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~ felix pov
"Pfft, look, it's Felix!" A boy named Junwoo yelled, pointing towards my direction. Just great.
"Gosh, what is he wearing?" A girl spoke up this time, looking at me with disgust. It was Elissa, a foreigner, like me. Except she managed to become popular even though she had only joined two weeks ago. Stupid girls with their stupid makeup-covered faces. "Dude, wear like a hoodie or something to cover up those fat thighs of yours. Or wear sweatpants. Anything that doesn't show how fat you are. Your thighs look so girly, how disgusting for a boy who's supposed to be masculine."
"And cover those freckles with a mask or something. They make you look weird, it looks like some sort of disease," a third girl added, Hajin.
"S-sorry," I mumbled, not looking up at the trio or anyone else around. A few people had gathered up around to see the daily occurrence of me getting ridiculed. Yes, daily. And you would think that I'm used to it by now, but I'm not. Their voices keep on repeating in my brain whenever I'm alone or whenever a place is too quiet, and I'm honestly starting to think it's true. I always look so weird and feminine, and it especially throws people off once they hear my deep ass voice. I've tried covering up parts of my body. I've been wearing long sleeves since Junwoo pointed out that my arms were chubbing up, which I found out that evening that they actually are. I tried cutting off some parts of the fat with a knife that night, and it sort of worked? I remember smiling at myself that night, happy that I could actually do something correctly for once. Some people might call me mentally ill or say I'm hurting my body for doing that, but they don't understand. I feel better about myself when I cut off parts of the fat, slowly but surely. I've been doing it ever since the few weeks ago that I started. Sure, I feel a bit light headed from doing it, but when Junwoo saw my arms once two weeks ago, and didn't comment on it, I couldn't have been more happy that I was actually improving myself. Maybe I could actually be pretty for once. Until I was drawn out of my small little bubble when Hajin spoke up.
"Well if you were actually sorry, you wouldn't be this fat. You're literally taking up almost two seats on the bus since your thighs are so fat. I'm literally ashamed to say that I have to ride the same bus to school that you do. And your looks, they're literally hideous. Especially those freckles of yours. I don't even know how your parents tolerate you. How do they even live without feeling burdened or shameful knowing that they gave birth to such an ugly and inconsiderate stupid boy. No, I can't even call you a boy. You dress like a girl so much of the time, and your thighs only make you look more feminine."
Most of what Hajin said was normal, but not when she brought up my parents. My lovely parents that were now gone from our house burning down a little over a year ago. They lost their lives trying to save me and my younger sister. Maybe I wasn't worth it. No, what am I saying? I definitely wasn't worth it. I'm really not worthy of anyone's love, am I? If it weren't for Aunt Kim's love for her brother, my dad, and pity for me and my sister, I probably wouldn't be where I am today. And here I am, about to cry like a five year old.
"What, cat got your tongue? Have you finally realized that we were right all this time?" Junwoo asked, smirking. I realized you three were right a long time ago, I thought, but didn't say it out loud.
"Dumbass, do you know how to talk, or are you just going to stand there like the scaredy cat you are the whole time?" Elissa asked, rolling her eyes and crossing her arms. I forced myself to open my mouth and mutter out, "I know how to talk," but another person beat me to it.
"Junwoo, Elissa, Hajin, my office. Now." It was the principal, with...Hwang Hyunjin beside him? Shit, why was he here?! I was literally backed up against the lockers, tears about to spill from my eyes, and the hottest guy in school, who also happened to be my crush for the past two years, was here, probably noticing me for the first time, and I looked like absolute shit. Just my luck. At least I'd get a break from Junwoo, Elissa, and Hajin for a couple of days. A couple weeks back, another student tried reporting them to the principal, but because Junwoo's mom practically pays for half of the school's expenses, the principal doesn't expel any of them. He only gives them detention, or at most, a three-day suspension. But he'll never kick them out, which also means that I'll never be able to fully get away from them. I was so lost in thought that I didn't realize Hyunjin had actually walked up to me. Fuck, he's looking at me!
