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Tubbo knows he's not supposed to behold his feeling.
But he can't.
He can't say he falling in love with him.
Tubbo should know better.
Now, he is looking at his face in the mirror. Wet face after washing his face with water. He watches his face look so pathetic. Tears keep flowing down his face. He wanted to scream, he wanted to punch something.
But Tubbo can't.
He can't, Tubbo has to contain his emotions. he can't be mad 'randomly'.
He tries to hold his tears, but it's failed.
What should he do now?
Tubbo doesn't know.
He washes his face again, trying to calm himself down. Trying to didn't think about something make him sad. He is not supposed to be sad on a happy day. He can't. He has to be happy.
He must.
Feeling calmer, Tubbo finally came out of the toilet. He fixed his tie, fixed his suit and he wiped his face with a tissue, trying to hide his tears. Taking a deep breath, he finally leaves.
Tubbo walked into the room, opened the door, and revealed a blonde-haired man sitting in his chair. Smiling softly and looked at the Tubbo.
"Big T! You're going so long you know! I need your help!"
Tubbo smile. He walked closer to his friend. Hugging him tightly, he returns the hug.
"Yeah, sorry Tommy. I'm just, you know going to the toilet before coming here."
Tommy laugh. Ah, yeah. What a beautiful laugh from his sunshine. Tubbo can't take his eyes off Tommy. He is so bright and pretty. Beautiful and handsome. he's a beloved friend.
"Oh yeah? So that's why you don't want to come?"
Tubbo just laughing back. He tried to hide his painful voice from his laugh. But maybe Tommy to dumb to realize that.
"Of course not, Toms. I'm here right? Of course, I want to come."
Tommy smiles widely. He chuckled, hugging Tubbo's shoulders tightly. Tubbo just smiles back.
"Well, you'll be my man. You need to be proud of that."
Tubbo just nodded, trying to keep his smile. It's so painful for him. His chest feels so tight. But Tubbo knows he can't cry right now. He has to be strong.
For his best friend.
"Yeah. Your man. Very good, yeah?"
Someone knocks on the door. Tubbo and Tommy turn their head, looking at a brown-haired man now looking at them with a smile on his face.
"Ready Toms? Tubbo? It will start."
"Ah shit. Alright then."
Tommy looked at himself in the mirror. He now straightened his coat, took his tie, and put it on. Tommy looks difficult to put on his tie. Tubbo laughed at that.
"Still struggling with tie, huh?"
"Oh shut up, Tubs!"
Tubbo walking close to Tommy, Takes over his tie and starts to fix Tommy's tie. Tommy smiles watching his friend being a good friend. Tubbo still focused on Tommy's tie.
"Alright, is done! You are so stupid, boss man. You can wear your tie?"
"Shut up. I'm trying okay? I'm still learning."
Tubbo just laughing. Another knock came from the door, a sign that Tommy shouldn't be in the room any longer.
"I'm coming! Let's go Tubs!"
"You know-- I'll come after you."
Tommy just nodded, he leave Tubbo alone in his room. Tubbo just smiles, watching Tommy leave.
No, Tubbo.
You can't cry again.
He needs to be ready. His friend needs him in there. He has to watch his friend too.
This day it's supposed to be a happy day. You can't ruin in, Tubbo.
Now, Tubbo going into his seat. He still standing and watching into the altar. His friends standing in there.
Yeah.
Altar
The main door opened. A woman entered the church. She is wearing a white dress. Her face is beautiful and her brown eyes look so happy. Tubbo can say, she is the beautiful woman in this room right now.
He can see the smile on Tommy's face. It's a different smile when Tommy is with him. It's different looks when Tommy is with him.
It's Love.
Tubbo wants to cry.
The girl stepped closer to the altar. Tommy's hand was raised, reaching out his hand to welcome the bride. The girl is laughing, and Tommy smiles widely.
What a beautiful couple.
They are looks good together.
I hope for their happiness.
I hope that was me.
Tubbo hope that's was him.
Maybe, maybe if Tommy is gay or just Bisexual. They can be a good couple. They can happy to have each other. They complete each other.
But, Tommy is straight.
He fell in love with the beautiful girl.
The other women
Tubbo hopes he was a woman.
So he can marry his best friend.
Tubbo hopes it was him.
Tubbo hopes the one who Tommy holds hand is him. The one who becomes Tommy's girlfriend was him. The one who Tommy married was him.
Why this is so difficult?
Why does he have to fall in love with his best friend?
Why does Tubbo have to suffer? This, This not fair. Tubbo wants to be happy too. He wants to be happy with the guy he loves.
Sadly, that's guy is Tommy.
And Tommy is straight.
He is straight.
And I'm not
Tommy looks at his girlfriend-- who will become his wife-- with a smile. It's a beautiful smile. Tubbo always hopes Tommy will smile like that to him. But, it's just become hope and it'll change.
The priest began to say the wedding vows. Tommy said yes, and so did his wife. They are smiling at each other. And then--
They are kissed.
Tubbo's feeling heartbroken.
They're so happy. The kiss is so long, Tommy hugs his wife, Laughing with happiness. So do his wife. They are beautiful with each other.
Tommy will be beautiful with him too
But... He's not with you.
He doesn't love you that way.
He's your best friend, Tubbo.
Don't destroy that.
Yeah. Right.
He can't destroy that.
He loves Tommy.
And always will be.