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"I shouldn't allow myself to get this close to you." Sanzu spoke with bated breath, the soft flutter of his rosey lashes briefly kissing his cheeks before returning his sky blues to my earthy tones. His breath softly grazed past my cheeks, causing a quick blush to form upon them as my heart hammered in my chest, certain he could hear it. "Yet," He continued, further closing whatever distance was left between us, "I find myself addicted to you much like a drug. I crave you. I crave how I feel when I'm with you. I suffer when you're away. Tell me," His gentle, slim fingers cupped my chin, his lightly calloused thumb tenderly caressing my bottom lip, "why it is that my hunger cannot be sated?"
His face was mere inches from me, his forehead leaning on mine as his scarred lips were mere centimeters from brushing against my own. I could feel every pulse in my body, the pounding of my heart increasing as if it would combust.
Much like a drug, I pondered, thinking the same of him. The way he made me feel, how I craved him.. it was hard to believe such a feeling was mutual. "Why shouldn't you allow yourself, then? If you're as famished as you claim," I spoke softly in reply, catching him suck on a breath through his teeth as he pushed into me, his entire body weight pinning me to the wall behind me as his other hand rests on the wall next to my head.
"Temptress," Sanzu's voice was a low hiss. His baby blue eyes bore into mine, a heat following his gaze as I felt a hardening presence just below my stomach, causing my heart to skip. "There won't be any going back. If I take you here, I'm taking all of you. Your life will not be the same in more ways than just one." Despite the raw tension between us, he spoke with a velvety soft candor that couldn't be displaced as anything else but sincere. "This lifestyle is far more dangerous than you may understand. I risk your very life by just merely being in it. If we take it any further tonight, then.." He paused, his soft pink lashes fluttering once more as I watch him strain to come any closer than he already was. "..then you must abandon what you have come to know of a normal life. If you weren't already a target of interest to Bonten's enemies — you will be." The hand that was cupping my chin gently moved to my cheek, his thumb caressing it slowly.
Pressed together in unison as I leaned my head in the hand that so gently caressed my cheek, lips tantalizing me by how close they were to mine as he spoke of something so grave.. how very like Sanzu to do so. I'd considered the idea long before I knew his feelings were mutual, but it was a reverie of a different time. "Sanzu—"
"Asahi, please, we're long past formalities."
I sighed softly, closing my eyes for a moment to the feeling of his slender thumb continue to caress my cheek. When I opened them again, I raised my head slightly to meet his gaze once more, his hand then lowering from my face. "Haru," I whispered in a corrective tone, watching a small smile curl onto his scarred lips, "I was already prepared to have to abandon what I know. I simply awaited your request." I watched his gaze soften, his eyebrows releasing what tension they had remaining, when he buried his face in the crook of my neck. "I'd risk my life for you regardless of the conditions," I continued softly as I lay my head on his. "so take all of me. I've always been yours to take."