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Corspe laided awake for what felt like the hundredth time that week.It was 3:56am and sadly the poor man just couldn't sleep.He had tried so much.He drank warm milk,flip his pillow at least a hundred times and even put on rain.But sadly nothing would work.He just wanted sleep.He was stressed and too warm.He was stressed over the upcoming release of his song.Dont get him wrong he loved making and producing music just sometimes it stressed him.He thought one fuck up and how he would go back to just being a guy in his room with a laptop and mic just trying to have some fun.He stresses thinking about losing all of his fanbase or even his friends.He thought about how all of them are hanging out while he is in his dirty room with smashed mirrors and dead plants.He hated feeling like this.He hated himself.He wish that he could be a different person.He thought about how much pain he is in and how depressed he was.He let a couple of those dark thoughts infest his brain.The thoughts telling him to disappear and that no one would miss him.He was filled with the thoughts of lose and how his own parents didn't even want him so why would people he meet online a year ago would.
He cried.If anyone asked him he wouldn't admit to it but truly he sobbed.he thought about how fucked up he was.He wanted to get away.But fuck he could barely leave the house or even move for fucks sake.He just sat and looked around at the place he called a room.He could see the leftover food from God knows when While looking his eyes land on his pc.'Fuck it' Corpse thought.If he was awake might as well not just wallow in sadness.With no plan he moved to his setup and booted it up.He saw his reflection in his monitor which only fucked with the man more.He could see the cuts he wished he had never place.He saw the rused hair that so many people loved even though he hated it.All of his imperfections seemed to pop out at him.Every little mistake was counted and accounted for in his mind.Corspe was fucked up and he knew that but seeing himself in the low light of a pc only made it worse.Once the man stopped being distracted by himself and his mistake he opened up an app he had a love hate relationship with.Once the mouse confirmed the click of the blue icon he was meet with hundreds of messages.God how long has it been thought the sleep deprived man.To be honest it only had been a week or so.He look to see who was online at such a late hour.To his delight and surprise a green dot was displayed next to one of his favorite people.Sykuno.
Before clicking onto the dms between the older man and himself ,he pondered why the green coated man would be awake at such an hour.He didn't think too long before sending a simple message.
Corpse Husband
4:09am
Hey sy long time no talk.
With the confirmation of the message being sent the younger let doubt and panic set in.God what if he was busy or talking to some else.Corpse's mind supplied him with terrible and hopefully untrue ideas.Before the thought could continue words saying "Sykkuno is typing" was displayed on the monitor.
Corpse Husband
4:09am
Hey sy long time no talk.
Sykkuno
4:10 am
Hey corpse :)
It has been a while
Also why are you awake so late
Are you okay?
The younger chuckled at the older man's care for him.Corspe would never say anything but he was a little more fond about the older boy than most.Well some he would admit it to like the cat that randomly sat on his window or when he was too drunk or tired.
Corpse husband
4:11am
I'm not the best tbh
I couldn't sleep
The real question is why are you awake?
Corspe was worried the older would get upset for his guestion.He began over thinking the situation again.But right as he was about to just delete the messages and wallow in self doubt and pity the older replied.
Sykkuno
4:13am
I couldn't sleep either
But whats wrong is it your GERD
Do you need help or medication?
Corspe chuckled at the care that his friend has for him.Corspe wish he could see the older man and just talk to him again.
Corpse Husband
4:15am
Yeah my insomnia and GERD is fucking me over right now
And I don't need medicine
I just need to talk to someone
After sending the text the raven haired man felt as if he seemed desperate for attention.He started overthinking,he wondered if the older actually hated him and just felt sorry.The younger's brain just filled with terrible and untrue thoughts of the older man that he was infatuated with hating him and only talking to him because of pity.