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Shockwave truly did not know how his luck could get any more rotten. All he signed up for was a simple spy mission. But here he was; at Bumblebee’s funeral, standing beside Wasp and Ironhide as the orange bot sobbed and Wasp was stiff. It was clear to anyone who saw the look on his face he was using all his strength to not cry.
Bumblebee had been a friend to them true. But what so few bots knew was Bee was far more than that to Shockwave. More than a friend or comrade or another cadet. He was Shockwave’s world, the bot he had first kissed, his first boyfriend.
The father to the tiny sparkling he had back home.
‘Poor Radiowave, all alone at home. I wish I could come home... But how could I miss such an important event? Wasp and Ironhide would never forgive me. They need me here.
At the same time. Nobody can know she exists, if my secret is compromised what would happen to her if they knew she was mine? They would take her forever. Do unspeakable things to her...’
Shockwave reminded himself to breath again before he continued his train of thought.
‘If I’m found out tomorrow she’ll be helpless in her little crib. Sleeping away with no clue on what would be happening or why...
I have to fix this. No matter how much it breaks my heart. There is only one solution to this. I cannot contact the cons anymore nor rely on sending her away in the hopes none of the autobots would figure out her origins.’
Blurr had to admit, as much as it was unexpected he was very pleased to get the sudden call to Longarms office. The poor mech seemed to have shut down both emotionally and physically when Bee had been pronounced dead. It was understandable, Bee had been a friend of his and Wasp and Ironhide weren’t doing much better. It was nice to see Longarm actually giving out orders again.
It was slow and steady progress towards things going back to normal; which was all Blurr wanted currently.
However, as he got closer and closer to the door in front of him, Blurr got the worst feeling in his spark that a return to normalcy might not be what he gets out of this visit... Regardless he knocked on the door gently.
“Who is it?” Longarm asked, sounding strangely nervous...
“It’s Blurr, you requested to see me this morning.”
Blurr stood there, the feeling in his spark only got worse and his entire body tensed. Why was Longarm hesitating to let him in? Why did all of this suddenly feel strange... Like Blurr had somehow misread the request to be here...
“Come in.” Longarm ordered and Blurr followed through. Walking into the office Blurr’s eyes were drawn towards Longarm’s desk, where the head of intel himself was sitting, not looking at Blurr and gently bouncing his leg.
“Am I in some sort of trouble sir? Something feels... Off about you right now...”
The second Longarm looked over to him Blurr realized he wasn’t facing away from him out of some sort of anger or embarrassment. There was something he was holding, that he was hiding...
Longarm looked around nervously before he sighed quietly. “You’ve always been very clever haven’t you Blurr? That’s one of many reasons why I called you here... I have something to ask of you...” Longarm paused looking down at the item he was holding before continuing. “Not as your boss or coworker, but as your friend...
Blurr tensed up even more. “What do you mean by that sir?” “I mean that what I’m gonna be asking of you is gonna be... Tougher than any of your missions you’ve been on and is very personal. I wouldn’t blame you if you told me no...”
Blurr did feel like telling him no, he didn’t even know what Longarm was talking about yet and he wanted to say he wasn’t up to the task. But Longarm looked so distressed, so tired, somehow just looking at his face you could tell how the past few weeks had worn out on him. the grief, the hard work to move up in the ranks of the elite guard, the stress, the nights spent not sleeping but working until morning came...
Blurr finally worked up the courage to reply. “By all means sir, I believe I’m up to the task if you do... Surely you picked me because I’m right for the job and I trust your judgment.” He did his best to mask how little confidence he had in his own words...
Longarm chuckled gently. “That’s a lot of words to say you’re trusting me on this.”
Seeing Longarm smile in such a friendly way made Blurr relax a little, he smiled gently back. “Yeah... It uh... Really is.”
Longarms smile was wonderful while it lasted but it was gone almost as soon as it had appeared. “I really do believe you are the best person I could’ve turned to for this... I know we’ve had our disagreements before Blurr, but at heart I know you to be a very good and honest person. Maybe the only one I could trust with information so precious and the only one I could turn to in the position I’m in...”
Longarm took a breath before finally turning his entire frame over to Blurr allowing him to see what was in his arms...
It was a tiny sparkling, probably no older than a few months. The armor on her frame was barely formed and splotches of yellow and purple was the only color on her...
Blurr didn’t look back up to Longarm he just stared down at the sparkling as the other one spoke. “This is Radiowave... She’s me and Bumblebee’s sparkling... We had spark merged before he went on his... Last mission. When I found out I was carrying... I had planned to tell Bee the truth about who I am, but obviously that didn’t happen...”
Blurr looked up at him, trying to decipher what he meant by all of that. But as he heard the gentle sound of something being placed in front of him, he had to take a breath before he willed himself to look at it.
It was a decepticon insignia.
“Longarm-”
“I’m sorry Blurr...”
