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I love you to the moon and back
such a sweet and adorable cliche
So much love but not enough for you,
you deserve someone who can love
you to mars and back
To jupiter and back
To another galaxy and back
All the way to all whole other universe
and back
But i can only ever love you to the
moon and back
And to the moon and back again.
You love me so much more than i
will ever deserve.
I love you Mischa Bachinski
but this is goodbye
POET
ANSWER ME
WHERE YOU?!
NOEL!?
NOEL GRUBER ANSWER ME?!
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It was two am on a Sunday morning and Mischa Bachinski had woken up to a text from his boyfriend, Noel Gruber. Staring blankly at the text wondering if it was a suicide poem or not his boyfriend had sent him, aside from fact his boyfriend was missing, the fact his beloved partner thought he wasnt enough for him, had him almost in tears.
His and Noel's roommate Penny Jane lamb or PJ for short was still asleep and he really didn't want to wake her up but decided he had to for the safety of his boyfriend. Standing in Pennys doorway, he silently called out “Penny?”. She didn't move, and after a few moments Mischa heard a shift in Penny’s sheets.
Oh
She was *asleep*, asleep. “Jane?” Mischa called out again and Penny was up in an instant. Neither Mischa, Noel or anyone in their friend group called her Jane, unless something was wrong. “What’s wrong, Mischa?” Penny asked in a worried tone. “Poet sent me something, i-i think it is a suicide poem”.
Her stomach dropped and Penny clearly heard the tears in the boy standing in front of hers voice and his accent was thicker than ever, he was gonna start crying any moment now. “Let me see” She said and Mischa handed her his phone. She read the poem, a million thoughts racing through her head. Only then did Penny realize Mischa had started crying and that she herself also had started crying.
”Mischa, listen I know you’re scared I am too but I need you to go into the bathroom and check every medicine bottle and every cabinet, just look for something out of the ordinary,okay?” Mischa could only nod as his response. “But are you gonna do, penny?” Mischa asked in what sounded like a sob rather than a question, but if Penny was gonna be honest she didn't mind or care, “I'm gonna call him”.
Penny grabbed her phone, quickly unlocking it and going into her contacts, clicking Noels name. It rang three times.
“PJ?”
“Noel you goddamn idiot, me and Mischa have been literally worried sick and-”
“Don't worry, and tell Mischa not to worry either”
“Why would we not worry, Mischa is crying his eyes out right now”
“I’m sorry.”
“No don't apologize, just don't hurt yourself okay-”
The line went dead.
“Mischa!”Penny called out, running to the bathroom only to find Mischa sitting on the floor holding something. When she got a closer look at the items Mischa saw what it was. A bloody towel and a disassembled pencil sharpener, without the blade.
Penny knew exactly what was happening, Noel was going to try and kill himself and if that happened Mischa would shatter. That wasn't allowed to happen, not to her. Not to Mischa.
“Mischa, look at me, I need you to take a few deep breaths, put on your shoes and jacket and get into the car.”
“Where are we going?”
“To find Noel.”
The moment Penny was sure both she and Mischa had their seatbelts on she stepped on the gas, basically breaking all the speed limits in the city to get to the school. She knew that was where Noel was. Stopping in the parking lot not bothering to park properly, the both of them got out running towards the school building, praying to a god neither of the two teenagers believed in, that they were there in time before anything happened.
Running through the door of the for some reason unlocked school building door, racing up the stairs to the 7th and final floor of the building and slamming the rooftop door open. Noel turned to look at who slammed the door open only to see his boyfriend Mischa Baczynski looking at him through tear filled eyes.
“Why are you awake?”
“What do you mean, obviously I got your messages.”
“You should have gone back to sleep.”
“Why would i have gone-”
“Because I'm unimportant, I literally ruined your life.”
“No poet you didn’t why would you think that-”
“Natalia”
They both went quiet and neither of them had heard that name in god knows how long.
Natalia or Talia for short, was Misha's online fiance who turned out to be Noel in an attempt to get closer to Mischa, as friends but it ended with Mischa falling in love with “Talia”.
“Poet, Talia wasn't healthy for any of us, i got over her very quickly and she was unimportant to me ”
“Then why were you so angry when you found out”
“i-i uh i don't know кохання, i got caught in the moment a-and uh”
“no i get it”
Only then did Mischa realize that Noel was only wearing a loose t-shirt and shorts which made the cuts all over Noel's arms and thighs visible. Some old and almost healed, but the part that concerned him the most was the fresh cuts dripping with fresh blood. Mischa scanned the small area around Noel and there he saw it, the missing pencil sharpener blade.
“Poet please, I beg you to come home with me!”
“I’m sorry Misch, but I can't.”
“Please….моя любов.”
That was all he could say. Mischa took a couple half subconscious steps towards Noel but he just stared down at his feet. He started laughing ,or was he crying? Mischa couldn't really tell. Until Noel suddenly sat down and buried his face in his hands.
“Fuck.I can't do this anymore, Mischa, im sorry , i’m really really fucking sorry, i just-”
“It's okay, poet, I understand.
Mischa then walked up to Noel and sat down next to him.
“Shall we start going home now любов”
Noel could only nod as his response. Without saying a word Mischa picked his boyfriend up and carried him all the way back to the ground where Penny, some police workers and some ambulance workers with an ambulance. The moment Penny saw the boys she started crying even more than she already was and ran up to them as Mischa put Noel down. She hugged Noel who squealed and the pain of Penny’s jacket rubbing against his fresh scars.
“Noel , you had me worried sick, god never do something like this ever again i beg you”
“I'm sorry Pj”
“Don’t be sorry, please Noel just please don't do this again”
“Promise”
The ambulance workers escorted Noel to the ambulance and Mischa insisted on going with, after a bit of arguing they gave in. While the two boys were being driven to the hospital, Penny called their friends and explained the situation and soon they were all there, and together they decided to also go to the hospital and meet Noel and Mischa.
After this incident the police and ambulance workers decided that Noel needed to spend some time in the psychiatric hospital, and Mischa was there frequently to visit him. And after about a month he was allowed to leave the place. And the two of them have never been happier.