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Closely follows the lyrics of Conan Gray's "Best Friend."
Cas is 22, is gay, and has been in love with his best friend Dean since childhood. Dean is straighter than an arrow. There's no way Cas will risk his friendship. He'd rather shove his love down his own throat than to risk it all.
That is, until something happens.
It hurts, it hurts him so much. Cas is not avoiding looking at Dean anymore, he’s letting his eyes look at anything over the window, and his heart is stomped upon by Dean’s worn-out combat boots. The boots that Cas used to try on and let Dean do the laces on them, Dean kneeling in front of him without preamble, like it’s the most natural thing in the world. Cas remembers looking at the top of his head, looking at it and thinking that, that’s where my heart is, in this scrunched-over six-feet beauty who’s on his knees in the middle of the sidewalk, doing up his laces unasked, just because Cas wanted to try them out.
It was devastation from the get-go. Heartbreak in a beautiful package. The burning flame to his moth.
The most beautiful thing he’s ever seen.