"Hey, are you okay?" Hyunjin asked, reaching his hand down to help me, before pausing and talking again. "What am I saying? Of course you're not okay. Those stupid bullies were literally just humiliating you."
"I-it's okay, I should be used to it by now anyways," I quietly whispered, praying I didn't say something stupid and freak Hyunjin out.
"I'm sorry I couldn't help you out earlier, Lix. I've never been in this section of the school before and I probably wouldn't have ever been here if the dance practice classroom hadn't been moved," Hyunjin explained, shocking me. He knows my name?!
"Y-you know my name?" I stuttered out, surprised.
"Um, yeah? Sorry, was calling you 'Lix' a bit odd? I know we've never talked before, but I've seen you a couple times before. Oh my gosh, I didn't even introduce myself to you yet! I'm Hyunjin, I'm in the same year as you," Hyunjin said, only shocking me more. He's freaking seen me before? Why was I not informed of this?!
"I- um, I'm perfectly okay with you calling me 'Lix', I just didn't think you knew me, so I didn't expect it. Sorry. Um, and you don't need to really introduce yourself. I kind of already know a lot about you. You know, since you're like the most popular and handsome student in our grade," I shyly explained, not including the fact that I basically knew all of Hyunjin's hobbies, favorite things, friends, and a lot more, as he was my crush. I didn't stalk him though, no worries! I just happen to overhear a lot of things from other girls, since he's got a lot of fangirls throughout the school. And, of course, Jisung--my best friend and twin for life--talks a lot about Minho, Hyunjin's best friend, and I get a lot of information from that extremely loud quokka too.
"I'm not that popular," Hyunjin said, but I quickly stopped him.
"No, you are that popular. Basically all of the girls in our grade talk about you during lunch."
"Really?" Hyunjin asked, seemingly interested."What do they talk about?"
"O-oh," I stammered, suddenly feeling shy and embarrassed. Of course he'd be interested in what they would say. He's probably not even into guys in the first place. "U-um, they just talk about how they think you look h-hot and you're good at dancing stuff." My face was starting to burn bright red from being so embarrassed, and I was just praying that Hyunjin didn't notice.
"Do you think that I'm hot and good at dancing too?" Hyunjin asked, startling me.
"W-what?" I asked, surprised, suddenly looking up at him, my face definitely blushing a tomato red color. The other only looked at me, so I just looked back down at my shoes, and stuttered out, "I- um, no. I don't. Why would I?"
"Your face says otherwise," Hyunjin replied, and I wanted to die right then and there. So he did see my burning red cheeks. Great going, Felix.
"I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable. You can leave right now if you want to, the next period is about to start soon anyways," I quickly apologized, humiliated and embarrassed.
"Oh, it's okay," Hyunjin replied, before muttering, "I actually like it that way." I don't think I was supposed to hear that, but it definitely caused my heart to spiral out of control. What did he just say?
"Don't you have your dance classes next period? Why don't I walk you there?" Hyunjin asked, and it was then that I realized it was just the two of us standing there awkwardly, most of the students already gone.
"Oh, o-okay. Thanks," I replied, before I actually stopped and registered what Hyunjin had said. "W-wait what?"
"What?" He asked, looking at me curiously.
"How do you know I have dance next?" I asked, shocked.
"Oh, me and Minho watch you and Jisung all the time. The next period is our free period, sort of how you just had your free period, and we like watching you two. You both are really good at dancing, although I do prefer watching you dance a lot more. I must say though, Minho's pretty whipped for your best friend. Sorry, that sounds kind of creepy. Does it make you uncomfortable?" Hyunjin explained, and I nearly passed out. The Hwang Hyunjin who's amazing at dancing, one of the most popular kids at school, probably the sexiest person at school, and the person I've liked and admired for so long, has watched me, Lee Felix, dancing and actually likes doing it? What dimension am I currently living in?
