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it took jimin twenty years to realize time doesn’t stop for anyone, no matter how much you try. grappling with the clock as time just keeps on ticking - just as it always has - but at the same time not doing much to fill those hours with something worthy.
he never knew in which direction his life would take, spending most of his precious time in his bed reading book after book, listening to podcast after podcast. occasionally he would look up to the small digits on the top of his computer screen.
11:52
14:36
19:17
22:59
02:23
another day gone to waste. but, he’s still young - he’s got time.
some days he doesn’t really care, he’s got all the time in the world! despite his parent’s constant nagging that time ticks by faster than you think - he can’t really see it. but who can? one day you have just turned twenty - and the next ten years have gone by without any warning, and no one said a word. and you try so hard to catch up with everyone, with yourself and with the sun - but it’s futile. all your friends are years ahead of you and you can’t keep up with their pace. it’s tiring and you still have so much left to do. it’s like you one day sit down to eat dinner and then life as you know it has ended.
jimin hates it. he sees everyone moving in pace with each other - and he is standing in the middle of it. just riding along with the tide, and no matter how much he wants to walk by himself along with everyone else, the tide is too strong. he’s short of breath and always one day closer to death.
but how do you even move forward? how do you flow so smoothly like everyone else seems to be doing? in jimin’s mind it’s simple. you just don’t. it gets so overwhelming trying to be an adult and make the best out of the time you’ve been handed. it’s very much each man to himself - why else would he stand here alone when everyone else seems to be running?
and the thing is, even knowing all of this, you still think you think you have time. you refuse to acknowledge that you were fourteen six years ago, even though it feels like last week. you can’t seem to put it in perspective. so you keep treading the same track you always have.
jimin sighs. i hope someone will tell him when to start running.