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Kiyoomi wants to confess to Atsumu Miya. Five times now, actually. And luckily, he actually did it after all.
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One
The first time Kiyoomi thought of confessing to Atsumu was on the third day at All-Youth Training Camp.
'That is an awful color of yellow'
That was the first thing that popped into his mind as his eyes glanced at Atsumu's piss-colored hair.
Yet, his heart skips a beat as the latter plays a match, showing Sakusa his perfect sets.
Atsumu's sets were enough to fascinate him and most of all, intrigue him into watching Atsumu throughout his matches which, somehow, surprises and amazes him every time.
It was up 'till the third day of Training camp that they finally spoke with the help of Komori Motoya, Sakusa's cousin, and Also, Atsumu's friend.
As both awkwardly spoke at first, The two seem to have a lot in common. And both seem to respect each other in a very different way from most people.
Sure, Atsumu can be 'annoying' sometimes but he respects Sakusa's boundaries and treats him as if he didn't have one, which, if you didn't know, is already enough to make Sakusa think about it every minute.
The way that Sakusa's heart beats every second of the time they talked that day, almost makes Sakusa think that he loves the blonde... But he doesn't think that, he knows it
And he wants to tell all that to Atsumu, yet, he's afraid.
Falling in love with him was easy, Sakusa has to admit. It's admitting to Atsumu that he is, that's hard.
As Sakusa glances at Atsumu from the other court as he takes a break, he forms a small smile not so hidden from everyone.
Knowing that he'll be here with Atsumu for a week, makes the butterflies in his stomach dance in excitement.
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Two
"Omi-kun!" That was the nickname Atsumu made for Sakusa after their talk yesterday.
It was simple yet so special to Sakusa that he probably wouldn't let anyone else call him that.
"Hey Atsu," And that was Sakusa's nickname to him.
It makes Sakusa wonder if.. If Atsumu also cherishes his nickname for him..
Probably not..
That's what Sakusa thinks every time.
The two talk so casually as both males were at lunch, mostly Atsumu talking.
Sakusa enjoys this. Sakusa enjoys listening to Atsumu's endless voice as he eats his food, That's until Atsumu asks him a very unusual question.
"Ne Omi.. Do ya think 'm annoyin'?" Atsumu mumbles with his head low.
Sakusa chokes on his food on the sudden question, "W-Why would you ask that?" Sakusa asks and Atsumu just laughs in nervousness.
"Nothin'.. Just wonderin' if yer annoyed from my talkin' or not..." Atsumu mumbles,
"No. In fact, I never did. Why? Who gave you that thought?" Sakusa asks as he continues to eat his food.
Sakusa never really thought Atsumu would ask such a question. He enjoys the blondes company and never complained, so why would he ask that?
"Uh-.. No One..." Atsumu says as he rubs his neck from behind, "Really?" Sakusa asks,
He wasn't sure if he was lying or not.
"Yeah... I guess I just.. I don't know.. I just had a feeling that yer annoyed by me... guess that was wrong." Atsumu mumbles with a nervous chuckle in the end.
Sakusa sighs, "You're feeling of me being annoyed by you is wrong. Probably All your other ones as well, that's why you're an idiot." He was answered by Atsumu gasping dramatically.
"Mean Omi.." Atsumu pouts and Sakusa just chuckles. Atsumu looked cute from his view, to the point that he felt the butterflies in his stomach multiply.
But still, the question Atsumu asked concerned him. It made Sakusa want to tell him how he feels about him, to let him know that what he thought was wrong. He wanted to tell him how he enjoys his company rather than being annoyed by it and more.
But it's too bad... The Training camp will only last a week, so he probably shouldn't. Besides, He probably shouldn't bring it up again, he doesn't want the mood to darken...
And also, he probably would get rejected after that... right?
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Three
The Training Camp ended and it's been a week yet Sakusa still couldn't get over the blonde.
He tried to let go of his so-called love for the blonde at the last day as he promised himself but all he got was himself thinking about Atsumu all the time to the fact that he never got that much sleep.
"You sure you're okay Kiyoomi?" Komori asks, worriedly "You haven't really slept a lot after training camp.."
Sakusa yawns. It worries Komori. Sakusa rarely sleeps late, if he did it was probably because of homework or extra practice, but this time it's different. Sakusa slept late for a week straight. A week.
It worries Komori and his teammates since it's affecting his practice and also affecting how he listens to announcements due to him sleeping from time to time.
"I'm fine.." Sakusa yawns again, "Just haven't gotten that much sleep due to thinking" He plops down the gym's bench.
"Thinking about what?" Komori Knew what but still asks, he wants to know if he really is the one who made his cousin sleep less.
"No thanks, I won't tell you... Now let me sleep.." Sakusa says as he closes his eyes.
Komori's worried and wants to ask more to see if what he's thinking is true but knowing his cousin, It's probably not a good idea to wake him up so he sighs in defeat.
