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Kim Roksu glared at everyone there. He deliberately unleashed his Dominating Aura at full power. His eyes were bloodshot from crying.
"M-mister Roksu, c-calm down."
Calm? No. Why did he have to be so calm at this time? Kim Roksu couldn't calm down at all.
"Kim Roksu, what's wrong with you? Y-you're safe with us."
Safe? Why should he believe that? Don't give Kim Roksu that disgusting fake smile.
"Roksu-nim, p-please calm down. He won't hurt you again."
Kim Roksu immediately glared at whoever had just said that. Ah, it turned out to be Choi Han. Seen, Choi Han flinched slightly seeing his liege staring at him intently. This was ... very unlike Kim Roksu who would normally look at him with a stoic gaze.
Kim Roksu wanted to laugh. He? Hurt him? That's absolutely impossible. He was too kind and would never dare to do that to Kim Roksu.
"Shut your mouth, Choi Han." Kim Roksu commanded coldly when Choi Han wanted to speak again. Choi Han seemed to be aware that his liege was angry so he obeyed obediently, not daring to fight back.
Kim Roksu observed everyone in this room. They are all scared. Kim Roksu now really hated them. He could no longer love them like he used to. Oh, how Kim Roksu wished he didn't meet them in the first place.
"Get out," he ordered. Everyone flinched at the cold command.
Eruhaben tried to speak. "Hey, Unlucky Bastard. You're still on medication-"
"I said get out!" Kim Roksu snapped, ignoring the children who were starting to cry.
"And I don't want to ever see your faces again, for an inch," he continued expressionlessly. Everyone flinched and widened their eyes. What? Why is Kim Roksu like this? This is not Kim Roksu!
"Go and never see me again." Kim Roksu continued when no one moved. After a while, Kim Roksu gritted his teeth. He clicked his tongue before forcibly picking up Rosalyn and gripping her tightly by the neck.
Crackle.
"R-roksu-nim."
"W-wait a minute!"
They all panicked. Disbelieve. They saw Kim Roksu's hand emitting a stream of lightning from the ancient power of Fire of Destruction and aimed it at Rosalyn's neck. Rosalyn trembled in fear in Kim Roksu's grip which tightened and almost made her choked.
"M-mister Roksu ..." Rosalyn called out in a trembling voice. For some reason, her instincts told her that Kim Roksu would not hesitate to kill her right now. However, Rosalyn could only remain silent.
Kim Roksu didn't seem to care about Rosalyn who was scared and wanted to cry. He continued talking with his emotionless look as they still wouldn't leave. He didn't care, this woman was nothing now.
"I said go," said Kim Roksu. He also brought his hand that was carrying the ancient power of his fire to Rosalyn's neck while staring intently at those he used to call family. "Or I will completely lose control and kill whoever is here."
Silence and fear completely filled the room now.
"Oh, all but Kage."
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Kim Roksu drank his tea leisurely before looking at Kage sitting across from him. Kage was still shaking with fear. She didn't want to look at Kim Roksu and chose to stare at the untouched tea that was prepared for her.
"Kage," Kim Roksu called after a few minutes. Kage flinched slightly before timidly raising her head to look at Roksu. Kage's eyes trembled at the sight of Kim Roksu's lifeless eyes.
"Kage," Kim Roksu called back.
"... yes?"
Kim Roksu smiled when there was finally a response. "Please call that bastard," he said with a friendly smile at Kage. However, his smile did not reach his cold eyes. What he said was also not a request but an order.
Kage opened and closed her mouth several times hesitantly before finally nodding. The woman clapped her hands together in front of her chest and began to call out to her liege. The aura of death enveloped the two of them.
Kim Roksu stared at it all boredly before he finally fell asleep.
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"Kim Roksu," he greeted. Kim Roksu glared at the god.
"You said this time everything will be under control and Cale will survive."
"There's a problem and-"
"WHAT ELSE ARE YOU DOING, BASTARD!?" snapped Kim Roksu. The God of Death sighed before looking at him. "Listen to me carefully, Kim Roksu."
Kim Roksu folded his arms across his chest and gestured The God of Death to continue. The God of Death fixed his posture seeing that. He explained calmly to Kim Roksu.
"The God of Despair somehow regained power even though you regressed so many times. Do you know the cause?" asked the God of Death.
Kim Roksu was silent for a moment before opening his mouth to answer. "That bastard ate my and Cale's despair."
"Right."
Kim Roksu closed his eyes because of that. Kim Roksu had regressed many times just to try to save Cale, but he failed. It always fails. However, before that, Cale regressed many times just to try to save his family but failed as well. Kim Roksu was sent to save the world when the gods saw how dissapointing Cale's failure was.
