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You’re not sure how to feel.
The thing about you is that for the most part you’re mostly happy. You don’t stay angry or sad for too long and that’s good. That’s good because no one wants to just be upset. But sometimes…
Sometimes you just wanna stay angry but you know that no matter what you’ll be over it in minutes or a couple hours or maybe even a day but no more than that. Because you get over things fast and you don’t hold grudges, never have and never will. And that’s supposed to be a good thing, it’s supposed to be but sometimes you just wanna stay sad or angry and cry because it hurts. It hurts and you want them to know that.
You want them to know that you're angry. Because even though you won’t be mad for long, you’ll always be hurt because of what they’ve said. That is something you’ll never get over, not as quickly anyway.
The reality is this: you're tired of it. What “it” is, well that’s something you're gonna have to figure out. But you're tired of it. This, at least, is something you know. Just like you know that nothing will change because this is how it is.
You just don’t think you can change the way you are.