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Part 2 of Writings That (Probably) Should Have Stayed Private (But Didn't)
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2022-12-07
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Collection Of Poems

Summary:

Roman writes to cope. This is what he writes.

Chapter 1

Notes:

Tw: Implied Toxic Relationship(s), Hiding Pain, Self-Hate, Overworking Yourself, Shame, Guilt, Feeling A Loss Of Control
— I think that’s all.

Tell me if I missed any! ^^

Yeah. So I already have all these chapters written, now I just have to go through and edit them before I can post. So be on the lookout for that! ^^ Other than that I wanna say this, just in case you didn’t read the tags, this is formatted for laptop viewing. So apologies if you’re on a phone, it won’t really have the feel I was going for. If you have a laptop I would advice switching to it. But if not, well just, it may look a bit strange but I hope you still like it!

If you want to read still, then I hope you enjoy~! <3 <3

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

I feel my mind slip away when I hear it

 

Words                       And loud jumbled music

 

          Hurt                                                    Hurts

 

How can I not when my life is not my own

 

Pulled from my hands and (my heart) aches               For things I don’t care about 

 

                                                                                  That I want to care about

 

                                                                                                         That I should care about

 

Work             Work             Work             Work

 

                     Don’t stop               Can’t stop                    Want to stop

 

                                                                                                    Can’t want

 

                    The best

 

                    I’m the best     I said            I lied                 And I know I lied

 

                   I’m the worst    I don’t say     But I know        I can’t say

 

When I try    My tongue turns to lead and I            Can’t

 

                                                                                      Live like this

 

                                                                                      Lie much longer

 

                                        What if it isn’t a lie?      I don’t think that        I do

 

                                                                                                                      I have to

 

My confidence is (a lie) real 

 

       Confidence keeps my head held up high (perfection, I need to be perfect 

 

                                                                                                                          I’m not)

 

                                My head hangs in shame                 My stomach squirms

 

My eyes burn                                  And everything aches

 

                     Confidence (Fear) keep my head up

 

         Lying to my loved ones aches

 

                    Love is

 

                              Painful

 

                              Strange

 

                              A rainy day and howling wind and I can’t weather the storm much longer

 

            Can’t slip up                    Can’t want                   Can’t hide much longer

 

                        Fracture                        Tear                  Breakdown

 

                                           I feel my mind fracture

 

                                           I feel my heart tear

 

                                          But I can’t break down.

 

 

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