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I won't make assumptions about why you switched your homeroom but I think it's 'cause of me
Scott sighed softly as he looked at the empty desk next to his, knowing it was his fault that it was like that. The desk still held his initials carved in it as well as Jean's. They had done it in a detention together, much to the Professor's annoyance. But now the homeroom felt cold without Jean in there too.
You heard the rumors from Inez, you can't believe a word she says most times, but this time it was true.
He couldn't blame Kurt, not really. He would've wanted to know if Jean had done to him what he had done. She deserved to know but Scott wished that she didn't, that way he could go on pretending that he had done no wrong. Just so he could pretend that he was perfect for just a little bit longer.
I know where it all went wrong, your favorite song was playing from the far side of the gym
Scott remembered it well. He hadn't meant to kiss someone else. But not even he could convince himself of that. No matter what excuse he came up with, the end result was the same: he had taken the one good thing he had and crushed it in a moment of weakness and he wouldn't ever get that trust back.
The worst memory was when Jean asked him about it. She came directly to him, thinking that Peter must have gotten it wrong because her Scott would never do that to her. Scott remember how her face fell as she tried to keep herself from trying. He could still hear the sobs through her bedroom door from when he went to apologize.
The worst thing that I ever did was what I did to you
The following days were the hardest. Scott knew that it was incredibly selfish and that he shouldn't find it hard but he couldn't help it. His friends has started to ignore him when they had heard about what he did, and he knew he deserved it but even then it didn't make it easier.
Scott thought up a million and one ways to apologise but he never did. Jean deserved better than him, she deserved the world. The only one who could stand to be around his was the girl he broke Jean's heart with
Those days turned into nights; slept next to her, but I dreamt of you all summer long
Weeks began to pass, and when spring turned onto summer, Scott fell into another form of ease. The other girl was nice enough but no matter how hard Scott pretended, she was no Jean.
Instead, he watched his love begin to move on from him. He watched from the sidelines as she began to smile and laugh again. Jean left her sadness, and consequently Scott, behind her. And as much as Scott loved to see her happy, it hurt to see her happy without him.
The only thing I wanna do is make it up to you
It took another five months for Scott to speak to Jean again. It was for an English project, but Scott couldn't be more thankful. There was so many things he wanted to say to her. He wanted to beg for her love once more, but for now he settled on: "Have you read page five yet?"
The project lasted weeks, and Scott savoured every moment he could with Jean, knowing that she may never speak to him again after this. But even with her resentment of him, Jean couldn't help but fall into the same comfortable silence they used to have.
But all good things must end. Scott wished the project could have lasted forever if it meant he could keep watching Jean laugh at his crappy jokes. But it couldn't and Scott was running out of time. Scott wished he had more time to say something perfect to apologise for his mistakes but he didn't. He would never have enough time to make it up to her, but he was willing to try.
Will you have me? Will you love me? Will you kiss me on the porch in front of all our stupid friends?