Especially the very disappointed God of Death. Finally, the god sent Kim Roksu as another variable. He didn't mean for the two of them to meet and become family, much less sworn brothers. They both become light and source of warmth for each other. Cale was Kim Roksu's little light before he was killed by their own family just because of a misunderstanding created by the Sealed God.
At that time, Kim Roksu was furious and ended up threatening the God of Death when they met. They finally made a deal with Kim Roksu to regress. Of course, as said before, it all failed. Cale was again killed by their 'family'. Something in Kim Roksu really broke and wanted to slaughter everyone who had killed his little light. It seemed, the despair of the two of them became the best food for that bastard god. However, not only that.
Kim Roksu opened his eyes again before glaring at the God of Death. "Didn't you also hide Cale from me?" asked Kim Roksu.
The God of Death was silent for a moment before laughing loudly at that. Kim Roksu looked at him with disdain making the god shake his head at this one human's rudeness. He also stopped laughing before looking at Kim Roksu.
"That's right."
"Why?" asked Kim Roksu quickly.
"Believe me, this is only for your own good."
"Then, what about Cale?"
"It's also for his own good-"
"Bullshit." Kim Roksu cut off the god's words. The gods seemed to love toying with his life. Kim Roksu wouldn't just let it go.
"You're trying to keep me away from Cale," Kim Roksu said as he tapped his thigh.
"You're trying to make me forget him."
Kim Roksu recalled the words of the Sealed God.
"Kim Roksu, let me tell you. You love that Cale Henituse of yours, don't you? The other gods especially The God of Death planned this."
The God of Despair had said this to him personally without Cale knowing. The bastard continued with this sentence.
"The God of Death plans to use hunters to mess with your mind and forget about Cale Henituse. He wants you to focus on saving this small world instead of caring about some ... disappointment."
"Kim Roksu. The God of Death plans to completely erase Cale Henituse's existence."
The God of Despair seemed to be telling the truth about this. Kim Roksu could see the silence of the god before him was a cruel truth. Of course, Kim Roksu wouldn't let this bastard do whatever he wanted.
Kim Roksu stood up from his seat. He approached the God of Death while saying sharply and coldly.
"Because you dared to try to make me forget my dongsaeng ..." Kim Roksu said quietly and threateningly. The God of Death stared at Kim Roksu warily at the human's next sentence.
"... I will hunt down and kill all the existing hunters so that you cannot do anything to my memories. I will also destroy anything that stands in my way from Cale Henituse. I will destroy every existing world if I have to."
This threat is not bullshits. Kim Roksu will completely turn things around just so he can get his light back. Call him a possessive bastard, he doesn't care. All he wants is his dongsaeng.
Kim Roksu had already lost his two idiotic hyungs, he wouldn't let his dongsaeng be taken in the same way.
Slowly, Kim Roksu's vision blurred and everything was dark again.
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Alver has a lot on his mind at the moment. Inevitably, he started thinking about Cale Henituse. The bastard who had dared to stab his own sworn brother, Kim Roksu.
Alver thought, this doesn't make sense.
Alver had known the real Cale Henituse behind the face that the society knew as trash. Alver had known how kind-hearted Cale Henituse was to sacrifice himself just for the sake of his family, not caring about his own reputation. How Cale Henituse was a person who was insecure of himself.
Alver also saw for himself how much Cale loved Kim Roksu as much as Kim Roksu loved him.
Then, why would such a person suddenly become jealous of Kim Roksu and stab him?
Does not make sense. Very unreasonable.
Alver knew that it was impossible for people to change their minds so quickly except in certain situations such as being threatened with death.
'What if Cale doesn't do it?'
'What if Cale actually just wanted to joke or something?'
'What if Cale is truly innocent?'
'What if it's just an illusion?'
Alver's hand stopped writing. Illusion. Alver thought about the word again and again.
Illusion. Illusion. Illusion.
The God of Despair created an illusion as a test. So, illusion can be said to be one of the Sealed God divine abilities. Then ....
Alver recalled Kim Roksu's expression that was really angry when he heard of Cale Henituse's execution. He looked a mess back then. He looks very saddened by the death of his dongsaeng.
Even if Cale Henituse really didn't like Kim Roksu as he seemed, Kim Roksu would have noticed. Kim Roksu is not someone to be easily fooled. That way, Kim Roksu would also dispose of Cale Henituse afterwards. However, in reality, Kim Roksu still doted on Cale.
That means one thing.
Alver dropped his pen. His eyes trembled. He could feel his whole body shaking. Oh god, did Alver ever feel this stupid? This is not his usual self. Alver should have known right away that it was all a god's illusion before actually making up his mind.
From now on, Alver's life will be filled with high guilt. This guilt will not go away.
