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"Jongho... p-please, don't leave me..." Mingi spoke desperately, holding Jongho's cold hand in that hospital bed. "I'll take care of you... I-I'm sorry, just... please..." His hiccups filled the silent room.
"... Stay alive with me."
Suddenly, Mingi woke up scared. And as if he had a sixth sense or something else, he looked to his side where Jongho was sleeping peacefully.
It's not the first time this happens.
Mingi often wakes in the dawn or too early in the day just to check how is Jongho being, or just if he was still by his side. Since the youngest's suicide attempt a while ago, Mingi have been looking out too much on him.
Actually, he's afraid to lost his lover forever.
"Mingi? Are you there?" The calm and raspy voice of his boyfriend in Mingi's side make him look instantly. "Good... m-morning" Jongho coughs.
"Don't force yourself to speak too much, dear." Mingi answered, cuddling his hair. "Won't you back to sleep, hm?"
"No, I'm pretty... awake right now..." Jongho said lazy "Can we go to kitchen? I'm h-hungry.."
"Oh, right!" Mingi got up of the bed "Let's go down and get a breakfast. I will do something good for you, hm?" Mingi helps him to get up too, then helps him to go down the stairs and get in the kitchen.
When both were eating peacefully, Jongho started to stare at his boyfriend for too much times while he was eating, making Mingi confused.
"What is it, dear? The food isn't good?" Mingi asked
"Actually, Mingi-ya..." Jongho's face suddenly turns a bit red "I was... wondering if..."
"If...?" Mingi asks, smiling slightly at his boyfriend
"Are you g... I m-mean, could you..." Jongho licks his lower lip "wash my... hair?"
Oh, he almost forgot he have it to do.
In these days, Jongho can't move his hands properly (for a little while) then Mingi helps him to make simple tasks, it includes showering, brush his teeth, feed him or dress him. Since the day when he gets home, Jongho feels pain in moving his hand or talking too much.
"Am I... being h-hard to.. deal with?" Jongho asks at the boyfriend's silence "I'm so sorry..."
"No, you're not being hard! I swear!" Mingi popped up his eyes "I'll wash your hair today, sweetie, that's ok."
Jongho sniffs, holding the tears who was trying to roll in his face.
"I tried to...kill myself and a-almost...lost you" Jongho's voice cracks and Mingi start to feel panic, don't knowing what to do besides denying it moving his head "I tried it t-twice in one day but I'm still alive...giving you p-problems..."
Jongho continued to talk but his voice was slowly fading away, Mingi hugs hard his shaking body.
"It's not true, Jongho! Look here!" Mingi tried to keep his voice calm while his hearts pound with each Jongho's hiccups "You aren't giving me problems, I love you and I'll take care of you until you get well, ok? Please, don't repeat it again..."
"I'm sorry..." Jongho wanted to hug him back, if he could.
Some minutes passed and now both of them are more calm, Mingi get up quickly and wash their dishes, while Jongho was just watching and waiting for him.
In the rest of the day, them spend the time together laughing and watching movies, until Mingi and Jongho entering the bathroom. Mingi prepared the bathtub to him as usual, he called Jongho to then undress him.
As soon as Jongho was in the bathtub, he saw Mingi take the shampoo's bottle making him smile.
"You didn't forgot..." Jongho says smiling with his boyfriend hands around his hair.
"I didn't, are you happy?" Mingi smiled back, his boyfriend started to shake his head positively.
Jongho loves so much these times he pass with Mingi. Just them two, nothing more and no one else. At this moment, he turn his head at Mingi, wanting to kiss him. However, a constantly guilt feeling started to full jongho's body, letting a single teardrop falls through his eyes. Mingi couldn't even notice it while rinsing his hair.
Noticing the boyfriend's silence, Mingi lower his hand towards the bruise on Jongho's neck, lightly stroking until Jongho looks back.
"Does it hurts?" Mingi asked hesitantly
"Not actually...dear." Jongho tried to smile with his shaking lips "I t-think I'm done."
"Okay, let's get out then." Mingi helps him again to stay standing while dried him and dressed him. "Do you feel good now?"
"Yeah." Jongho smiles "I think I'm...g-getting better these days.."
Mingi's face lights up in happiness, hugging him tight.
"I'm so glad to hear this!" Mingi said in his ear, watching the back of his neck crawl.
"Mingi-ya..." Jongho's face turns red.
