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He’s beautiful. Every scratch, scar and blemish or the way his eyelashes naturally curled up, down to the twitch of his lip before he would laugh; he was utterly gorgeous.
It’s shocking whenever he smiles. He simultaneously lights up the room and grabs all attention with just an action. A smile so blinding you can’t look away from it, thought it would be concerning if one was to turn from it. It’s welcoming, inviting…warm.
He’s my warmth.
Even being near him, he radiates such an energy I couldn’t imagine explaining to anyone else. I don’t even think I’d want to as I’m quite selfish when it comes to him. Many don’t deserve to be encompassed and loved by such a person. I hardly believe that I do, but every day he tells me otherwise, and I couldn’t imagine telling him I don’t believe him.
Sometimes I forget to think before I act when it comes to him, I nod blindly to what he says, not in ignorance but in absolute awe. I’m entranced, I can’t disagree. How could one do such a thing against him when he radiates the way he does. It’s against the order of things.
Truthfully, him loving me is against the order of the world, yet everyday he proves to me that the order is flawed; that we’re all flawed and we can only try to mold and fix one step at a time.
One day at a time.
One breath at a time.
Just one more breath. One last breath.
Then I lose my everything. I lose the warmth that so easily managed its way into my world. So easily lit my chest afire, so easily changed my life forever.
Just one breath changes everything from what is— to what was.
Nothing else to convince me that I deserved even a second of him loving me.
How could a heart so kind ever love one like mine? How did I earn any amount of love from you, Itadori Yuuji? I wish you could tell me, convince me once again. I wish to hear you say it again and I promise I’ll listen this time. I promise I’ll let your heart properly love mine. Just one more breath and I promise.
Just one.