eyes but his sight was kind of a blur for a moment and his head was kind of dizzy. He can’t see his surroundings well but one thing is for sure he was still alive. Yoojin tries to talk but his voice was kind of rough. He tries to get up but he doesn’t have any energy to lift himself even when he wanted to lift his hand, it was so hard.

He then saw some kind of object besides his bed. He uses all his energy to reach the object but when he reaches and grabs the object, his hand slip and the object fell. He then heard a loud crash.

‘So it was a glass cup.’ Thought Yoojin. Yoojin heard a door open and he heard a voice that he had been missing for a long time.

“Hyung, you finally awake! Are you okay? How do you feel? Hyung answer me.” Said Yoohyun in a worried tone of voice while grabbing Yoojin’s hand and holding it tightly like Yoojin will disappear anytime soon.

“Yoohyun-a-ah,” Yoojin says in a raspy voice.

“Ah, you need water right. W-wait, I will get a new glass of water and some food. Don’t go anywhere okay Hyung. Just stay put.” Says Yoohyun.

‘Where do you think I can go?’

After a while, Yoohyun returned. Because Yoojin doesn’t have any strength to hold anything, Yoohyun being the good dondsaeng he is helped fed Yoojin.

He guessed he was in the hospital right now and on top of that he was in the VIP room too. Yoojin looked at his dongsaeng carefully. He can see dark circles under Yoohyun eyes as if he lacks sleep and it seems Yoohyun getting skinnier.

“How have you been Yoohyun-ah?” says Yoojin while smiling brightly at Yoohyun. He knows it was a stupid question but he just doesn’t know how to start a conversation with Yoohyun.

Yoojin doesn’t know how to contain his happiness because the fact that Yoohyun was beside him and worried about him means that his younger brother still thinks of him as someone important.

Yoohyun didn’t answer Yoojin’s question instead, he just stays silent and didn’t move an inch. After a while, Yoohyun finally open his mouth.

“What the hell do you think you were doing Hyung?” Yoohyun said under his breath while his body was trembling.

“What was that?” Yoojin tilted his head to the other side like he doesn’t understand Yoohyun’s question.

Yoohyun grip Yoojin’s shoulder “WHAT WERE YOU THINKING HARMING YOURSELF LIKE THAT? YOU COULD HAVE DIED.”

“You…you almost left me alone,” Yoohyun said while lowering his head.

“Why…just why did you do that, Hyung?”

. . .

“Who left who first?” Yoojin said in a sarcastic tone.

“You were the one that wanted to cut ties with me. So whatever happens to me, doesn’t have anything to do with you.”

“Why did you save me Yoohyun? We could have ended it all. You won’t have to suffer anymore and you can achieve your dream easily. Please… please let me go Yoohyun. Stop torturing me with false hope so that when I leave I don’t feel regret when I left you, Yoohyun-ah.”

Yoojin smile but it’s not the kind of smile that Yoohyun wants but a smile like someone that has been hurting for a long time and was begging to be free.

No, this was not what Yoojin wanted to say. He wanted to hug Yoohyun, he wanted to tell him he was sorry for whatever he had done. He wanted to tell Yoohyun, that even if he was not in Yoohyun’s world anymore, he will always think of Yoohyun.

But when Yoojin remembers the day or any other day Yoohyun gives the cold shoulder to him, Yoojin felt angry with Yoohyun. He is also a human who has feelings.

Yoohyun was the one who wanted to end their relationship. He is the one who says Yoojin only adds a burden to his life and not just him, everyone says so.

It’s just, that Yoojin was tired. He just wanted to end everything right now and left everything behind. He knows he will leave Yoohyun alone but he was sure enough that Yoohyun will always have someone strong enough to help Yoohyun when he was lost.

Yoohyun doesn’t need a brother who only gives trouble to his younger brother. Yoojin was ready to let go of everything. So why…why is Yoohyun crying in front of him right now?

What exactly does Yoohyun want from him?

“I’m sorry Hyung…I-I’m so s-sorry. Hic…hic.” Yoohyun cried while gripping Yoojin’s hand tightly.

“Why are you apologizing? … You were the one who wanted this, I just fulfilling my role as your older brother. So why… WHY ARE YOU CRYING RIGHT NOW YOOHYUN?!” Tears fall from Yoojin eyes.

Since when did all things go wrong? We were both happy when we were little. Even when our parents neglect us, we stay together. Even when things go wrong, we both got each other backs.

“I never m-meant things to turn out this way. Please trust me, I-I did all this for a reason. S-so… please don’t leave me. Don’t abandon me, H-Hyung!” Yoohyun cries his eyes out.

When Yoojin saw the state his younger brother was in, he almost want to forgive him but sadly he was not some kind of saint. “Yoohyun, at least tell me the real reason you left,” Yoojin said with a calm voice.

“F-for now, I can’t tell you. Can you wait until I’m ready to tell you?” It was not the answer Yoojin wanted. Why can’t Yoohyun just tell him? Does Yoohyun not trust him enough?

Yoojin sighed, “For now I will wait but my patience has its limits.” Yoohyun nods his head “I will not let you down Hyung!” Yoohyun says happily. Yoojin pat Yoohyun’s head while giving a soothing smile to Yoohyun.

‘You better not be, this will be the last chance I gave you Yoohyun.’ Yoojin said to himself.

“Yoohyun can you leave me alone. I want to rest.”

“Oh, ok. Well, have a good rest then.” Yoohyun says with a sad tone. His eyes have turned puffy from all the crying.

When Yoohyun was about to close the door, he turn to look at Yoojin one last time. It hurt his hurt to see his Hyung expression like someone who has lost their soul and his eyes who seem to lose their meaning in life.

Yoojin saw his dongsaeng still in front of the door. He smiled at Yoohyun while waving his hand. But Yoohyun know that his Hyung smile was fake. Yoohyun smiles back and closes the door.

After he was far away from Yoojin’s room, Yoohyun took out his cell phone and called Kim Sunghan.

“Tomorrow tell the reporters that Han Yoojin had died from an accident and rent a place that far away from the city. Make sure that the place is secure.” Yoohyun hang-up the call.

“I’m sorry Hyung, I don’t want to go this far too but you leave me no choice.”