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Five: I'm not afraid of you

Jayme: Really? you can't tell, you look like a dog with its tail between its legs.

Five: What do you want from me?

Jayme: Torture you

Five: I'd rather you kill me

Jayme: I'd rather you suffer

- She moves closer until their lips are too close together. Five's pulse quickens. His breathing increases

Jayme: I don't scare you yet

Five: Ok, yes, you really scare me.

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Five and Jayme walk side by side, both lost in their own thoughts, in the middle of all the mess...

Five: It can't happen again

Jayme: What are you talking about? 

Five: you know, about yesterday

They both thought about that kiss ....

Jayme: mmm I see (a shy smile is drawn on her lips)

Five: what? what are you laughing at?

Jayme: you're still afraid of me 

Five: pfff, I'm not afraid of you....

Jayme: Oh no? Then why are you so tense? (Asks approaching Five) why are you getting so nervous?

Five doesn't say anything, he just looks away to his right.

Jayme: (laughs? Haha it's obvious, you're a little boy in the middle of puberty, you've never been in love. You're so scared screaming for help

Five: Hey! That's not true, you don't know shit about me!

Jayme: So I hear you, how much of an expert are you on love?

Five: Enough to know that I could never like a person as obnoxious as you.

Jayme: ooow, "you just broke my heart" hahaha (says with sarcasm)

Five: Fuck you

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Will you tell me who your pubescent heart belongs to?

- What did you say?

- You said you know what love is, I'm still waiting for you to tell me.

Five didn't answer...

- Well, you're not going to tell me. I understand, I'm not someone you trust to do that.

- It was a while ago. 45 years and 2 months to be exact. She was so helpless, so alone, I couldn't leave her like that, I couldn't do nothing. I think she trusted me so much, but I was so foolish and lost everything just on a cocky teenage whim.

- Vanya right?

- I didn't even say her name

- You don't have to. I've known it ever since you arrived at the academy that day. The way you look at her, talk to her and protect her, in a way you don't do with others, it was quite obvious. And...now I understand why you didn't reciprocate the kiss.

- Hey, no. Don't think that.

- Come on pet, you know, it wasn't. You almost threw up from the disgust it made you feel.

- I'm telling you no! I didn't dislike it, I'm not repulsed by love, kissing or sex. It just, it just scares me a little, you know, I haven't had the chance.

- Not even in the time you were on the commission?

-well, actually yes, I had opportunities, but I didn't do it. You know why...

-I understand, you wanted it to be her, the first one of all, right? I should apologize then, for kissing you

-You shouldn't. Besides, it was on both our parts, I got carried away too. I don't dislike you, not at all. I think you're amazing.

- But your little pubescent heart belongs to Vanya, I know and I understand. At least I taught you how to kiss her, hormonal boy.

- It was already rare that you didn't insult me