"What is it, baby?" Mingi smiled looking in his eyes.
"I... Uhm, could you k-kiss me?" Jongho's round eyes were sparkling waiting for his answer.
Even if they had almost two years of dating, Jongho still gets shy and Mingi thinks it's lovely. He cuddled his back hair, pushing his head to a kiss.
Jongho's soft lips on his are the most best thing that he ever felt. He stills get impressing with the softness and taste of your lips, slowly getting addicted at it. The kiss itself was full of love and passion, it's been a while that Jongho doesn't felt his stomach churning like this, slightly biting the lower lip of his boyfriend and ending the osculation, but wasn't enough.
Mingi suddenly grab Jongho's arms and put it around his neck, and then push his waist closer and continued kissing him. Jongho was shyly making some lewd sounds trying to finish up.
"Mingi- ah!" Jongho almost shouted when Mingi started to bite his neck, his weak part. "Dear, p-please, not right now..."
Mingi stopped, laughing sightly in his neck "It's okay, I just love the way you react about this."
At this moment, Jongho realized that Mingi is the man of his dreams. Mingi never did something or continues to do when Jongho feels uncomfortable, Mingi's also there by his side when he needs.
Mingi is the type of person that never would let you.
"Hyung" Jongho called, leaving the bathroom with Mingi.
"Hm?" Mingi asked, looking at the younger.
"I... I love you."
He smiled shyly. "I love you too, sweetheart."
Jongho get closer of him and finally can move his shaky hands, sightly grabbing Mingi's shirt.
"Please don't l-leave my side."
Mingi's eyed popped up with his boyfriend's movement, smiling again and then hugging him.
"I wouldn't." He smelled Jongho's hair "I'll never leave your side."
Jongho looks in his sparkling eyes when it looked back at his eyes. He could spend hours admiring Mingi himself.
"It's a promise."
They lied on the bed, hugging each other. Jongho's soap smell makes Mingi more comfortable in that situation.
"Jongho..." Mingi waited for him to look "Are you sure you're better now?"
"Yeah..." Jongho answered "Why?"
"Well... I actually have to work tomorrow and I'm afraid to leave you alone here." Mingi's cheeks got red and Jongho laughed of this.
"It's okay!" Jongho said while laughing "I promise you t-that I'll be okay d-during your work...!"
"You promise?"
"Yes." Jongho showed his pinky "I promise"
"I trust you, my love." Mingi intertwined his pinky together.
"Now... c-can I have cuddles all night until I sleep?" Jongho asks shyly, snuggling in Mingi's chest.
"Of course, but just if you kiss me." Mingi waited making a pout. Jongho nodded, kissing his cheek.
"Here."
Mingi made a angry face when Jongho starts laughing louder at his reaction.
"I'm just kidding, hyung..." Jongho approached and sealed the lips together for a kinda long time, making smack sounds around the bedroom.
After that, Mingi spend a good time just cuddling Jongho's hair and thinking how adorable his boyfriend is. Does he really exist? A cool, handsome, cute and adorable boy, just for him.
In the morning, Mingi didn't even said goodbye to Jongho properly because he was too cute sleeping in pout, then Mingi just gave a peck on his lips and left the house, going to his workplace.
He just hoped that Jongho would be fine on his own. But actually, Jongho didn't was that okay when woke up.
His vision was dizzy enough to make him almost fell off the bed. The weather was weirdly cold, or it's just for him?
"Mingi-ya..." Jongho called with no answer, realizing that he's alone at home for the first time in a weeks. He doesn't complains, knowing Mingi had to go that moment.
But he would not deny the lack he was about to feel.
Jongho slowly get up of the bed and went to the bathroom, not having so much trouble brushing his teeth, although he still felt a little queasy. Jongho moved his hands to his neck, pressing it around and feeling too much heat. That probably would be the reason he's feeling like that. He's cold.
He washed his hair too late on last night.
"Why are you... like this?" Jongho murmured at himself "C-couldn't you just wait f-for another day?"
He he left the bathroom, heading to the kitchen feeling his legs trembling. He was weak, but he needed to eat so he wouldn't get worse and disappoint Mingi.
He made a promise that he'll be okay without him for an hours.
Mingi actually did a breakfast sandwich for him, letting a note side the dish, written:
"Don't forget to eat well, my dear. Remember to don't force yourself too much for things like washing the dishes, it is on me! You can call me for anything you want, okay?
Love you."
