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Katsuki bakugo was everybody’s known ‘hot head’ with a short temper and no care for anyone around him, correct?
However, katsuki was going through so much more. More stuff than anyone knew.
And he’d sworn to keep it that way. There was no way he’d let anyone know or see him at his worst.
Not even his boyfriend Eijiro, which’ll probably cause problems in the relationship. But what’s that to Katsuki?
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It all started a normal day of school, katsuki sat in class while Aizawa spoke about god knows what.
Recently, katsuki had been too out of it and spaced out to pay attention in class.
No one seemed to notice. Or so he thought.
Eijiro watched him silently, he always caught himself looking at the blond. Since first year, he’d been so deeply inlove with the other. They were third years now. They’d been dating since the middle of second.
His eyes trailed along katsukis face as he admired the blondes red eyes. Eyes that he had gotten lost in many times before. The same eyes that held so much mystery. And pain.
Eijiro continued to admire his boyfriend top to bottom when his eyes landed on something on katsuki’s neck.
A pinkish scar travelled from just beneath his collar and looked like it went further down.
Eijiro hadn’t seen katsuki shirtless for awhile now, he had just realised. He stared at the scar. Katsuki shifted in his seat with the others eyes on him and shot him a glare.
He soon noticed where Eijiro was staring and he quickly fixed his collar so the scar wasn’t visible.
It was too late though. Eijiro had already seen it and katsuki knew he wouldn’t drop the subject now.
They sat in class, Eijiro’s eyes locked on katsuki, katsuki’s looking anywhere but at Eijiro.
When the bell rang, katsuki was up out of his seat and walked out without saying anything.
Which to Eijiro was weird, he always waited for the other.
It didn’t matter though because once Eijiro packed his things up, he was scattering out the door behind katsuki.
He exhaled and came up behind the other wrapping an arm around his shoulder. “Kats?”
Katsuki loved that name. The name Eijiro just started calling him since end of second year. He pretended to hate it though.
He grumbled in response. “Don’t bring it up.” He said seriously and looked away as he walked.
Eijiro stared at the other for a bit, he hated this. Katsuki had been so distant lately. He had bags beneath his eyes, had been avoiding any affection, and now won’t even talk to him?
The red head let out a sad and concern filled sigh. “Kats come on. What’s been troubling you, my love? I’m worried..” he said softly loud enough for the other to hear but not for the surrounding students to.
Katsuki just growled. “Eijiro drop it.”
Eijiro flinched at the use of his first name and shook his head. “I’m your boyfriend, you should be able to talk to me about stuff! I’m here for you..”
Katsuki scoffed. “Then maybe you shouldn’t be my fucking boyfriend.”
Katsuki couldn’t believe he just said that to the red head. He gasped as he said it and looked at Eijiro.
Eijiro dropped his arm that was rested on his shoulder and felt his eyes swell up with tears.
The blonde just shook his head. “No shit wait Ei that- I didn’t-“
Before he could get his words out, Mina was at Eijiro’s side glaring at katsuki. “You are such an asshole!” She spat out and led Eijiro away. Uraraka was running behind them quickly.
“Don’t know how a cold hearted bitch ended up with someone as loving as Eijiro, but shame on you!” She said as they left.
(I love them both and know they’d never say that guys, just for the sake of the fic 🙏)
Katsuki stood there and watched the others rush off as he was left with the words from the two girls basically stabbing him in the heart.
He thought his temper was getting better.
Why did he say that?
God he was such an asshole.
He looked down, {is this it?} he thought to himself.
{Did I just end mine and Eijiros relationship?}
He didn’t know if that’s how the other took it or not. He didn’t even mean what he said at all. He was just overwhelmed.
Katsuki went off to his dorm and slammed the door locking it behind him. He slid down it and leant on the door exhaling.
He thought of Urarakas words specifically. How did he manage to get someone like Eijiro?
How? How could anyone, especially Eijiro, love such an asshole like him?
Katsuki breathing quickened and he was soon left with a pit in his stomach. He’d probably just lost the one thing keeping him going.
His chest became tight as he started to fan himself desperate for the heat to go away.
He unbuttoned his shirt tossing it to the ground as he gasped for air shaking his head.
He trembled as he coughed trying to find some sort of breath.
Katsuki whined softly as he held his throat trying to get some kind of air.
Why was he being like this?
He was so attached to Eijiro that this made him have a panic attack. He hadn’t had a panic attack in a year or so.
-
Eijiro on the other hand, was arguing with Uraraka and Mina.
“You can’t fucking say that shit to him! He’s getting better! He’s trying his hardest you know?”
Mina sighed. “Kirishima. He was rude to you! And he’s always going to BE an asshole that’s just Bakugo.”
Uraraka nodded in agreement. “I’ve tried to be friends with him but he’s just so hard to deal with..”
Eijiro couldn’t believe they were saying all of this. But then again, they didn’t know Katsuki like he did.
“No! Shut up. You guys know nothing about katsuki. He’s doing his best, he didn’t mean it! He doesn’t do this regularly. This is one of the first argument type things we’ve been in. I think he was just overwhelmed..”
Mina scoffed. “Overwhelmed with what? His own fucking temper? Because believe me, we are ALL overwhelmed from that!”
Eijiro glared. “Shut up! You know, you’re being a real asshole right now. You call katsuki one but here you are pushing aside his problems like he doesn’t go through anything!”
Uraraka was silent now just watching the others argue.
Mina rolled her eyes. “Because he probably doesn’t! He puts people through shit! He made you CRY!”
Eijiro suddenly felt a pit in his stomach. And not from Minas words. His gut was telling him to find Katsuki. And Eijiro was never one to ignore his gut.
“Yeah and I’ve made him cry before! Relationships have arguments. Not everyone will be happy 24/7! I just need to talk to him. Now will you fucking excuse me while I go find my boyfriend?!” He stormed out of her dorm and headed straight for katsuki’s.
-
Katsuki was now sitting on his bed breathing heavily trying to stop the panic attack that was forming. He didn’t want help from anyone.
Even if he needed it.
Just then, the door was knocked on and Katsuki exhaled trying to get his words out but they came out jumbled and stuttered.
“T-the fuck d-do you- you-.. want?”
Hearing the others voice, Eijiro felt his heart stop. He knew Katsuki was about to have a panic attack and knocked again. “Kats, it’s me.. come on, let me in, we can talk about it..”
Katsuki didn’t expect Eijiros voice and froze up when he heard it. He got up and opened the door slowly, Eijiros arms hugged the blonde rubbing his back.
“I’m sorry.. I’m so sorry..” katsuki kept rambling beneath his breath.
Eijiro shook his head. “Shhh.. it’s okay, everything will be okay. Calm down before we start talking my love, I know you didn’t mean it.. shhh.. focus on my breathing.”
Eijiro took deep breaths in and out while rubbing circles on his boyfriends back.
Katsuki followed the others breathing rhythm and just teared up exhaling softly. It took him nearly 20 minutes to fully calm down.
“Now, Katsuki.. what’s been happening? Why have you been so distant.. is everything okay?”
Katsuki replied with a shake of his head.
Eijiro knew it would take Katsuki awhile to open up entirely. But he would wait. For as long as Katsuki needed.
It wasn’t Katsuki against the world alone now, it was HIM and Katsuki against the world.
He would be there for his boyfriend.
He wants to know more about him and what goes on in that perfect head of his.