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When Leonardo first fell in love, he was falling from the roof of a building.
At that time, he really thought he was going to be finished, say goodbye to the world, as a mutant handsome turtle died early.
For a moment, he didn't even have time to think about his last words, just thrown down the stairs by Draxum, waiting for a few seconds to pass before landing with a thud，breaking into a few pathetic pieces of debris.
However, the next second, he heard "Leo!" and then saw a black shadow leap from the roof of the building.
"No way… "
His big brother swoop down at an alarming speed, as fast as a cannonball shot out.God!His stupid big brother, actually jumped down to save him like that?! Is there any point to this except to turn both turtles into a miserable pile of minced meat?
By the way,it seems like he saw Raphael's tears, but the tears were too distant, as if they were fleeting like a shooting star, so he decided that it was his own illusion.
However, Raphael awaken the ability to instantly jump downstairs, with a huge palm to catch Leonardo steadily.As they lay together on the ground, his hand over his big brother's chest, two turtles were terrified and gasping for air, Leonardo realized he was saved.
He was somehow embarrassed and patted Raphael's chest to say "Thanks,bro". Raphael obviously experienced the limit of life and death, but just smile:"I don't know what happened, but anytime!"
Oh, what his silly brother, even scared to tears, but can jump down a hundred-meter high building for his little brother without hesitation, completely regardless of the consequences.
Leonardo has no doubt that if Raphael could have rushed down before Leo hit the ground, he would have tried his best to get back up and hug Leo, then used his equally vulnerable back shell to fend off the impact.
Think of it, isn't that the case every time?
He felt weird about himself. Obviously, there were many times when he accepted his brother's protection and rescue with peace of mind, but never with his heart thumping like this now.
His heart beating wildly, blood rushing to his brain, holding his face red, panicking to find another topic of conversation in order to escape, but only to find that he had failed utterly in this mission.
But he was no longer in the mood to think about that. He only knew from some tidbits of knowledge that his reaction like this was either brain fried or falling in love.
Deliberately created chance encounters, sneaking looks when smiling, "Morning" and "Good evening". Leonardo spends all his attention on his sweet secret love.
As young brother, he could embrace Raphael without being suspected,could express his love again and again by means of gestures or words covertly.
But only he understood that Raphael never thought in that direction, and unfortunately, he also never had the courage to reveal the truth.
That's enough.Leonardo thought silently as he looked at Raphael's back as he yawned into his room after one of the customary bedtime hugs.That would be enough. Maybe one day when he was ready, when Raph was ready, he would be able to say that L word to him.
Even if Raphael doesn't agree...no problem, he has enough patience and self-confidence to impress Raph, and then they will finally be married!
Those stories--- Splinter told them the fairy tale of the prince and princess, the ends were all such 'a happy ending', aren't them?
But Some stories are completely over before they even begin.
When Leonardo lost his first love, his front a bloody, thick shadows covering his head, warm bright red liquid mixed with broken bones slowly dripping down his cheeks and into his mouth.He subconsciously licked it with the tip of his tongue, filling his teeth with the salty、bitterness of sorrow.
"Raph?"
His brother blocked him with massive body, and the flesh-pink tentacle pierced his heart, missing Leonardo's skull by just a hair.Blood and flesh continued to gush outward from the bowl-sized wound, gurgling like a fountain.
RED.BLACK.
The world is left with these two terrible colors, which intertwine and interlock, easily constructing a never-ending nightmare.
His eyes widened, and before he knew what happened, he saw Raphael give a pained expression, and then pressed the escape pod to his chest with all his strength.
Raphael only had time to do this, and then hung his head as if relieved, leaving Leonardo hissing and tapping on the window, no more response.
"Raph,wait,no."he used all his strength to slap,"Wait Raph!Raph!No Raph!!!"
However,the blood-spattered escape pod started up at this moment and quickly carried the near-mad Leonardo into the distance, farther and farther away from his beloved brother.
In the long years since then, Leonardo has rarely recalled the sweet and sour first love.
His love died in the distant past long before the moment Raphael blocked the attack. Every time the heart is torn, it becomes an excuse to deliberately forget.