"Lix...?" Hyunjin asked, pulling me out of my trance.
"S-sorry," I mumbled. "Just surprised. Sorry, I never knew you even knew I existed before today, much less have seen me dance before. But I'm sure Jisung will be happy once he knows that Minho likes him too. He won't ever shut up about the older."
"Oh my gosh, please don't tell Jisung that I was the one who told you this! If Minho finds out, he'll probably stuff tissues in my mouth again," Hyunjin said, and I nearly died laughing.
"I- I'm sorry, what?" I asked, in between fits of giggles. "Minho stuffs tissues into your mouth?"
"It's not that funny!" Hyunjin whined, lightly slapping my arm as I continued laughing. "He just does that whenever I annoy him, or threatens to air fry me."
"Pft, that's just so funny! I'm sorry! Ack- Hyu- Hyunjin, pl-please st-stop!" I had been laughing at the thought of Hyunjin getting tissues stuffed into his mouth and getting air fried, when he started tickling me! My sides were extremely ticklish, and I was squirming around, trying to get out of the older's hold as he was relentlessly tickling me. Fits and bursts of giggles elicited from my mouth, and happy smiles were placed on both of our mouths. Even though some of the students nearby were giving us weird or jealous glances, neiother of us could care less at the moment.
"Hyun- Hyunjin, st- stop!" I pleaded between giggles, sighing in relief when the other finally relented.
"Your laughs are really pretty, Lix," Hyunjin suddenly said, catching me off guard, and making my stomach do some unhealthy flips.
"O-oh, thanks," I shyly replied, fiddling with my fingers and trying not to burst and scream out, "OH MY GOD, DON'T SAY THINGS LIKE THAT HWANG FREAKING HYUNJIN WHEN I HAVE A MASSIVE CRUSH ON YOU SINCE YOU'RE MAKING ME THINK I ACTUALLY HAVE A CHANCE!"
"Of course, it's true after all," Hyunjin replied, only making me even more shy. "Oh, and we're here. Have fun during class, I'll be out here watching!"
"Y-you don't need to watch, but thank you," I replied, slightly waving at the older, noticing that Minho was already there and giving us a 'oh-I-see-what's-going-on' look.
"Bye, Lix," I heard Hyunjin say, and faintly decipher Minho asking Hyunjin 'Lix?' teasingly.
After dance practice was over, I exited the room to see that Hyunjin and Minho weren't there anymore. Of course they aren't, I thought, sighing. Why did I even bother to get my hopes up? He was probably only being nice from pity or sympathy or so-
"HEY LIX!" A voice exclaimed suddenly, and I shrieked.
"The hell?!" I yelled, whipping my head around, and letting out a relieved "Oh, it's just you," when I saw it was Hyunjin behind me.
"I'll leave you two to it," Minho said from behind Hyunjin, while Jisung was giving me confused and surprised looks the entire time, clearly not understanding how this entire situation came to be.
"I'll explain later, go get your man, Ji," I whispered, but loud enough for Minho to hear. And sure enough, the older was burning bright red.
"F-felix!" Jisung whisper-yelled, blushing profusely out of embarrassment, but yelped in surprise as I shoved him towards Minho and dragged Hyunjin with me.
"Thanks for back there," Hyunjin said, as we were walking in the hallway towards the courtyard. It was lunchtime, and both of us had just gotten our food.
"For what?" I asked, confused.
"For making a move for Jisung. Minho wouldn't shut up about how cute Jisung's cheeks were today while we were watching you two. He's literally come up with a term for his cheeks since they apparently 'need to be worshipped'. He literally calls them jeekies," Hyunjin replied, chuckling, as I joined in too.
"Jisung doesn't shut up about how hot yet cute Minho is at lunch everyday. I had to do something," I replied, the two of us laughing at how whipped Jisung and Minho were for each other without knowing.
"You're really cute, you know that, right?" Hyunjin suddenly brought up after our laughter had died down.
