Chapter Text
Chapter 1- Bangchan
summary:
bangchan had been in the studio for weeks at a time now, and changing had seen his unhealthy habits. unknowing that bangchan was regressing in the studio, a little surprise awaits changbin.
begin.
“Ellie! listen to this track I found!` the elephant plush was seated on the studio’s leather grey couch. The little was seated in his studio chair, legs dangling over the ends of the fluffy fabric from the cushion he was sitting on. “And, play!” chan had pressed a random button on the laptop that sang, “hey tell me what you want?” the little’s legs had started to swing back and forth nodding his head to the beat with a smile from ear to ear.
(isn’t he just adorable?)
“I’m heading out to the studio!” Changbin yelled from the bottom floor. A tall lean figure peeked over the railing, “Okay, are you going to be back before 8? The rest of the members wanted to go out to eat tonight.” Hyunjin said with a banana muffin in his mouth with felix in his arms teething at some random toy.
Yes, Felix was a little as well. Everyone expected it due to his behaviour of being clingy and sweet till’ their teeth would rot. “Dinner?” Felix made grabby hands towards Hyunjin's necklace, enticed at its shiny nature, as any little would. “I should be back by dinner, and I might even be able to bring a lone wolf back home.” “Channie back home?” the little’s eyes sparkled, felix missed his favourite caregiver.
Originally, Felix and Bangchan were always together due to the two of them knowing English and being able to express their emotions better to each other. Even to the point where
Bangchan was Felix's main caregiver. But due to this slump of Bangchan being stressed for the next comeback, he wasn’t able to see his baby for a while. And now, Bangchan was the baby. He never told anyone, being too embarrassed. He was someone’s main caregiver, how dare he be a little and express his emotions in a way he felt comfortable most in? How shameful. The shameful little would hide away into the most secure place he knew, the studio.
Everyone saw the behaviour of Chan running away to the studio as nothing new. Sure, the running away for days at a time was weird, but sometimes he was just like that. Only one really read into his habits, watching him as he would run out the house, how he would stand, how he looked, how he even breathed. The only one was Changbin. Today specifically, Chan left at 7 in the morning with a black bag and teary eyes. He didn’t confront him or anything, not wanting to put him on the spot as it looked like he had a rough morning. But it was now 5pm, and changbin’s goal right now was to get bangchan out of that damn studio to see the sun.
Changbin planted a kiss on Felix’s forehead before waving Hyunjin and Felix a goodbye.
Changbin hadn’t seen Chan in such a state since kingdom days, sure they had a comeback everyone was looking forward to, but this was a stretch. stretching so far that this imaginary rope looks as if it’s going to snap. it isn’t right, something isn’t right.
Speed walking his way to the studio with thoughts of his best friend swarming in his head, he speeds up by the step. “Chan, what the hell has been up with you?” is what he wants to say to him. He knows Chan hasn’t been taking care of himself as he should. Chan has never been good at it. As if it’s in his blood. And it only worries Changbin more.
Changbin arrives at the studio, dropping his bag and knocking on all the private session doors. He hears something though. “I wanna go home Ellie… I wanna play with felix and binnie.. so bad.” Changbin stood for a second. He knew this was Chan inside, his voice is irreplaceable to anyone. But who’s Ellie? At this moment, it didn’t matter. Changbin needs to get Chan out of that suffocating studio.
the door creaks open…
Changbin is welcomed by a pale figure that wears a black hoodie with a brown bear plastered on it, black sweatpants that have the same design, white socks and a grey elephant in their arms. The studio sofa has a light grey blanket draped over the leather, and a fluffy pillow.
“Binnie?” Chan's bottom lip began to quiver. why’s bin here now of all times? the one time he jokingly wishes, it comes true. He wants to hide. He wants to hide away from everything and everyone. He tosses up his hood, looking straight to the ground. “w-why are you here?” his voice strains.
“I should be asking you that, i haven't seen you in days. is everything alright?” Changbin goes to sit on the leather couch, turning the swivel chair towards him. Bin’s voice is soft and worried. His friend looks almost terrified to see him.
“I-I don’t know,” Chan starts shaking. his words are slurred, his mind is scattered. “I’m sorry, this is so stupid. I’m so stupid.. Why am I here? I don't know.. I wanna go home. i-“
“Chan, hey, hey. chill out. breathe in, breathe out.” He reaches out his hand for Chan to take, rubbing circles on his knuckles. “I’m not going to hurt you, just please explain what happened.”
Chan followed the steps given, calming down just a bit. “I came here to..“
“it’s fine, take your time.“
“I’m a little.”
Changbin looked at chan. “A little? Like, Felix, a little?“
Chan looked away from Changbin, taking his hand back. “I knew it was stupid.. I’m abandoning Felix, I know he needs me. I feel so pathetic.”
“Hey, what? this isn’t stupid. This is great! Y-you shouldn’t be ashamed you have to deal with stress too! And felix has 6 other caregivers he can go to in times of need.” Changbin stood up at the excitement and confusion going on inside his head. “This is great, and you are great. none of the members are going to bash you for being a little. we already have one we love and accept, so it wouldn’t make sense to act any differently towards you.“ Changbin took back Chan’s hand, placing it in his.
“We love you Chan. You shouldn’t doubt that because you’re a little.”
Changbin looked back up at Chan, seeing the newly announced little crying. Sobbing, even.
“Aw, Chan. Let’s get you outta this studio, yeah?“
When Chan and Changbin arrived back at the house, Chan told everyone what had been going on. And to no surprise, everyone was ecstatic. a new little to give their love to.
everyone had been on the couch watching tv, except changbin. chan was snuggled into minho’s side drowsing off to sleep. changbin turned his head to face chan and he said,
“We love you, we swear.”
there was nothing for little chan to worry about. and now that he is probably more aware of it makes everyone feel a little more secure.
(wc 1196)