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“Dear Nick and Alex,
This is a little hard to write, I can admit that much. Starting this I want to say, I’ve truly thought about this and I’ve come to my final decision. This one is much more beneficial for you both, and even if it may be hard for me and possibly you both to take I know it is the best course of action. First things first, no I’m not dying, I just realized it might come off like that but no physical harm will be coming to me from this decision. Simply a placement of where I am in life.
I plan on leaving the relationship, breaking the engagement, and breaking up with you both. I wish I could have said this to your faces, but it seems every time I attempt to fix something face to face it only shatters more in my hands. So perhaps a letter was better, after all, then I won’t have to see your reactions and I can simply imagine them. In the chance I upset one or both of you, I really wouldn’t be able to handle that view and I truly am sorry if this decision has hurt either of you. However, with my memory continuing to fade and the constant disagreements we seem to have that almost always center around me, I truly do believe you both would do better without me involved. If we see each other from here on out, I have no issue with us being friends but I think continuing to hold you both in such an engagement would only hurt you both more. If you’d like to pretend you don’t know me, I won’t stop you. I won’t approach either of you, and I won’t start interacting with you both unless you start it.
I have to fix things, and clearly, I’m not fixing anything by staying in this relationship. I may be vanishing a bit more frequently and I plan to travel a bit more. If I come back acting different, pay no mind to it I promise it’s normal and I’ll be fine once I finish it. I can’t decide if there’s more that needs to be said here. So I suppose I’ll finish up any thoughts I have in the final paragraph.
I deeply care for both of you, and I truly do believe I love you both but I can’t treat you guys the way you deserve to be treated. Our relationship wasn’t going in a good direction, and I at least want to give you both the chance to be happy with each other even if I can’t be there. Maybe in another time, another place, another story we could have been happy. But this story, this time, this place? It’s not the setting we were meant to thrive in, and I’m hoping to fix that in my absence. You most likely saw the rings next to this letter, they are the rings I wore. I’m leaving them with you both as I cannot wear them or keep them knowing I’m leaving you both behind. You can throw them away, I’d assume it would probably be the best move to make with them as holding onto them may only worsen the feelings left. If you both really want to know where I am when I disappear, I’d recommend asking XD for my whereabouts. I know they’re difficult to deal with, but they are the one who seems to be keeping an eye on me during my travels. So they could give you the most accurate answer if you’re allowed to know.
May we meet again in another place and time better suited for us, until then you both will continue to shine like gold in my memories. I can promise you that much.
Sincerely,
Karl T. Jacobs”