"I'm really not, but thanks..." I replied shyly, my voice trailing off, opening the door to the courtyard since we had arrived. "Here."
We set down our lunches before Hyunjin spoke up again. "You really are cute though, Felix. And pretty. And you have the most adorable, yet funniest personality."
"I- I'm flattered, thanks," I said, faking a smile since I didn't need Hyunjin suspecting anything if I disagreed with him. But then he suddenly got up out of his seat, and slammed his hands on the table. Thank god no one was out here, or else that would have caused a ruckus.
"U-uh, Hyunjin?" I asked, surprised and slightly nervous. Was he mad at me?
"Lix, you are the most beautiful and pretty person I know, both inside and out. I know I'm probably sounding like some sort of creepy stalker right now, but I know when you're lying and when you're not. I've had my eyes on you for quite some time now, and I don't plan on letting you continue putting yourself down like that. Everything those idiots said earlier weren't true, and whatever they've said in the past aren't true either. Your thighs are so pretty, and they're not fat. They're muscular yet so milky at the same time, and they're something I adore about you. You should show them more often. Even though they may bully you about it, I know for a fact that it's because they're pushing their insecurities onto you, especially Elissa. She's tried confessing to me before, but I told her that I like you, not her, since she wouldn't stop pestering me. And next, your freckles. They're the most unique thing about you, and I love them with all my heart. Your eyes can hold the galaxy, but the galaxy can't hold your eyes. That's why there are freckles on your cheeks. They're like the stars that the galaxy couldn't fit into your beautiful, shining eyes, and spilled onto your cheeks. Or, at least, that's what I like to think of when I see them. So please don't be insecure about your body when it's so beautiful and wonderful. I'm really sorry if I freaked you out, or if you want to leave or have some time alone, and- oh my gosh, Lix, please don't cry! I didn't mean to make you upset. I'm so sorry!"
"N-no, it's not that. I'm not upset. I've just never had anyone tell me that except for Jisung," I explained, trying to wipe the tears off my cheeks with my sleeve, before Hyunjin stopped my hand and intertwined his hand with mine. He then brought his other hand up, and gently started wiping the tears slowly.
"Don't wipe your tears off so harshly, it'll hurt your skin," Hyunjin whispered, continuing to wipe my tears off until my cheeks were dry. "There."
"Th- thanks, Hyunjin," I replied, offering the older a small smile.
"I- I don't know if this is the right time to ask, but since I've already outed myself, I just want to let you know that I like you so much. Hell, I probably even love you. And it's okay if you don't want to return my feelings. I'll completely understand."
This definitely wasn't real. There was no way Hyunjin was confessing to me. I had barely even started actually talking to him a few hours ago. Yet, here we were. But I wasn't going to let this opportunity go.
"I- I like you too," I shyly replied, looking up to see Hyunjin beaming with joy. "I've liked you for over two years now, actually..."
"Can I kiss you then?" Hyunjin asked, still looking at me with hopeful and love-filled eyes.
"O-okay." Normally, I wouldn't move this quickly. Ever. But it was Hyunjin, and he did things to me.
Once the words left my mouth, Hyunjin immediately grabbed onto the bottom of my jaw with one hand, the other going down to my waist. He gently pressed his lips onto mine, going in for a slow yet sweet kiss. He lead the two of us towards the courtyard wall, where he softly pushed me against it, his left hand moving up from my waist to the inside of my shirt, running over my faint abs that were slowly developing. While running his left hand on the inside of my shirt, Hyunjin's other hand tilted my chin up towards his face more, and he ran his tongue along my lips. I elicited a small whimper once Hyunjin's hand ran down to my thighs this time, now gripping it. He pushed his tongue in, now running his tongue along the inside of my mouth, fighting with my tongue for dominance, him obviously winning. I whined again, needing to take a breath, and Hyunjin pulled away, looking at me with eyes mixed with lust and love, panting harshly.
I could get used to this.