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They are actually rocking our hearts these days ......
Kinn has been left hurt and heartbroken , by his boyfriend sorry ex-boyfriend Tawan . They had been dating for four years since he had turned 19 . Always kinn thought that they would last longer till the forever ; he didn’t anticipate that he would be backstabbed .
They had done all those cheesy romantic stuffs together . Tawan was the first boy to be able to get into his heart and one to enjoy his love and care but what he got returned was betrayal . Their moments together was something that he wanted to cherish till last.
But when one day he himself saw the younger boy in their bed with someone else , in a compromising position , he was devastated . Tawan claimed that Kinn’s ignorance had made him sad that he unknowingly just slept with someone else but he still loves him . Kinn even today doesn’t get what logic was Tawan speaking about . But later he also found out that Tawan was spying upon his family for his rivals . Poor Kinn without knowing anything was fighting with dad and convincing him to let him marry Tawan . But his father was more adamant that he never will bless them nor accept Tawan to the family . Even his brothers , friends and other close friend had always had been distant and disliked Tawan , kinn thought may be they will change within time . But seems like he was all wrong these times .
After that Kinn had completely changed for bad causes. He shut down completely to himself never being expressive anymore . The cute giggly laughs were never seen again , his smile vanished , all he does is to be stoned emotionless body living his day . He started to bring boys to home , sleeping around became an addict , the mansion saw this as something as a daily basis . Pol , Big , Ken were his best friends and Vegas his cousin was dating a boy called Pete . All were sad that they could never be helpful to him nor their any help was been accepted by him .
Tankhun his elder brother had always warned him that the boy was a virus in his life that will spoil his happiness , but blind in love he always ignored those words .
It’s one of those days after everyone having enough of kinn’s self destruction mode that Mr. Korn bought a proposal for Kinn . Kinn had denied in the first way that he wasn’t going to do anything related to getting a partner . But his father was more stubborn than him and he knew it . As a result Kinn had got married to Porsche Pachara Kittisawasd . Korn’s bestfriend’s son . A very sweet , calm and charming boy . Kinn had felt his heart beat for the first time when he had seen the boy at the altar all with white suit and a small smile on his lips .
Porsche was like a light in the darkness for Theerapanyakul Family . He was adored and loved by everyone except by his husband . Kinn even though had married him but never accepted him in his life . They shared a room and a bed but not a life . There wasn’t any sweet talks nor any lovey dovey , all they had done was to act in front of the family for their happiness . Tankhun had officially announced Porsche as his best friend . Kinn’s friends too had easily be friended the boy . But all Porsche only himself knew that it all pained him much that Kinn never looked at him even with a little care or love . Sometimes he thought of talking to the elder but kinn’s glare scared hell out of him .
Porsche decided to give him a little time , but that doesn’t stop him from doing everything for the other. He was trying to be a good husband in very way but he never expected anything in return . He never talked about his problems to anyone even his best friend Pete who could easily make his mind happy with a little talk. He had fallen in love with Kinn at the very moment when he saw him at the altar . But his dream of having a happy new married life shattered when Kinn had said that this marriage was just a deal in his perspective without any emotions and feelings .
Porsche was doing his studies for being a doctor . His parents always wanted him to be . Korn was proud to have a doctor in his family . His days usually went on in college and his paper works at later he would try to mend his relationship with his husband. At nights kinn would spend much time in his office or rather when he comes to the room he would keep busy himself in his laptop . He went out with his friends and come back late drunk. The days continued with the same routine . Porsche’s heart would break every time kinn ignored his existence .
Everyone in mansion would be happy to talk to Porsche. Khun and Kim would also had Friday nights with his along with their boyfriends and wife . Tankhun was married for two years now and had a baby boy . Korn too spent time with him talking about his studies and research works but only he knows that Kinn and the boy still had the distance between them unsolved.
He never wanted to meld in their lives but Porsche was someone to be cherished and Kinn was being an idiot.
On the other side No one particularly noticed that Kinn was not being his usual self . He though acted as if he didn’t care for the younger boy deep down inside he had a soft corner . But his mind being himself always pushed it aside . It was still in denial that he will never feel anything for anyone again . But every time and every effort of Porsche had always been able to melt his heart little by little .
The small smile that always remained in his face , the small pout that forms when Kinn ignores him , the childishness in him with khun , his voice while talking , his behavior with everyone . Everything was noticed by him . He even though had stop bringing boys at house , he didn’t stop sleeping around . But every time , he felt he was cheating on Porsche which he eventually ignored.
It was one such night where Porsche had been out with friends . Vegas being Pete’s fiancé also spend much time with him these days . Kinn had gone out for a drink and had got drunk . He didn’t knew who the person was but he sure did bring someone with him . They had gone far enough than making out in his bed , had stripped naked , and the new comer was full over kinn when Porsche decided to come back after the night out . As the door open revealing Porsche standing at the door , shocked but mostly hurt and felt something in him die , felt the room leaving the two boys still in bed.