Blurr stood up, he looked at Longarm expecting him to make some sort of offensive move, to attack him or lunge at him. Was this all a trick? A way to get his guard down?
“What kind of cruel joke is this?” Blurr hissed but Longarm only remained standing there. He considered pulling out one of his weapons, but the tiny sparkling in the room stopped him... If this was some scheme it was a well thought out one, the last thing Blurr would want the little one to witness in this room was a bloody battle that would surely end in someone going offline.
“No Blurr and I can give you more proof if you need it... But before you do anything please hear me out...”
Blurr narrowed his optics, he didn’t sit back down. “I don’t think I want to hear it. If you’re really admitting to me you’re a decepticon spy I’d rather go offline than hear you out!” He spat.
Longarm was about to reply when he froze at the sound of his tiny sparkling crying. He walked towards her and picked her up, shushing her gently. “Blurr... Look you can do anything you want about me... You can go tell everyone else who I really am... Shockwave, a decepticon spy... But I called you here because you’re a good mech, I feel that no matter what you always try to do the right thing...”
Blurr couldn’t bring himself to speak, all at once he understood what Longarm was going to ask of him...
“Please, please take care of Radio... Do whatever you want with me, if you look through my desk you’ll find all the evidence you need to arrest me... But I need to know Radio will be okay, that our connection is never found out...”
Blurr looked down at the little sparkling. As his spark beat faster and his mind began racing all he wanted was to tell Longarm no. This was insane, to promise to hide away this sparkling, to take care of her until she’s grown, all while making sure nobody found out she was part con... It was insane and not something Blurr could do.
“H-how am I supposed to do this? How do I keep her from revealing all of this on her own? I can’t keep track of her 24/7...”
“Just... Don’t tell her... She’s so young... In a few months if you took her she probably won’t remember me... Not even she will know the truth...”
Blurr felt his spark tighten as he examined Longarms face. He could see the prime wince as if every word he spoke drove a sharp pain into his spark. Just as Blurr was holding back an impulsive need to say no to what was happening, Longarm er- Shockwave was holding back the urge to do the same.
Shockwave would’ve done anything to keep his child.
But if Radio were to be safe... He couldn’t...
Blurr knew what he had to do now...
“I’ll take her Shockwave...”
It took the entire trip back home for Blurr to truly comprehend what he just did. There was no going back of course. He was already there, standing in front of the door to his own home with Radio sleeping soundly in his arms. He brought home a baby, a baby he couldn’t admit the origins of and now had to make some sort of insane excuse to make it not look suspicious.
‘How do I always find myself in these situations...’ Blurr thought opening the door and looking around. Just as he was afraid of Wheelie and Dug base were both home and had obviously been waiting for him to arrive.
“Blurr: late, query: why?” Dug base asked.
“I uh, I was...” Blurr looked down at the little bundle in his hands and before he could say anything Wheelie piped up.
“Blurr is holding something his hands! Show it to us I demand!” He purred pointing at Radio.
Dug base’s optics widened and he looked down at Radio as well.
Blurr gulped... “Okay, but you guys have to trust me when I tell you why I have this...”
They were both looking at him now... Time for him to set his story straight...
“I... Found her... Abandoned on my way home... Reason I was late was I had to take her to a doctor and such.” he paused taking a deep breath before continuing. “I saw her and I just... Thought of Wheelie... I couldn’t bring myself to leave her there...” It wasn’t entirely a lie, but he still felt guilty about lying to them about the situation. He hoped that some day he could tell them the truth, but now was not that time... Right now he could only pray they would understand why the secret had to be so well protected.
“Awww! Gimme gimme I wanna see! My new little sister she will be!” Blurr smiled to Wheelie, handing him Radio. The tiny sparkling slowly opened her optic, her sleepy expression turning into a smile as she saw Wheelie.
“Baby:Name?”
Blurr smiled to Dug Base, then to the new member of their little family... “Her name is Radiowave.”
It had been years since Blurr had adopted Radio. He had gotten so used to having her around, it was easy to forget he hadn’t even planned on taking her in. Something that was even easier to forget was that she wasn’t genetically his. Throughout her living with them, her frame had changed so much to replicate Blurr’s. Her purple changing to be more blue and her yellow almost fading away entirely and her frame became much sharper.
Of course Radio growing wasn’t the only thing that changed recently. Longarm would take a lot more of his time off to come visit her and Blurr now. They couldn’t really do much more than that, less anyone catch on to their connection. The thing is Blurr wasn’t sure if he was more concerned about people speculating on Longarm and Radio’s connection, or them speculating on his connection to the prime.
It wasn’t much, but during work there was looks they would cast to each other and when alone it was embracing each other, holding each other, playing with Radio and most of all; yearning. Turns out raising a child with someone was intimate enough to spark both feelings for them and speculation in the work place... Who could’ve guessed?
Oh well... It was bound to happen and Blurr didn’t mind it too much. Him and Shockwave would just laugh about it later.
In fact, things were going very smoothly for a while! Radio was now about 7 years old and things were all looking up!