"Alver?" his aunt asked worriedly. Alver raised his head slowly. Tasha gasped when she saw the crying Alver. He could see Choi Han who was also there as his guard flinch.
"Aunt ... I made a big mistake."
Tasha and Choi Han immediately felt bad after that. That's where the truth comes out.
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Choi Han swung his sword aimlessly. Alver's story about his big mistake really made him feel . . . lost.
He remembered, Cale was one of his lieges who had saved him from suffering along with Kim Roksu. From then on, Choi Han vowed to repay his kindness.
However, Choi Han retaliated with evil.
Choi Han disappointed his liege.
Choi Han had injured his liege.
Choi Han had killed his liege.
Choi Han was silent. It can't be like this. His face became emotionless, staring at the sword Cale gave him.
If Choi Han had failed and killed his liege ....
Choi Han raised his sword and pointed it at his neck. His breath was shaking but his face remained emotionless.
If Choi Han killed his liege, as punishment, Choi Han would have to kill himself, right?
"Choi Han!"
However, before he could slash his own neck, Eruhaben came and threw the sword away from his neck. Choi Han stared blankly at the sword that was kept away from him, ignoring Eruhaben's existence completely.
Oh, now he failed to kill himself. What's the punishment now? Suffering?
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Kim Roksu smiled. He could see Cale Henituse lying on the grass with pretty flowers around him. It looked beautiful and was like seeing an angel sleeping, but Kim Roksu didn't imagine that.
He approached him and knelt down. His rough hand gently stroked Cale's white and smooth cheeks gently. As if, he was afraid that this body would break apart and disappear. Thanks to the movement from him, Cale's eyes twitched and started to open.
Cale looked to the side and found Kim Roksu there with his gentle smile.
"... Hyung?"
Oh, that voice. Kim Roksu really missed that voice. Kim Roksu grabbed Cale's raised hand.
"Cale. Let's go home and live as slackers together."
His efforts to destroy all the hunter bastards over the years were guided by Choi Jung Gun and his threats to the goddamn gods were not in vain.
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Cale remembered. He died again at the hands of his family. The same thing always happened every time he regressed, only this time for a different reason.
'I can't believe you're doing this just because you're jealous of Kim Roksu.'
Jealous? No. Cale couldn't do that, much less to the person who had become his savior and the second source of warmth after his mother. He couldn't be jealous. He also doesn't really care about public opinion about him, why should he be jealous?
Lily, who was rebelling in the hands of the guards, tried to approach him and slashed at the person who will executed him. Bassen was with Violan who snapped at the guards and tried to rebel but failed. Oh, Cale's heart immediately ached seeing his two siblings cry profusely seeing him ready to be executed. His father ... just stood there.
The other people he called family ... were all silent with their hateful gazes on him. Cale didn't understand. What was the worst thing Cale did to them?
Also, the people's cry to speed up the execution. They really hate him, don't they?
Cale was simply speechless. And, it all ended with his head severed, lying on the ground.
However, Cale was opening his eyes again. He still couldn't believe this. He was tired, very tired. He remembered falling asleep in the long darkness.
Is it because of Kim Roksu? Is Kim Roksu really that special? Did Roksu really love him to the point that he destroyed several worlds just to get Cale back from the hands of the gods?
Cale wanted to cry when he heard that from Choi Jung Soo, the person who confessed that he used to be Kim Roksu's friend who had died in Roksu's place. Was he really as precious in Kim Roksu's eyes as Kim Roksu was so precious in Cale's eyes?
Puk. A rough hand bigger than his patted the top of his head. Cale turned his head, finding Kim Roksu who was still sleepy.
"What's wrong? Why did you wake up so early?" asked Kim Roksu with a yawn.
"... no. I thought this was all just a dream," Cale replied. Kim Roksu got up from his bed and sat down next to Cale. He pulled Cale into his arms.
"Don't worry. This isn't all a dream, Cale." Kim Roksu spoke softly while stroking Cale's back.
"Now, let's go back to sleep. There's still a long time for Sui Khan to come and disturb us, we'd better make the best use of the remaining time," Kim Roksu said inviting Cale to go back to sleep. Cale was silent for a moment before finally nodding.
Cale couldn't refuse the person who had become his dearest family after his mother.
Cale would try to forget their apologies when they found out that Cale was still alive. To be honest, Cale felt afraid facing them but there was Kim Roksu by his side. Everything would be safe if Kim Roksu was by his side, right?
Of course, Cale Henituse had no idea that in every Kim Roksu regressions before this regression, Kim Roksu had always slaughtered everyone after Cale Henituse's execution. No, let's just keep it a secret. The innocent Cale didn't need to know.
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