Jongho smiled at the note, putting the sandwich on the microwave and then eating alone, in silence.
After a while, Jongho started to feel so hot that he was sweating cold. He looked around the house for a thermometer and when he finally found it, he took his temperature.
The result was 100.4°, meaning he's really fever.
"Fuck..." Jongho sighed, looking around for any medicine for fevers, don't finding any. "Hm..." A simple idea popped in his mind.
"You can call me for anything you want..." Was in Mingi's note.
Jongho felt insecure. Mingi was on his work, he couldn't call him ir whatever, he would be worried about his health.
On result, Jongho decided to call Hongjoong.
"Hongjoong?"
"Yes?" He answered "How are you, jjongie?"
"I-I'm kinda bad... I'm fever." Jongho said waiting his answer "Could you please buy a remedy for me? Just... if you can or w-want!"
"It's Okay, I will... But, where's Mingi?"
"He's working today."
"Oh..." Hongjoong stayed in silence "I'll be here soon, I hope you're in your bed right now!"
"Ah, yes..." Jongho almost laughed nervous, going silently at the stairs. "I am, yes."
"Hm... you better be." And then, Hongjoong disconnected the call.
Jongho made a little bit of effort to up the stairs and lie down in the bed. Hongjoong, besides being his friend, was also his older brother. Hongjoong also felt guilty for what happened, but Mingi promised that he'll be okay on his care.
Hongjoong have a pretty good relationship with his boyfriend, different from his parents.
Maybe Jongho will never say it in loud voice, but one of the reasons of his attempt, was his parents. How could they hate him so much? Sure, they also don't like Hongjoong too, but at least, Hongjoong is strong enough to don't care and cut ties with them.
Sighing, Jongho hears the door open. Hongjoong had arrived in a few minutes. He hear steps on the stairs and then the room door is open.
"Am I too late?" Hongjoong asked, smiling at his brother.
"Of course not!" Jongho immediately answered, sitting on the bed. "Uhm, t-thank you hyung, I d-don't know how to pay you..."
"Only loving me and yourself is enough." Hongjoong gave the bag for him, going to the kitchen and getting a cup of water "How are you being? I'm seeing you so much better now, I'm proud."
Jongho swallowed his medicine, and then replied "Yeah, I'm pretty better... It's j-just my throat and hands still hurting sometimes..."
The room stayed in silence. Hongjoong sightly get closer to his young brother and puts a cold finger on the bruise on jongho's neck.
"It still hurts?"
"No." Jongho said, looking at Hongjoong's teary eyes "Don't cry, hyung, i-it's not your fault."
"I know it isn't." Hongjoong answered "It just hurts seeing you like this. I think... I have to show you more love, and... you know, give you happiness." Hongjoong hugged him.
With his hands shaking, Jongho returns his brother's hug, laying his head on his shoulder.
"I love you." Hongjoong said to him for the first time in a while, who made Jongho's eyes teary. "Get well soon so I'll take you and Mingi on a camping trip!" He smiled, waving and then left the room, down the stairs and closed the house's door.
Jongho just needs to rest a bit right now and wait for Mingi come back. After this, he fell asleep quickly, just waking when heard Mingi's voice close to him.
"Jongho?" Mingi called "Are you okay?"
"Mingi! You-" Jongho sneezes "you're h-home..."
"Bless you." Mingi said "Why are you so hot?"
Jongho's face suddenly got red.
"What!?"
"I mean- not like this... but you're absolutely hot okay? I'm saying in... literal way!" Mingi tried to explain quickly.
"Ah, got it..." Jongho laughed nervous "I had a fever lately... I'm p-probably cold."
"Why didn't you call me?" Mingi made a sad face "I would come so much earlier than now!"
"I called Hongjoong to don't disturb you at work... I thought you'd be mad." Jongho said shyly. "Sorry..."
"Don't say sorry, it's better Hongjoong than you alone. I'm not mad and wouldn't be, okay? I said you can call me for everything." Mingi cuddled his hair, kissing his forehead "Have you showered yet?"
"No- I fell asleep..."
"Let's bath together then, dear." Mingi smiled, getting up and going to the closet "Will you?"
"S-sure." Jongho answered, getting up too.
He remembered the last time they showered together in the bathtub... was so lewd, hot and still good.
Mingi took the clothes of both and called him to the bathroom, finally preparing the bathtub. Jongho managed to undress alone, waiting for the eldest.
