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'Blue crayon, blue crayon...' Hakase thought, grabbing at the box. She thought for a moment, about some recent realizations. Most kids would be trying to remember where the crayon was, but she was trying to not remember. It wouldn't be fun if she already knew.
'What? No, that's red.' It's fun to not know where everything is. It's even fun to get annoyed... 'I'm overthinking already...' She thought. 'Well, if I'm thinking about this, I'm not thinking about the crayon.'
There wasn't much that Hakase struggled to know. One of the only ones, interestingly, was realizing was being 'smart' even was. Or what 'dumb' was. Why is the other kid staring at that page so long? I saw it, I know what's on it. Why are they going back? They already read it, didn't they? Why would they not know something they knew?
One of the few times she was really confused was reading a math textbook. Not because it was hard, but because it seemed so odd to even write it down. Sure, she didn't use that word for it, but she knew it. She remembered staring at a Differential Equations textbook. So many rudimentary cases, why do it like this? She could trivially know what all the functions were and their properties. Can't they just see what the derivatives are and use them? Why the strange workarounds?
What was a math textbook to most was a psychology book to her, it just took her a while to realize it... Several times in that book, it said that manually calculating most anything in it was infeasible. Perhaps the realization that other people thought of it like that was the only thing in that book she learned.
She didn't know everything. Math just makes sense, but some parts of the other science can't quite be seen. She could mostly just feel things about health and biology. She was a human, after all. She's a living sample herself. But some major parts of physics and engineering and chemistry, she needed to learn.
It took, like, a whole two hours, too. Reading through the textbooks in the library. She wouldn't be able to just see quantum mechanics or know how circuits work without hearing something about it. But once she read it, it was fine.
"There it is!" She said. The crayon was under the other paper. Back to drawing the shark. Extra large fin...
There were some science things she didn't know, but she was more worried about the... humanities. Sure, she knew a few languages. Fifty two of them. But that's just words, it's not... People. Sure, she knew how the body worked, but what about the person in it?
There was so much psychology, so much philosophy. It was hard, cause... It wasn't made for her. It was made for people that think different. It took so long to realize that people didn't think like this.
"Oh, I forgot to draw the tail..." She said. She didn't forget. But she learned something. To ignore the part that remembers everything.
It's like an exercise. Think like you don't remember. Like you don't know. She put in a lot of work, figuring out this troubling problem. What... normal people are like.
She realized that normal people need other people. But people were so complicated. Science was simple. So, she took the easy way. She did what she knew. Use her knowledge to make someone that helped her be normal. Someone that would chase the idea of being normal, too.
"Hakase! Come help me with the laundry!" Nano said, from the other room. Hakase frowned. She was busy with shark. But she stood up anyway, her frown disappearing. "Alright!" She said.
Hakase simply looked around as she walked. She knew all the walls of this place; she knew nothing had changed so why was she looking at them? There were so many unanswered questions, why busy herself going to help with laundry?
She walked to Nano, soon helping fold the laundry. "I drew a shark!" She said happily. She had drawn 1015 sharks. For a moment, she remembered the first one she ever drew. It used a picture as a reference. It was later mistaken for a photocopy. 1014 sharks afterwards looked nothing like a coherent shark.
"That sounds nice." Nano said with a slight smile. "After this, we'll have Omelet Rice for dinner!"
Hakase cheered. She had been with Nano, with Sakamoto, with other people. She had learned so much about them. About the mind, the world... And about how to not remember everything. How to not simply 'know'.
Carrying clothes with Nano, she had a thought. She had been hiding from her own thoughts, her conclusions for a while. Not paying too much mind to anything. Not using her mind the way she had before. She did this to learn how people worked. But she hadn't been thinking about it too much.
To find the answer.
'...Do I already know?' She thought, a bit unnerved. Maybe, if she paid a bit of real thought to it, if she really focused, she would have that answer. She knew a lot about people. More than she 'let herself' know anymore. Maybe if she really put her mind to it, she would have that final answer. That answer that all humans look for. That last word that people want to hear.
All she had to do was think about it a moment.
'...Maybe later.' Hakase thought.
Maybe it wasn't time to have the answer.
Maybe it was time to just enjoy the question.