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"I cried like a baby coming home from the bar (oh)
Said, "I'm fine, " but it wasn't true
I don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you
And I snuck in through the garden gate
Every night that summer just to seal my fate"
Stolas's couldn't stop replaying it, it was like an endless movie, in his dreams, in every waking moment, he could see it, he could see him. He remembers vividly the feeling of stone steps in which he sat on as he listens at a car squeeling away from the palace, away from him.
But Stolas had no time for that, at least not right now. He fiddled with his clothes for what felt like a million times, trying to calm his nerves. Stolas never expected the imp to still show up to their little agreement, after that...dump fire of a night, the prince assumed that he wouldn't show up this time, but yet, the last thing Stolas expected when he woke up today was a text thats said he was comimg over.
And Stolas can never refuse him.
His thoughts were interrupted with the sound of the front door opening, Stolas redirected his attention to those doors, and felt like swooning when he came in the room.
"Okay, let's get this over with Princey." Stolas's smile faltered a little, he should have expected this, the complete ignorance. But Stolas still forced a smile.
"Hello, Blitz." He greeted softly.
"Hey."
"It's been a while."
"I've been busy."
"Hm." Was the only response Stolas gave, before walking with the imp following close behind. "You know Blitz, I didn't expect you to show up today."
"Whatever. A deals a deal right?"
Stolas looks at Blitzø for a second. "Right." He said through gritted teeth. "Uh, would you like to eat something maybe something to drink?"
"No, your bedroom will do, the earlier we start this fuck fest, the earlier we finish."
The prince brushed the hurt away, willing his emotions to calm the fuck down. "O-oh okay then. Whatever you want."
They walked in silence to Stolas's room in silence, though there was tension in the air, they could both feel it. They finally arrive in the room, and as soon as the prince shut the door, Blitzø's hot and demanding mouth was on his in an instant, his hands were on the lapels of his clothes to bring him down, but Stolas didn't mind one bit, he melted instantly as Blitzø's familiar and comforting lips touched his.
"Mmm, Blitzy."
"Shut it bird brain, no talking, is that clear?"
Stolas nodded not caring about anything but Blitzø. It wasn't long before they ended up on the bed, clothes shed, and their bodies danced a familiar dance, soon enough they reached satisfaction, their breathes heavy and heart beating widely in their chests.
"Blitz..."
"Not now Stolas."
"I-i alright..." Stolas sighs, he glances at his beloved imp, who has his body facing away from the prince. He lifts a finger, ever so gently placing it on the imp's arm, he frowns when he finches at the contact, but there is a small slither of pleasure when he doesn't pull away. But Stolas knows better than to push his luck, he squeezed gently before pulling away, and lulling himself to a cold, dreamless slumber.
The prince shivers at the gust of wind that washes over his body, he tries to grab for the blanket but it isn't there, and when he opened his eyes, he also finds that Blitzø isn't there either. This fills him with dread, and once again the sense of loneliness greets him, but the wind gushes once again, making his feathers flutter slightly, and making him shiver once again. He turns to the balcony doors agitated, but all at once, it all melted when he saw Blitz on the balcony, with his blanket wrapped around him.
His feet pad the floors, he reaches the balcony and watches for a moment, Blitz looked relaxed albeit contemplative.
"I thought you had left."
Blitzø jumps a little, making Stolas smile. "Uh, yeah, no, thought I would stay for a while, unless you want me to go..."
"No, no, stay as long as you want." Stay forever if you want to, he wanted to say, but he knew he couldn't.
"Right, okay, thanks."
"Penny for your thoughts?"
Blitz snorts but doesn't look at Stolas. "Nothing, just thinking about the business, murders, the usual."
The prince chuckles. "Yes, the usual." He is delighted to see a small smile on Blitzø's lips, but his own smile falters. "Blitz?"
"Hm?"
"I've been thinking... that uh, um-
"Just spit it out princey."
"I've been thinking we should dissolve this agreement between us." This made Blitz turn to him, and he looked at Stolas like he grew five heads. "You'd still get the book of course! And you still have to give it back from time to time, but uh, no...sex."
"Why?"
Stolas looks away, he wanted to say a lot of things, because he fell in love, because it feels peculiar, because it didn't feel like a transaction anymore, because he doesn't like the feeling of what they have being conditional. He could give so many reasons to the question, but he merely shrugged. "Consider it as a gift." He says instead.
"No fucking way Stolas."
"Blitz-
"No. No Stolas I ain't going to accept some fucking pity hand me down, no way in hell."
"This isn't that Blitz-
"Stolas, shut your bird mouth right now I don't wanna hear it-
"Blitz, please-
"NO!" Blitzø screams and this made the prince pause, not in fright but in curiosity. "You're not gonna do that Stolas."
"Why not? You always complain about this to people, why you have to fuck me. I'm giving you an out, so why won't you take it?"
"Why would you care about that?"
"BECAUSE IT FUCKING HURTS YOU ASSHOLE!" Stolas yells, he breaths heavily, and when he realized what he said, he hid his face in his hands in shame, because he lost his temper, he lost control of himself, but he also feels like some weight has been lifted off his shoulders. "It hurts, Blitz, I smile, I laugh, but I hurt, day and night, because it seems like everyone in my life is merely here for their own convenience. You, my ex wife, i try so hard but you are just eerily similar to her, you mock my attempts, but with her my attempts were made to make my family happy, it was duty, but with you, it was selfish, it was, for once in my life for myself, and that made the pain more worse to bare. And I am sorry if my selfishness has been hurting you too in the process, I realize this now, that my selfishness makes you think that's all it is, and so I'm letting you go."
