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Green Dolphin state is a prison that's nice to no one. Especially two gay guys trying to keep in on the low. Sometimes though, that risk makes it extra worth it.
You’ve known McQueen for quite some time, you first met the guy when the wardens first brought him over. You remembered him especially by the demoralized demeanor he had, and the tears in his eyes. Unluckily or lucky enough, he was paired to be cellmates with you.
The situation would be okay if he wasn't always crying.
Not that you minded of course, in a way, it was kind of cute.
No, the issue is that all the other inmates in the block would tease him. Calling him names as if somehow you all managed to go back to the kindergarten playground again. Either way- it didn’t always affect him, sometimes he went with it. But him going along with it didn't stop you from making you mad.
The question was, why DID it make you mad? What was so special about McQueen that you felt as if he was worth your time.That he was better than the rest of the other inmates to the point where you actually did care?
Maybe it was the way he thanked you profusely, or the way his eyes would shine after he cried, or maybe-
NO.
You are not falling in love with an inmate! As cute as he looks and he looks very cute, you couldn't even have a relationship. Everyone has seen how inmates and wardens treat people like you. You believed this for yourself but also, a small part of you didn't want him to go through the teasing all over again. Poor bastard deals with enough already.
However the thought of having McQueen being yours. Kissing you- or maybe sneaking in the bathroom during his janitorial shift and-
WOAH. Okay yeah maybe you did have a…slight crush on him. But could you blame yourself?? He’s so fucking sweet! Sweeter than any other man in this block that is.
Yeah. He was special all right.
Either way, it's been a couple of months of knowing this guy, and sleeping together in separate bunks.
The jokes and pranks involving McQueen had died down for the most part, and he's finally coming out of his shell! He messes around with you a lot more than when he first got here, and it’s been pretty fun. Life didn't seem half bad anymore.
Until he came back to the cell crying harder and louder than you've ever heard him cry before.
Instead of running to you like he usually does,, he quickly went on his bunk, curled into himself there and started crying even harder. You were shocked stiff for a couple of seconds, recollecting everything that had just happened.
When you finally get back to everything, you panic, worrying about the poor guy and question what has happened for such a big hug like this.
“Woah, Hey! Is everything good? You’re okay McQueen! What happened! What's going on? DId those assholes make fun of you again? Cause if they did, i’ll whoop those fuckers asses!” You question, trying to make him face you.
you try and rub his back, trying to make him feel better. You had countless questions to ask of course, you've never seen him this distraught.
His hand slapping yours away quickly made you forget all of those questions.
“Uhhh,,, McQueen? It's gonna be alright! Fuck those assholes dude! You gots me to help ya! You spoke funny, knowing your horrendous accent never failed to make him laugh…but he wasn't laughing. Hell he wasn't even smiling! You were seriously going to do something until you heard his muffled voice
“That's the problem…” He said between sobs and hiccups, “They told me how I'm always relying on you, how I never leave you alone. And they’re right! I'm a burden aren't I? I'm so useless aren't I? I'm sorry I-”
“Queen.” You quickly cut him off, almost as upset as he is. “That's enough pal. I've been here for you for a reason. Dang Queenie! you’ll never be a burden to me! I've stuck with you for a long time because I wanted to! Ask me anything! I'll do anything to prove it to you McQueen.”
McQueen has been one of your closest friends ever since he got here. Maybe it was due to you guys always being together, or you always defending him after they made him cry. It didn't matter, you really did care for this guy and, whether he liked it or not, he would be stuck with you for a while.
“H-hey mcqueen” Now was the time to say it you suppose, what other opportunities do you have that would allow you to confess so freely?
“Listen, I really do enjoy your company. You’re the sweetest guy I've met in this place, in fact, you’re one of the only people I can really stand and I'm not planning on leaving you anytime soon. I really do care about you.” you paused-waiting for a reaction. He didn't seem to mind so you continued.
“McQueen, i ain't going nowhere, i really do care about you a lot. I'm not trying to get all sappy, but I really don't know where I'd be without you. Still in prison of course but, you get what I mean. Listen McQueen, i really wish i could help you more than i already do, i care bout you. I was to protect you from all these jerks.” Well, there's going back now, if he really hated your guts after this like you feared, then so be it, but you can't keep this a secret anymore. Not to him at least.
I'm not trying to say that you can’t already do that by yourself, but I would like it if you could give me a chance. I want to be there for you. I love you, Thunder McQueen. I really, really love you.
You felt like time stopped. You were just sitting there with McQueen in your grip, yet he was still. You felt him move around to look at you.
His eyes shined with new, unshed tears. His voice quivered as he spoke. “D-Do you really mean it?” He sounded so sincere, as if your answer would break him, which probably was the case with how much he looked like he was on the verge of tears again. “I-i've always had a crush on you too… I just never knew how to say it.” he said with a slightly embarrassed tone.
That changed ... everything! You really did expect him to make fun of you or get disgusted. Just like all the other guys did before, But he didn't! He liked you! After all that time together he felt the exact same! You snapped out of your celebration after noticing how flustered he was. His face was bright red, and he had a nervous smile forming on his face. McQueen closed his eyes and slowly got closer to your face. You were confused at first, but then it hit you.
He wanted to kiss you.
He wanted a kiss and that wasn't something that you would deny him.
Slowly, you got closer to his face, so close in fact, you could see some small freckles he had. You put your hand on the back of his head and leaned a bit closer, sealing both of your lips together in a kiss. It was amazing. You finally were able to do something that you have been planning on doing since you first got along with him. You opened your eyes and saw how flushed he was. McQueen was just too cute.
Now was your turn to get flustered. This man was too cute, you didn't expect him to enact the first kiss but hell, you’re not about to start complaining about it. Your mind is screaming at you to kiss him back already, lest he gets the wrong idea and leaves. So you slowly lean in closer to him and finally kiss. It occurs to you that this is the moment that you’ve been waiting for, for a very long time. You can feel your heartbeat quicken as the realization kicks in.
Slowly but surely, you kiss him back and it feels wonderful.