"Good Morning Komori." Lizuna, their captain, greets him. "Good Morning Captain."
"How's Kiyoomi?" "Tired as usual, I still don't know why.." Lizuna hums in response to the libero.
"Well, just so you know, Inarizaki will be coming here today and they'll be staying here for a week." Lizuna announces, "Oh.. Should I tell Kiyo?"
"When he wakes up. Let him sleep for a while" Komori nods as Lizuna makes his way to the club changing room and Komori follows, leaving Sakusa sleeping back there.
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Sakusa woke up after a while and made his way to the changing room to change.
"Hey Kiyo. You good?" Komori asks, "Still in the same situation Komori" Sakusa says in between a yawn.
"Well, Be on time with practice, alright" Sakusa hums and Komori walks away, forgetting to tell Sakusa that Inarizaki was coming.
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Sakusa wasn't allowed to play a match so he's seated on the bench as he sleeps.
It was when Inarizaki came into the gym after the match when Komori realized he forgot to tell Kiyoomi about Inarizaki.
"Oh no..." Komori mumbles as Inarizaki is having a chat with Inarizaki's coach.
Inarizaki made their way to the bench when they saw Itachiyama's ace sleeping there so peacefully, making them confused.
"Sorry, Kiyo hasn't really gotten that much sleep at all this week, that's why he's sleeping right now." Komori mumbles and the team nods in return.
They didn't want to ask what caused him to not sleep since it was rude so they just kept silent, even Atsumu.
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Atsumu was beside Sakusa as he drank his water.
When the ace suddenly leaned over to Atsumu and rested his head on the blonde's shoulder, Atsumu's face turned pink.
I mean, of course he would. Sakusa IS his crush after all.
"Well... This is eventful" Komori says, followed by a smirk.
Komori knew about Sakusa's whole 'I have to let go of my feelings for atsumu' situation and also Atsumu's.
He was curious to see what his cousin would do if he woke up to see the guy he's trying to avoid being a pillow as he sleeps so soundly.
"Wha-.. Uh.. What should I do..?" Atsumu questioned. He was panicking inside and his teammates were the only ones who knew well that he was.
"Mm.. Let Kiyo sleep on your shoulders... I wanna see his reactions when he wakes up." Komori mumbles the last part.
Atsumu is confused and also panicking more now at the words.
'Let him? Let him? Let HIM?! OMI?!'
"I-.. No.. Ya can't make me stay here with 'im on m' shoulder!" He whispered, trying not to wake Sakusa up.
"Why not 'Tsumu?" Suna made a smug look.
Atsumu knew what Suna and Komori were doing. It doesn't need a genius to know.
"Well, since there's no problem. We'll just bench you until Kiyo wakes up." Komori says and the more Atsumu sees everyone walking to the court to continue, leaving him behind, The more Atsumu panics.
'I hate my friends...'
Atsumu thinks.
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"Hey Kiyo!" Komori greets Sakusa when he wakes up.
"Mm.. What?" Sakusa asks as he rubs his eyes.
"Inarizaki's here." Sakusa raises a brow,"And you just slept on Atsumu's shoulders." Komori pointed at Atsumu who waved at Sakusa shyly once he looked in his direction.
Sakusa looked confused until he finally realized his whole situation.
"Oh... Wait.. I- Huh?... WAIT- KOMORI- YOU DIDN'T- YOU DIDN'T TELL ME THEY WERE COMING HERE!"
"I forgot..." Komori mumbled, "Sorry"
Sakusa's face blushed, for him, he was lucky he was wearing a mask.
Sakusa sighed, "You're lucky that I'm tired..." Sakusa mumbled as he rubbed the back of his neck,
"I'm going to my dorm." Sakusa said as he stood up, "Eh? You're still tired? You slept for hours!"
"And I haven't slept for a week. Worry about it." Sakusa yawned and walked to his dorm.
Komori smugged. He saw it. Sakusa blushed and he knew about it since his ears turned red.
"Uh-.. Omi hasn't slept for a week?" Atsumu asked,
"Yeah... Sorry but I can't tell you why. That's for me to know, and you to find out." Komori explained.
"But I didn't ask why?" "But you were gonna. Yes?" Atsumu fell silent, he was.
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'Shit. Shit. Shit!'
Sakusa panics. He really didn't expect his crush, that he has been trying to forget, to be here.
He didn't even know how long he was gonna stay.
"What's wrong with me?! Stop! He's not gonna like you... Ugh..." Sakusa groans,
"Why do I still wanna be with him?" Sakusa whispers to himself.
'Why do I still wanna confess to him?'
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Four
It's been two days since that incident and Sakusa still asks himself the same question.
'Why do I still wanna confess to him?'
The question hasn't changed whatsoever, the only thing is that the questions in his mind grow the more time Atsumu is in his view and mind.
And when a question pops up, his stomach feels like butterflies were added each time.
Today, butterflies grew at an 'overwhelming' rate.