"Bullshit Stolas. Just say you found another play thing to fuck, and go with it, you don't have to make an elaborate speech."
Now Stolas is irritated at the imp. "Do you think so little of me, to actually believe that this what this is?"
"Well, I wouldn't put it past you. You said it yourself your selfish."
"For Satan's sake, I'm giving you what you want Blitz, why can't you take it and go?"
"How are you sure this is what I want?"
Stolas pauses, then retreats, pinching the bridge of his nose in frustration. "You- you are so frustrating Blitz, I can't, for the life of me, understand you. Sometimes I wonder how I manage to fall for such a complex imp."
"W-what did you just say?"
If Stolas was in his right mind he would probably be panicking over what he just blurted out, but he wasn't, he was tired and frustrated and perplexed, all he wanted to do was crawl in his bed, he didn't care anymore. "Nothing, just, leave whenever you want to." He said before turning away, and heading to the direction of his bed, but there was a hand wrapped around his wrist, he could have easily broke away but he didn't.
"Don't you dare walk away from me now Stolas."
"And why not? It's what you always do, why can't I have the luxury of doing to you what you always do to me?"
"Oh don't be so dramatic."
"NO! You know I'm right, you always walk away, or drive away, when I try to want more, if I dare to need more you walk away."
"Jeez, if you wanted to get fucked more just ask."
Stolas laughs bitterly at that. "And there it is, if you can't walk away you deflect. I'm so tired of this stupid dance that we do Blitz. You don't want me, I know, just leave already, I've givens you no more conditions, I've given you freedom from the shackles and chains, so go, don't hurt me even more than I already am."
"And you haven't hurt me?"
"I know I have Blitz, and I'm sorry, I truly am."
"No, because I don't think you understand Stolas." Blitz looks at him, his eyes are filled with furry but also sadness, his eyes glassy with unshead tears. "Little things, that I don't even think you notice hurt me, when you call me things, I feel belittled, I know my status Stolas, I know that I am inferior to you, so you don't have to remind me every second of it. That night, when you looked away and hid your face in shame, that hurt me more than ever, because all my life I have been abandoned again and again, and you just proved that I was worthless, I wasn't worth it enough to be seen with you, and I know people think that, and I guess you do too. I will never be enough for you Stolas, I can't give you want you want, I can't lavish you with gifts or riches, I have nothing, I am nothing."
Stolas takes a breath, his brain trying to process everything Blitzø has just said. He eventually kneels before Blitz, to be at his level, such act would be a scandal but he really didn't give any fucks right now. "Oh, Blitz, I am so sorry. I didn't know that it would hurt you so much". His hand rests on Blitzø's cheek, wiping stray tears away as they fell.
"I guess I never gave you a reason for you to know it would hurt me so much."
"No, no you didn't." Stolas sighs and moves forward to rest his forehead against the imp. "We are a mess."
Blitz laughes, making the prince smile. "Yeah, yeah we are."
There was a stretch of silence but there was no more tension, it was just silence as both their minds scrambled to think properly.
"You know that you'd be enough right?"
"Wha-
"You. I don't need luxury, I don't need you to lavish me with riches, just...your love and yourself, then I will be more than satisfied." Blitzø's breath hitches, trying to believe every word that came out of Stolas's mouth. "You may think you are nothing, but not to me, because to me you are everything."
"Y-you don't mean that."
"But I do."
"I-I don't believe you."
Stolas chuckles, but it was more of a self depreciating one. "Of course you don't." Stolas stands and without a word and he looks at Blitz in defeat.
"You are lying. Fucking bullshiting me." Blitz laughs maniacally. "Because you don't love me, NO ONE LOVES ME. NO ONE. I HAVE NO ONE, THEY ALL HATE ME, NO ONE LOVES ME, THEY ALL LEAVE ME, YOU WILL LEAVE ME."
Stolas is taken aback at Blitzø's behavior, he is well, he is terrified yet concerned.
"YOU WILL LEAVE ME STOLAS, JUST LIKE EVERYBODY HAVE, AND I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU BECAUSE IT WILL HURT MORE THAN EVERYBODY ELSE WHEN YOU LEAVE."
Blitz's legs threatened to give out, and as expected he fell, but before he hit the floor, Stolas was there, scooping him into his arms, and holding him tight as the imp shakes and sobs uncontrollably.
"I love you, I love, you, I love you." He chants again and again through his tears, and to Stolas it sounded like a spell, a melodic enchantment and he was bound to it. He held his beloved imp tighter, whispering sweet nothings into his ears. "I love you Stolas."
"I love you too Blitz." Blitz smiles sadly and so does Stolas, they have so much shit to unpack but atleast they both know how they felt for eachother. It wasn't just a transaction anymore, there was love in the equation now, and that was both exciting and terrifying to both of them. And so as the sun began to rise and light up hell, Stolas carried Blitz to bed, and held him like a precious jem, because he was precious to Stolas, he might not believe it, but Stolas vowed silently that he will make Blitz feel that he is precious, that he is priceless, and that he is irreplaceable.
He will make his beloved imp happy, and if that cost him his life, his status, then so be it, because nothing in hell mattered to Stolas right now except Blitz. And as Blitzø looks at him with a small smile, Stolas Geotia grinned, because in that moment he dared to hope.
"And i screamed for whatever it's worth
"I love you", ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?
He looks up grinning like a devil."