That was until Longarm and Blurr were sent alongside the Magnus himself to investigate a huge energy surge on an organic planet. Apparently the signal was familiar to the autobots, however Longarm and Blurr were given minimal details before they landed.
The planet looks pretty generic for an organic planet too, everything seemed just fine.
Then Blurr looked outside the ship, seeing a group of bots staring at their ship with wide optics. He glanced at Longarm about to complain about how he had to leave Radio for this, but Longarms face was one of shock and anxiety.
Looking back to the bots Blurr suddenly spotted a suspiciously familiar shade of yellow. Optics that he recognized. A frame that resembled the little sparkling he had back home.
“Bumblebee?”
“Longarm!”
Blurr almost jumped when Bee suddenly ran over, tackling Longarm in a loving hug and as the two embraced he simply sat there. A million thoughts filled his head and despite his fast talking, Blurr’s thinking wasn’t fast enough to even consider taking his hand off of Longarms hip before Bee noticed it.
“Umm... Who are you?” Bee asked, staring at Blurr strangely and of course he did! Blurr had his hand on his boyfriend’s hip just now! Blurr tried to open his mouth to speak but for a bot of a thousand words all of them escaped him just now and he stared at Longarm helplessly. Longarm picking up the silent cry for help was quick to explain.
“Bumblebee, this is my... Uh, unofficial boyfriend Blurr...”
Blurr bit his lip, oh my god. he couldn’t have chosen WORSE wording! he might as well have said ‘hey this is Blurr my super secret boyfriend! We don’t want anyone to know we’re dating! For reasons! Anyways hi old boyfriend I thought was dead!’
Bumblebee, rightfully seemed very shocked and turned to Blurr looking him over. Blurr couldn’t help but notice the way Bee quickly fixed his posture puffing out his chest and straightening his back. Great just what Blurr needed, to get caught in the middle of even more drama... Before Bumblebee had to chance to say anything Blurr was very quick to speak up. “As much as I’d love to pointlessly trade insults with someone I don’t even know, me and Longarm best just take you home now. There’s a lot to discuss and things we should tell you, but not here.”
Bee paused narrowing his optics at Blurr before once again being interrupted, except this time not by a cybertronian but a tiny organic who ran over to them. “What do you mean take him home? Bumblebee is home! Earth is his home! Isn’t that what you said last night?”
Bee clearly not happy with how the discussion suddenly turned, looked to the tiny organic with a warm smile. “Well of course Earth’s my home! But so is Cybertron, besides I’m not gonna go without you silly! This will just be a great chance to introduce you to all my friends! Speaking of which how are the guys Longarm?”
Blurr quickly began to tune out the conversation, Longarm and Bee were clearly talking about things that didn’t involve him... And he had to admit, despite knowing she was in good hands with Dug Base and Wheelie, Blurr couldn’t get Radio off his mind. He found out very quickly that whenever she wasn’t in his line of sight he couldn’t shake the feeling she wasn’t safe... Maybe it was just the normal fatherly worrying over his daughter, maybe it was because of how secretive he had to be about so many aspects of her or maybe Blurr was just paranoid. He reassured himself it was just the last bit...
Eventually Blurr tuned back into the conversation, once he realized it was finally coming to an end.
“Very well then, we’ll have to prepare some sort of protective equipment for her, but if you’re really not budging on this, Sari may come along with us to Cybertron.”
“YES! I’ll start packing right away!”
Just as soon as she had came, the tiny organic ran off cheering happily.
“You should probably join her huh honeybee? I don’t know if there’s anything in particular you need to bring along but it wouldn’t hurt to look.”
“Heh, as usual stretch you’re very right, I’ll be back soon i promise~”
Bee then leaned in and Longarm smiled leaning in as well for a small peck on the lips. Then it was Bee who left leaving Longarm and Blurr standing there while the other bots were all inside the ship. Probably discussing things they weren’t really concerned with.
After a bit of silence, Longarm turned to Blurr nervously fidgeting with his hands. “Blurr I’m so so sorry I just realized I kissed Bee and you were right there and I didn’t mean to do that I-”
“It’s fine Longarm really, I think I’ve proven I’m not nearly as insecure as your... Other boyfriend. If we have to work something out so be it. As long as we make sure Radio is okay I’ll be happy with the outcome.”
Longarm smiled to Blurr, embracing him and giving him a small kiss on the cheek. “Thank you Blurr, I truly did make the right decision putting Radio in your care...” However Longarms smile soon disappeared as he looked towards where Bee had just gone.
“But?”
“But I’m not sure if I’m ready to get Bumblebee in on our little secret yet... I’m so worried something might go wrong or he’ll be angry at me...”
Blurr frowned, wrapping his arm around Longarm and snuggling into him gently. “No matter what happens next, I’ll be here to protect you and Radio...”
“You promise?”
Blurr smiled, leaning in gently for a soft kiss.
“I promise~”