Kinn has never expected that the face of Porsche he had just witnessed would hurt him but yah it did and he saw those eyes as his own , years before just like the heartbreak he felt. . That was the last time kinn had seen Porsche face to face . Porsche, after that never spelt in his room . The next day when Kinn was out , Porsche had shifted his things to the guest room .
Kinn then never saw the smiling face again , never he saw Porsche making efforts to talk to him , spend time with him , trying to be friendly with him . Waiting to breakfast or lunch with him . Nor even in his favourite spot at the garden were kinn usually saw him sit and study . Everything seems to be awfully quite and disturbing silence crept in the house . People still saw the chirpy boy again but those smile and laugh they saw never reached him eyes .
The thing where Porsche lost his hope and himself was when , kinn and him had to get intimate after kinn had been drugged by someone at the bar for pleasure and but kinn had just stumbled upon Porsche forcing himself with the effect of the drug. Porsche never minded it . He gave himself willingly to his husband. He was being a little bit selfish that may be later kinn would melt a little bit down to him . But he was wrong . The next day he woke alone and with an empty bed . With a note saying that the night never anything for him rather than a heat of moment .
Porsche was all dead by inside after that . The little bit hope and love he had for the boy died . He regrets falling in love with him . He was sorry for what his heart felt and almost his life stopped at the realization that , he was a fool to think that his love would be reciprocated . He for the first time had talked to Pete about everything and cried his heart out . He spend a few weeks with Pete as of Pete’s request and he tried to cheer up the boy but who was he talking to .
Kinn hated himself more , for being an asshole . He was trying his best to sort out his feelings for the boy that he had to spoil it in one go . The distance between them had made him realize that he had some feelings for him but he wanted to make sure that he doesn’t hurt the boy but seems like he just fucked up bad , really bad . He never saw the other in his home for a few days. He wasn’t there in his room in between those piled books with cute specs nor his dad’s library where his dad had specially arranged an area for him .
He wanted to talk to someone , and he went to his only support system ; his brothers . But at first when he talked what ever happened between them , Tankhun just punched him hard on his face. He deserved it . Kim just sat with a sigh cause he can’t just punch his brother like big brother . Khun had even said that Porsche was too good that he hasn’t left him till now. They just talked and planned something to make the two talk and sort out . And may be kinn wanted to beg forgiveness being not so best husband .
But seems like even god was playing with his patience and mind . Cause Porsche was full on ignoring him. Porsche was in the practice period under the best senior doctor in the country . He marks and sincerity had been always a plus point in life . He sometimes came home after two days , or late at night. And even when he came he would be all exhausted and Kinn didn’t want to disturb him .
According to Khun , Kim and Porchay , they had taken things in his hands as Kinn was not so good in his mending works . So they had prepared a dinner all together . Including everyone in the family where kinn would openly talk to him . Porsche deserved to be happy .
But not so easily.
As they had planned everyone had seated down for dinner Korn and Porsche were the only one who had no idea what was going on. Kinn had his friends too for support and Pete was glaring at kinn on the other hand.
As in for the cue for Kinn to speak , Pol came in late but his face was showing anger and disgust. Soon a figure walked in behind Pol . The new comer only a bought a single expression on every one ; anger.
Tawan !! ……….Kinn whispered .
That was the name Porsche hated to his core . Even though he had only heard about him from Kinn’s friends but today it ignited some kind pure hatred in him that he had not felt for anyone .
Under pure bliss kinn got up from his seat and involuntarily his body moved to the new comer . Everyone stood shocked when Kinn engulfed him in a tight hug with a smile . Porsche felt he was being insulted on his face . His broken heart was being ripped out again and stomped it hard . The smile he had craved for along time , was expressed to someone else . He was hugging someone so close but on the other hand kinn had regretted touching him . What else he wanted him to know that he was just useless thing in his life .
Korn moved out of the room fuming in anger. Cause he had seen his son in law in tears just because of his son . He now regrets his decision to bring the boy for kinn just to kill the boys happiness and giving him unwanted sorrow. Only after when Porsche could no longer see this reunion where his existence in the house further questioned , he moved out .
Kinn came out to his trance only to push the boy back with full force . But the shameless boy tried to come near him saying that he was still in love with him and he wanted to have another chance . Soon the room emptied as Kinn silence irritated everyone .
Porsche was never the one who would like to beg when he knew he had no right to . So he moved back to his house. His parents never knew that their son was all dead and he was never going back to that hell again . But they were his parents , they came to knew . They were furious , Porsche had shut everyone out . He curled up in his bed crying for hour and slept on later . Be refused to talk to talk to anyone .
He was not weak , he went back to his work but he was like a fade flower . No smile . No life . He drained himself in his work . Sleepless nights because nightmares haunted him . Eating less because he missed the happy hours with Tankhun and korn and the rest at the table , it bought tears again.