They were inside the bathtub, Mingi was looking directly at him and Jongho was shyly soaping himself.
"What is it, baby?" Mingi called him "Why are you so quiet?"
"Uh... I j-just don't know what to say..." He said. Mingi smiled.
"Come here." Mingi ordered, seeing Jongho sightly coming close to him "I'll wash your back, okay?" Jongho agreed..
His hands with the sponge going though his back was strangely making he crawl. Mingi's hands were going around his waist inside the water, Jongho saw the soap bubbles spread around him.
Jongho was too sensitive to touch. Each movement, action and even Mingi's light breathing on the back of his neck made him delirious. Jongho was having some spasms in the bathtub, and Mingi immediately notices.
"What's wrong?"
"H-hm?" Jongho asked, startled by Mingi's sudden voice
"You're having spasms now" Mingi said "Is everything okay?"
"Ah, yeah, it's good, hyung..." Mingi squeezed the younger's waist tightly, Jongho almost shouted "Hyung!"
Mingi laughs "I'm pretty sure you're horny, baby. It's okay" He kissed his back "I wonder if you want my help with that."
Jongho's mind was numb with his feelings. He haven't felt this way in a good time, then, why not?
"I- I want... but, uhm... quickly." He asks shyly, being surprised by Mingi's hand on his dick. Jongho closed his legs as a reflex, but opened again when Mingi's hand got faster.
Jongho was trembling on his touch, some sounds of collision and both deep panting were filling the bathroom.
"Mingi-ya..." He moaned "Could you- hnng! be m-more faster?"
"Of course, my pretty boy..." Mingi got more fast and started to bite Jongho's back neck and his ear. The sounds that Jongho was making it's like a wonderful music to him, he could be in there forever without complain. "Do you feel good?"
"Uh- yes, hyung! mmm... s-so good! Mingi!" Jongho closed his eyes hard, suddenly coming in Mingi's hand and a bit in the water.
"I- I'm sorry..."
"Hm?" Mingi said confused
"I didn't want to come right now..." Jongho hides his red face "I'm a b-bit sensible at your touch, you know..."
They were in silence, but Mingi suddenly laughs.
"Baby, it's okay! I don't want you forcing yourself to not come, right? Just relax about it, I don't mind." Mingi said, lefting the bathtub "Unless you like those things, of course..."
Jongho's face was more red "Pervert." He threw some water on the eldest.
"No, you!" Mingi hit the towel in his face.
Jongho quickly left the bathtub and start running after Mingi. Both of them naked, wet and running in a small bathroom, one of them could fall someway!
"You-"
"Okay, okay! I get it, Jongho, pleas-" Mingi couldn't finished talking, Jongho's trembling hands started to tickle him. "Jongho, your hands- !" He said laughing louder
"Who's pervert, huh?" Jongho said smiling evil
"Me! I-it's me, hahahaha!" Mingi chokes on his own laughter
"And who's perfect, huh?" Jongho asked
"Me- no, you!" He stopped "You're perfect."
Jongho smiled.
"No, you." He kissed Mingi's mouth very quick, taking his towel and lefting the bathroom "Come here, let's get dressed!"
Mingi was paralysed, slowly feeling his face burning. How can Jongho make him shy like this? It was his work!
Soon, he reached the youngest, hugging him from behind.
"You have to stop doing this!"
"Do what?"
"Being pretty, kind and perfect. It makes me fell in love with you even more!" He kissed Jongho back, this time more slow.
"You're making me shy..." Jongho look away, smiling
"You're making me shy!" Mingi repeats in pout "But I love you in same way." He kissed Jongho's cheek. "I'll dress up, you can lay down if you want."
Jongho goes to the bed, sitting there and watching Mingi dressing himself.
He's so pretty.
Mingi gets closer and push him to the bed, laying on his side. They stayed for some minutes like this, Mingi was almost sleeping and suddenly, Jongho says
"Mingi-ya."
"Hm?"
"Thank you." Jongho said "For... you know, caring about me and... loving me."
Mingi almost cried. Was absolutely rare to Jongho say things like this, because he's keeping it for a long while.
"I have to say the same thing for you." He approached his head, puting their foreheads together.
"I wanna be on your side the same way you're with me." Jongho closed his eyes "Maybe it could help me to show more my feelings for you..." He fell asleep.
"I'll stay with you forever." Mingi said, closing his eyes.
"It's our promise."