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"Your exhausting!"
"Disappointment!"
"Useless!"
"Suck it up!"
Bucks eyes stung, His throat felt as if it was closing with every breath, water flooding his vision. How pathetic crying in the shower, no wonder Bobby said I wasn’t ready. Turning the shower off and stepping out, he looked at himself in the mirror. "Man I look like shit" staring in the mirror at the dark circles under his eyes only growing with every sleepless night, his lifeless blue eyes, the pale sickly color of his skin. He barely even recognized his own reflection anymore. Buck jumped as his phone's alarm rang out signaling he needed to get to therapy. Quickly Buck got dressed and headed out to his Jeep to start the 30 minute drive to the office.
“So Buck, I know in our last session you said you feel like you have no reason to get up in the morning. Would you please elaborate on that?” Dr. Blue started
“Uh- It’s just when I wake up I lay there for a while working up the motivation to get up in the morning. Some days I don’t because there's no use, no one is waiting for me…” Dr. Blue started to write down a couple things in her notebook.
“Alright Buck, I’m going to suggest that you look into getting a dog, it’s shown to reduce depression, and loneliness. I think it would be very beneficial for not only your mental health but also your physical health.”
“A dog?” Buck asked skeptically.
“Yes, I think it would help you out a lot. Now I’m not forcing you, I'm only asking that you look into some shelters and breeds. If you decide you don’t want one we can look into other options.” Dr. Blue waited for a moment before the silence started to drag on before asking more questions.
Once Buck walked into his loft he sat down on his chair in front of the TV and pulled out his phone and searched up some local shelters. "A dog huh? Well I’ve always wanted one, obviously Mom and Dad never let me get one. Maybe this will be good." Smiling to himself He clicked on the first link that popped up. Scrolling through the pictures the shelter has of adoptable dogs he found a Blue pit bull terrier mix named Twizzler. He chuckled to himself, catching him by surprise. "I haven't laughed or I guess chuckled since this whole thing started." As he was reading the site's description of Twizzler; he learned she had been abandoned by her previous owners because vet bills got too expensive after she had been hit by a car. The shelter paid for her bills, but she ended up losing an eye from the accident and had been adoptable for only a couple weeks.
Buck felt his heart break, poor thing is going through the same thing I am, losing her family and being abandoned in a time where she needed the support and love. He saved the link to Twizzlers profile and started researching about what a dog would need and started ordering some toys and a bed.
“I’ll need to get bowls, a collar, leash, and a couple more toys tomorrow.” Buck said to himself, feeling excited for the first time in a long while. Stifling a yawn he got up and got himself a snack then hobbled up the stairs and slipped into bed, and for the first time in a long time Buck fell asleep quickly and wasn’t plagued constantly by nightmares all night.