If the memory is too painful, it is better to bury it in the deepest corner of the heart.
As a child, Leonardo's most favorite is to listen to the legend of the immortal heroes. Unfortunately, the young turtle was only concerned about the happy ending clap, but failed to notice that the heroes behind the road, each of which is sprinkled with painful blood and tears.
Perhaps the word 'Hero'means the loss.
When he kept saying goodbye to his family and friends, and finally became a solo ninja master, leading the Earth team against Krang, and then turned back, he couldn't even recall that look on Raphael's face.
When the dusty memories were turned up, he was filled with his brother's spirited look, as if his beloved had not died for him at, but had gone ahead with the best look and dissipated in the gentle wind.
Leonardo took out the photo he had been carrying, trembling fingers tried to smooth out the wrinkles on Raphael's forehead like they had done countless times in the past. Obviously he is smiling, how is it always a worried expression?
Leonardo laugh out loud.
His Raph, his dumb big brother. Will shed tears for the stray puppy, will cheer for the brand new stuffed bear, love hugs, fear of loneliness, every move of his family makes him hang on to them, always miss them, his brother.
Now I'm in your shoes,big guy.
"Listen, make sure you find the key, it looks like this." Leonardo turned the photo over and drew the key's design on it. "Find the key,stop the Krang. The future of Earth is entrusted to you, Casey."
"But sensei, what about you?" The boy had tears in the corners of his eyes, "I don't want to lose you ......"
"Casey, It's not about me." Leonardo gently patted Casey's head, "A long, long time ago, my brother told me that the world never revolves around me, it never does.At that time I was too arrogant and didn't really understand what he meant, so I was punished. Now I'm just going to fulfill my mission, just like he did."
"When you done save the world,do me a favor..."
He grabbed the boy by the collar and threw him violently backwards.
"Grab a slice!"
The moment the laser sweeps down, Leonardo does not have much reaction.
He even knew clearly that he was about to die, but only felt a little regret. He couldn't tell his disciple that 'your master had an incestuous love for his brother even until his death', could he? That would scare the little one.
Unfortunately, he won't be able to send words to his past self, telling him to stop waiting silently like a fool and instead to profess his love to his big brother sooner.
Leonardo had thought that God would have mercy on him, so that he could carry this crush for a long time, and spend a long, long time with Raphael, have been happy until old age.However, it seems that this is just a luxury hope.
Because the word 'Hero' means the loss.
If Casey succeeds ...
If everything, really, could be done over again ...
"I love you, Raph!"
"What?" Raphael glanced at his brother a little strangely, said, "I know, huh?"
"Not the kind of love that usually say!" Leonardo looked so embarrassed for the first time, completely lost his usual relaxed look, anxiously rose red, "I'm talking about that kind of love...is not the same as you love Donnie and Mikey, April and Dad and all of them! It's deeper, deeper kind of love!"
"Uh...you lost a bet with Mikey, so you came to make fun of me? Even if you tell me this, I can't figure it out, huh?" Raphael looked confused and touched Leonardo's forehead with some concern, "No fever, why don't I go ask Donnie to get you some medicine...um?!"
Looking back, Leonardo had simply jumped up, wrapped his arms tightly around his sluggish idiot big brother, kissing him hard.
Raphael was frightened, but his brother seemed to be serious. Leonardo kiss with Raphael and determined to plunder the air out of his brother's mouth.Until they finally separated, Raphael was so dizzy from the kiss that he almost didn't hear Leonardo's louder confession: "Not just like, I love you! Very, very much! So much so that I want to get married to you!"
"What..." Raphael froze for a moment, then his eyes widened and he turned and ran for his life out of the room: "Dad! Leo he's gone crazy! He must have been possessed by Krang, the next step is insanity, I know how that feels!"
"Wait my little Raphy, don't go!Let me give you a hot hug ~ ~ ~!"
Leonardo's first Marriage Proposal unfortunately failed.
However, his first love who died in an unknown time and space,but under the chaos of screaming and laughing,like a withered tree in spring, extinguished ashes rekindled,alive once again.