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It was early, earlier than Sebek usually woke up. Ever since he realized just how in love he was with silver, his mind just won't shut up. Every time sebek looked at silver's beutiful lips, he couldn't stop thinking about how amazing it would be to... no! He couln't possibly. But, as soon as sebek
snapped out of his thoughts, lilia was calling out to him. "sebek! You've been spacing out a lot since last week. Is everything alright? Are you sick?" "No, no. I'm alright. Although I appreciate your concern, master lilia. I'll be out in the Court to train, to keep my mind alert." "Alright. Don't get too worked up, now." Lilia joked, so seemingly ease sebek a little bit. As sebek stepped out into the courtyard, he saw silver napping beneath a tree. Usually, he would be just a little bit annoyed and, dare I say, worried that he would hit silver and wake him up. But today, he was angry. Angry that silver was so effortlessly nonchalant, so unreadable, and so gorgeous. He hated that he never had a moment to have silver for himself. It angered him more than anything. He wanted for silver to be his and his only.
He couldn’t share these feelings, nor could he ignore them. The only thing he knew to do to stop these feelings of jealousy was to fight them. So he fought. He swung his sword at the trees, the feeling of adrenaline coating any other emotion he had before. He fought until he forgot how he really felt. How he really felt about silver.
He did this every day. He tried to ignore his feelings every day, because he felt weak. He felt like me couldn’t control his emotions, he felt stupid for loving a fellow guard. He couldn’t confess to silver, what if their acquaintanceship tarnished? What would Master Lillia think? What would master malleus think? He was so confused and disappointed in himself, he didn’t know what to think. But he was braver than that. He was more mature than that. So he decided to just rip off the band- aid and plan to confess his love.
Silver was hinting to sebek for so long. He didn’t know if he was just dense or he just wasn’t interested. Maybe he actually hated him, and hated humans. Maybe he was too invested in talking about malleus that he didn’t notice that silver loved him. But he knew, deep down, sebek isn’t as aggressive as he thought. He knew it was a facade, to hide the fact that he’s really just insecure in his identity. That he didn't fit in anywhere, because of his mixed race of fae and human. He didn't understand himself, and took it out on others, maybe because that's what he was taught to do. But deep down, he knew he truly, truly cared. Silver kind of liked that. He liked when sebek let his intimidating demeanor slip and show that he does care. He liked it when he would catch a glimpse of sebek’ s face going red when he falls asleep on his shoulder. Every time silver fell asleep on his chest or shoulder, he always knew that it was sebek who layed him against a tree and waited for him to wake up. He knew sebek loved him. That made it all the more sweet. Every time they would meet up to spar, they would always giving it their all. And every time they were done, they were so much softer with each other, just talking and lying under a tree like time itself didn’t exist. There was no doubt about it, the both of them were in love. They just never wanted to say it.