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Piper makes her way down to her room, she is exhausted from having the night shift patrol thing. She lies on her bed trying to fall asleep, you would think that it would be easy since she is tired, both physically and mentally. But no. Her brain just had to come up with things. Things she has been trying to ignore for a while.
‘Do I have a crush on Annabeth? Do I like girls? Do I even like boys? I am not sure anymore. I can never tell anymore. Annabeth has the wisest eyes and her facial expressions where you can tell exactly what she is thinking by the way her brow moves. If she squints her eyes slightly that most can’t tell. The slight difference in her tone of voice to what she is actually thinking while hearing a plan.
Okay so let’s just say that I do have a crush on her. I can’t do anything about it. I’m pretty sure she doesn't like me like that. But if she did, she loves Percy way too much to do anything about and I have Jason. Do I even want Jason?
I AM A CHILD OF FUCKING APHRODITE AND I CAN’T TELL WHO THE HELL I LIKE! I can tell when people like each other when they find someone but I can’t tell when I have a desire for someone or who I have desire for.
Let’s say that I do only like girls. What the hell do I do with Jason? Could we still be friends? Will he hate me for it? Why can’t emotions be so much simpler? Why can’t I just like Jason and only Jason? Then I wouldn’t have to fear all these things. All these things wouldn’t even have to cross my mind.’ She eventually falls asleep while thinking about all these things. In the morning she ignored what she thought and went back to pretending that everything internally is fine even pretending to herself. There are much bigger things for her to worry about, like getting to and stopping Gaia.
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When Piper and Annabeth faced fear and panic she was well acquainted with them. She finally understands what to do with all this conflict inside of her. She just needs to feel and ride it. It doesn’t matter what other people think or what they will do, you just need to feel. It doesn’t matter if she does or not. All she needs to do is feel. And feel she shall.