Soon one day kinn received a letter . A divorce papers . It broke hell out of him . The anger and sadness in him flew out . After Porsche had moved out and refused to talked to anyone , people never saw Tawan again . Nor that they would ever care about . But one of the worker had informed Korn ; that he had seen him going out with a very bad beaten up condition. Korn wants to be selfish and bring the boy back, everyone missed him , badly . But he didn’t want to hurt him more than the now broken boy .
The room was totally broken up after the papers reached him . He hated himself for being weak in front of that cheat that now he didn’t have a chance to seek forgiveness . He cried out loud , scaring everyone . He slept in Porsche’s room which still had some of his things that had his memories . He sure had a slip of moment that day but it’s not because he was still in love in with him but he now didn’t feel like earlier with him but all he had was tha he had move on . He had no one to explain now. He had lost him for ever .
It was one of those days when Porsche was on his rounds that he felt his eyes blurred and body give up . The cornered workers who had seen changes in him ,was now more tensed. They called up for his parents who cursed kinn throughout their way to hospital . Only to welcomed by Porsche holding his tummy and crying. His mother had hugged him to console him , she knew his condition . He too . He always wanted a happy family . But now ?
The news was kept in between them . He was in his parents serious surveillance . He too started to live up thinking about the tinny tot who would be soon his life . Even though he wanted to share it with everyone he didn’t know if kinn was going to be happy with this and he doesn’t want to loose at least this happiness .
He started to be his self again , eating , talking, sleeping , and all back to himself . The baby too grew healthy and loved by his mamma bear . Porsche spent his days with reading baby books , and at night felt guilty that he couldn’t give his baby a complete family but his baby will be at least happy and loved by him all heart .
Porsche craved for weird stuffs , cried for cute puppies and kittens , cooked with his mom and it was one of those days when he felt babies kick when was busy munching chocolate chips his dad had bought .
Yes babies . He was two babies . No one knew about the babies . Only Pete . Who had once called and cried out for Porsche to at least talk to him . Porsche felt guilty and when Pete came over he was too delighted to see Porsche in a cute baby bump. Pete had shut his mouth even to Vegas for him .
He was so crazy about the babies . So excited to be an uncle. Pete never talked about kinn to him because he too hated the guy . When Vegas tried to talk about the topic Pete would brush it off .
Kinn was more broken than before he was depressed . He just stayed in the room most of the time . As if destiny , that day Kuhn’s boy had fallen ill that they had to rush to hospital that Kinn saw a figure in a room . More like in an ultrasound scan room . He peeped in to only find Porsche on the bed with his baby bump and on the screen it was his baby . He cried. Tears flew . Porsche smiles ached his heart more that he couldn’t be with him . Porsche thought he was not worth to be a part of his baby’s life . He hated it .
Soon the Theerapanyakul Family found kinn in unconscious form in bed . Overdose sleeping pills .
Korn felt his feet swept of the floor. Kinn cried in his dad’s arm like when he was a 5 year old telling him about the scene . It was the first time korn may had bowed his head before anyone . Korn and khun talked to Porsche , who soon demand to meet the elder. He knew he was been hurt but now both were suffering . And he still loved the other.
When Kinn opened his eyes he found Porsche sitting next to him in his over sized shirt and sipping chocolate shake a baby and everyone was adoring him making him giggle . Kinn missed this . His eyes teared up . He tried to move up , Porsche with his 7 months belly had difficult to stand easily .
Kinn without listening to anyone got out of the bed to hug the other and cry out . Sobbing with explaining him that he never felt anything for anyone after he came in his life . He was in denial because he was scared. And that night after he went nothing happened between the boy and him . The day they made love was the one he would relive for and Tawan was a closed chapter because he had hugged him because that day he didn’t feel anything but he had thought about him and no one else . He had handled Tawan way too harsh that he would never come back to their life .
Everyone in the room had tears in their eyes . But soon burst into laughter when Porsche pouted and rubbing his belly said that he was hungry . Kinn first time kissed his pout earning a aww from the others . It was later when Kinn knew it was actually two babies in his tummy . And soon it was like bliss that Porsche had been filling up his broken soul with his shattered heart . Both had long talks . Porsche filled all those things he missed do far . He felt his heart bloom when Kinn would talk to his babies and how he is sorry for hurting their momma when he thought that Porsche was sleeping . Porsche felt those protective hands on his bump and hips always . He was for him everywhere and anywhere .
Soon the days ticked to when kinn held his baby boy and baby girl in his arms hugging close to his chest . He was the happiest person at the moment . The babies were a blend of the both . He was thankful to Porsche who never lose hope on him . And had been there always with him . He was in determination that he will be the best dada and husband .
Kinnporche ……… lived happily with Kiara and Pat Theerapanyakul . Ever after .