"Omi! Can ya practice with me?" Atsumu pleads to Sakusa as practice is over.
"Sure..." Sakusa mumbled and Atsumu's smile widened. Sakusa's butterflies seem to have grew because of it, It always did when Atsumu smiled at him.
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As both males practiced.
Sakusa felt like he was back at All-Youth camp, crushing on Atsumu for the first time.
His feelings were the same yet bigger from back then.
Sakusa still feels fascinated by him whenever he sets the ball and also the way that the blonde sets? It still amazes him every time.
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"Ne? Omi?" Atsumu said after the both were done practicing,
"Hm?" "Thanks fer helpin' me practice my sets" He thanked him.
"Oh... Uh-.. You're welcome..." Sakusa murmured and Atsumu giggled, "I love your quiet side, It's cute.." Atsumu mumbled and Sakusa turned to him in shock.
"What...?" Sakusa asked, and when Atsumu realized what he said, he slapped his mouth.
"Uh.. I-.. Uh-... Forget about what I said!.. Uh.. Bye!" Atsumu said frantically and just ran out the gym leaving Sakusa confused and flustered.
Damn it... Does he really?... Fuck... I think I've fallen in love more... God, If Only he knew...
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Five
It's been a month since Inarizaki left for training camp and Sakusa misses Atsumu. Real bad.
They exchanged numbers on the last day which made both of them text each other every hour.
Most of the time they text, sometimes, they call.
Either way, both methods of talking to each other make Sakusa fall in love with the blonde more.
Now, It was Friday night, and Atsumu decided to call Sakusa.
"Hey Omi-kun!" "Hey Atsu" Sakusa answered.
"Hey Omi? I was wonderin' if I could come to yer place tomorrow?" Atsumu asks,
"Uh-.. Sure...?" He said and he could see Atsumu's smile widen as always whenever he agreed.
"Yay! I'm excited! Oh!- I better pack my things. Well Omi, got to go! See ya tomorrow!" Atsumu waved at him, Sakusa returned the farewell then Atsumu hung up the call.
Sakusa was a bit disappointed that the call was short, but at least he'll get to see Atsumu tomorrow.
It was the perfect timing as well.
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When tomorrow came, Sakusa was excited and nervous.
He texted Atsumu last night to meet him in a park near his house before he comes here.
Sakusa knew he was confused, considering the question marks at the first message, but Atsumu seemed to have been fine with that.
Sakusa was nervous. He didn't know if Atsumu would love him back, seeing how It's only been two months.
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"Omi! I missed ya!" Atsumu says as he runs to Sakusa who's pulling off his mask and pulls him into a tight hug.
"I missed you too Atsu.." Sakusa whispers to Atsumu.
"So why'd ya wanna meet here?" Atsumu asks as he breaks the hug.
Sakusa's heartbeat beats faster.
"Uh-.." Sakusa sighs, trying to calm himself down, "Atsu.. Uh.. I kinda have something to say to you.."
"What is it?" Atsumu asks,
"Atsu.. Uhm.. I-.. I like you.. no- I love you." Sakusa stutters but tries to stay calm as possible,
"I have. Since the first time I laid my eyes on you at All-Youth camp. I have to admit, I've been trying to forget about my feelings knowing that you could never love me as quickly as I did with you." Sakusa rubs the back of his neck,
"For a week, I tried forgetting about you, yet, It seems like I couldn't, making me have a lack of sleep the whole time. I guess I just couldn't help myself but love you and you only.."
"I-.. I love how your hair matches your eyes. How you look stunning in every picture and in every match that it made me intrigued into watching all your games... I love it all. All of you.." Sakusa's dark, raven eyes looked at Atsumu's golden ones as he held Atsumu's hand.
"Atsumu.. I like you.. More than a friend.. I know, It's stupid" Sakusa chuckles,
"This is all cheesy and all but, uh, I'm serious about it. I like you and.. I just want to tell you all that before you reject me right now.." Sakusa mumbles the last bit.
He lets go of Atsumu's hand as he waits for a response.
"I-.. Omi.. I didn't know that.. you like me..?" Sakusa chuckles,
"I tried to hide it as best as I can," Sakusa said as Atsumu was speechless of all that.
"Omi-... I like ya too.. I, too, thought the same. I thought that ya would never love as fast as I did. I thought that you never would..." Atsumu chuckles,
"Is this what a dream come true feels like?" Atsumu smiles as both of them make eye contact again.
Sakusa was now the one speechless. He expected Atsumu to reject him, not feel the same way.. guess not.
Sakusa's face heated up, and turned red. He walked closer to Atsumu and kissed him on the spot.
The kiss was sudden and short yet all the love was shown to Atsumu from Sakusa.
"God... That was bad... Kiss me longer." Both laughed and kissed again.
As Atsumu wanted, A kiss longer than before, yet, the love shown by it didn't change.
Want and love was all in that kiss, in both kisses. Short, long, sudden, not so sudden, either way, their kisses were filled with love.