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It was supposed to be just a normal day like any other, wake up, put on his binder get dressed and head
to the alchemy lab, a normal day but once Albedo got outside his apartment he felt the stares from
people, he tried he really tried to ignore this feeling in the back of his mind walking to the alchemy lab
with no futher issues but the intrusive thoughts stayed.
An hour passes and it simply didn’t get any better, ever since he heard people were making up rumors
about him, questioning his gender saying he was just playing around acting as a man, these thoughts
wouldn’t leave him they just didn’t.
It hurts.
He knows these are just rumors but the intrusive thoughts it caused made all of it ten times worse then
it should be, he wanted to ignore it and just move on, but he couldn’t.
There was a sound of glass hitting the ground, oh he didn’t that the beaker he was holding was now
broken.
“M-mister albedo? Is everything alright, you seem really out of it today” sucrose asked, clearly shaken
up a little bit from the beaker that lays broken on the floor.
“I.. uh, I think its best if I head home sucrose, I’m clearly not in a good headspace today, I’ll clean up this
glass first before I go” Albedo stood up and makes his way to clean up but is stopped by sucrose
“ no I will clean it up for you mister albedo, you clearly need some rest! “ she squeaks flashing him a
concerned smile
“Oh! I will let Jean know you are taking a day off”
Albedo sighs but smiles kind of relieved he can go home, tbw blonde makes his way to the door but
reminds himself that diluc was supposed to come over and take him to lunch
“sucrose, if you see diluc can you tell him that I went home “
“o-ofcourse I can, now please get some rest “ sucrose pushes him put of the lab and so he makes his
journey home
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He didn’t know if it would do him any good, to be alone at his place with his own thoughts, It might have
been such a bad idea but he clearly wasn’t in the right minds pace either to work even if he pushed
away those horrible thoughts, the dysphoria he was feeling at this very moment
He didn’t know such small rumors would trigger his dysphoria so badly, walking towards the bathroom
he could feel more and more intrusive thoughts coming his way.
Staring at the mirror, shirt off, binder off, he stared at the person before him in the mirror feeling
frustration and anger bubble up in the back of his mind, letting out a frustrated sob
“Why.. why does it have to be like this! Why!!“ Albedo sobbed, wanting to punch in the mirror but stopped
himself, it’s the best if he just didn’t look at himself right now he need to get away from his reflection
Quickly getting away from the bathroom he hopped in bed hiding himself under the sheets hoping these
thoughts will leave if he just slept it off and sleep he did.
“-edo... Albedo? “
A voice roused the blonde from his dreamless sleep feeling a bit of weight on his bed as if someone was
sitting on his bed.
He peaked up from his blanket to see a familiar red head sitting on the side of his bed.
“There you are “ Diluc smiled at Albedo reaching out to pet albedo hairs but albedo threw the blanket
right over himself again
“no touching please... “
“Alright, alright no worries I won’t touch you if you don’t want that albe” Diluc's voice sounds so
comforting.
“I heard from sucrose that you aren’t feeling well today, do you want to talk about it? “
“Not right now... “ Albedo mumbles from underneath the blanket
“What do you need right now? What can I do to help you? “
“ just.. be here, that would be enough for now” Albedo answers, his tone soft and fragile
Another hour passes there was no talking just the two of them simply in albedos bedroom pure silence
until Albedo is ready to talk, diluc has always been so patient with him ever since they started dating, He
truly sometimes wonders how he got so lucky to have met such a men as diluc.
Albedo finally shows himself from underneath the blanket and hugs diluc from behind his arms holding
around his waist while he nuzzles against dilucs back
“Warm... “ Albedo mumbles
“ You like that don’t you? “ diluc said placing his hands on albedos caressing them gently
“hmmm... I do”
“ready to tell me what happened?”
“ I guess I am... diluc, am I really a male? “ albedo questions him.
“Huh? Ofcourse you are no matter what people say I will always see you as a male, what made you feel
this way? “ diluc kept caressing Albedo hands in a way to comfort him
“rumors, people are making up rumors about me, they make me feel unwanted as if what i am is
wrong.. ” Albedo let’s some stray tears out, simply talking about this makes him so emotional already.
“ You are you, albedo, doesn’t matter if you are male or not, all that matters is that you are happy and
some little rumors don’t make you any less of a man to me “ diluc turns around, pulling the smaller male
into a hug
“You are my cecilia and nobody no rumors or stupid oppinions of people that clearly do not know what
they are talking about cannot and will not change my mind “ Diluc says determined to make albedo
believe his words giving him a gentle kiss on the forehead to go with it
“Diluc.. I.. thank you” Albedo hugs him tightly as if it’s his only lifeline at this very moment
“ I don’t know what else to say, just know that those rumors about you are unnecessary and truly
shouldn’t pay mind to it, what matters is your happiness “
“Luc.. “ Albedo fell silent not knowing how to react but he knew he deeply knew that diluc was right.
“Albedo I love you “
“I love you too, Luc “ Albedo gives him a quick pek on the lips, a small smile now on his face as silence
occupied the room once more
“Do you... still want to get lunch? I can grab some so we can just eat it here “ diluc spoke up pulling
away, albedo makes a protesting whine missing the warmth dilucs hugs always gave him
“ mm.. sounds good, I don’t think I’m ready to go outside yet”
“ that’s totally fine albe, I will pickup some lunch “
“ that sounds lovely” Albedo smiles giving Diluc a kiss on the cheek, Diluc stands up from the bed giving albedo one quick look before heading out
“Stay safe okay? I won’t take to long, My cecilia “
“I will, liebling “