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At the prime age of nineteen, Sunoo never thought that he would get almost all the good stuffs in life.
He was able to achieve his dream of debuting as an idol. They have a solid fan base both locally and internationally. His members are such good and most talented people he ever met. All of his members seems to adore him, their albums are topping on charts, and many more to mention.
But he also believed that one can never have it all.
Almost all the good stuff has been showered to him, yet the one thing that he wants the most, is the one that he cannot have.
Sunoo craves love.
He badly wants a relationship that sometines he feels like he's just romanticizing love.
However, he is not naive. He wants to love and be loved, not just anyone, but Sunghoon.
Sunoo has been harboring this feelings ever since they're group has formed.
It started from respect to adoration, until it grew into something bigger and heavier. As each day passes, the amount of feelings he has been carrying increases and it was so late when he noticed how deep the ground he's been standing has become.
His adoration grew into something bigger and everyday it was becoming heavier as he knows that it will not be reciprocated the way he wants it to be.
It has been a known a fact, that Sunoo is a people pleaser. He would always put himself behind, just to cater the others first. And he won't let this heavy load affect his group, he won't let his feelings get in the way of their friendship.
Because as much as he wants to continue falling in love, his group and the friendship they built along the way is more important for him.
Sunoo has been slowly moving on though, he wants to just bury this feelings before it eats him whole. And maybe one day, he would be fine again and would completely forget about it.
His thoughts were interrupted by a sound dragging chair pulled up beside him.
"Are you ready today Sun?" He lifted his head and looked at the man who's talking to him.
I guess the night would be longer than I expected
"Yeah hyung, " he smiled a little to Sunghoon.
Hoon reads the time table in front of him. "It would just be an interview right? Then after these were heading to the dorm?" He asks the younger which only gives him an affirmative nod, without meeting his eyes.
Hoon stared at the side profile of the younger a little before speaking. "Do you want to have dinner with me after, Sun? You can choose the menu later at the dorm."
Sunoo who has been looking at his hands on his lap absent-mindedly, looked up to meet Hoon's eyes. "Of course hyung, I just had my brunch today, so I'm actually a little hungry" he explained while smiling. The mere mentioned of food and having dinner with his hyung made him happy.
The older gave him a non-committal hum as a response, forehead creasing a little, seeming to be thinking of something.
The older looked at the wall clock inside their green room, "the schedule would atleast take 2 hours though, plus another 40 minutes on the way to the dorm. Have these for now" Hoon passed him the crackers that was on their vanity table.
Sunoo was about to complain but Sunghoon grabbed the crackers again, open it for him, and put one on his mouth to block off his complains.
Sunoo blushed at this sudden action, while Sunghoon laughed a little at his reaction.
This feelings should really stop now , he thought to himself.