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Was it my desperate wish to see you that
summoned you here before me?
My unanswered questions, uncertain feelings
all vanish, insignificant, when I see you.
You grant me the sight of your once-familiar
smile, and for a fraction of a second,
I can pretend everything is as it was before.
But you are not here - were never here -
and I am alone.
I do not know what you were praying for –
I did not pray for a miracle
and yet you see me.
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Did the gods hear the prayers I offered up
and chanced to make me their oracle?
There was an echo, a mirage, a fault line in time.
There was you – sunshine in the snow –
And he beside you – clad in black.
The vision of future things not yet come to pass.
I, separated from you, by more than spacetime,
stand at a distance.
But you lift your head and beam at me,
lovelier than any poet’s description.
And I know in that moment that
you see me.