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Amity had no way to describe Willow, she was many things- smart, strong, fierce, and oh so pretty…was it wrong to think of her way?
No.
Yes.
Especially when the feelings she felt weren’t as platonic as she wished they had been. The question that was plaguing Amity for years was why? She had a good reason to ask herself this, she was in a loving and healthy relationship with her girlfriend Luz who has been by her side for seven damn years! Still, Amity couldn’t shake this feeling no matter how much she tried. It all started when they were both little witchlings with big hopes and dreams. Willow was timid basically all throughout her childhood with no friends besides Amity. Amity remembers how adorable Willow looked with big round glasses that took up half her face and her cute little dress that made Amity gush each time.
But with the good memories came the bad ones too, the ones where she and Bosha’s gang would pick on Willow, Amity still asked herself time and time again what in Titian’s name were you thinking? She always felt guilty for the way she would let people walk all over her, the way she herself would walk all over her. Sure, Amity had apologized thanks to Luz’s help but she still felt that that wasn’t enough. It wasn’t. Would she ever be able to express the amount of regret she felt?
“Amity?”
“Amity."
“EARTH TO AMITY!”
“GAH!” Amity was suddenly snapped back into reality. She looked around and remembered that she was meeting up with the rest of the hexsquad for lunch. Luz was sitting beside her, she was also the one who caught Amity’s attention just a second ago.
“Amity are you ok? You looked like you were spacing out…” explained Willow, who was sitting opposite from her.
Shit- I probably looked stupid or uninterested in whatever conversation they were having.
Amity was about to say something when Hunter walked in
“Sorry I’m late, I was supposed to arrive with Gus but he had a…change of plans with a certain someone…”
The three girls knew what Hunter meant by “someone”. Recently Gus have been spending more and more time with Matt. Amity herself had grown quite fond of the short, tanned skin guy. After Belos was defeated, everyone tried to go back to their normal lives, which also included the hexsquad. Starting school again Amity had finally convinced Bump to start up a student council, and to no ones surprise, she became head of the council with Matt basically becoming her right hand man of some sorts. So she had a really good idea of the type of person he was. Sure he was annoying as fuck at times, but his heart was in the right place.
Hunter took a seat next to Willow and they all started talking about Gus and how proud they were of him as well as anticipating the day when he would officially introduce them to Matt as his boyfriend.
But Amity couldn’t focus on that conversation either, all she could do was stare at the blonde, analyzing everything about him. She thought to herself how does it feel? How does it feel to be living MY dream? What are you talking about Amity?? You’re dating Luz. We’ve been over this countless times by now. Then why do I keep having to remind myself?
She looked at Willow, just to see her laughing at one of Hunter’s shitty jokes that probably had to do with sci-fi or something remotely similar.
Could I make her laugh like that? Was a corny joke all it took for her to smile?
“Crap.” Thought Amity as she was caught by surprised by Willow suddenly making eye contact.
Such pretty emerald green eyes…wait- she’s looking at you! Do something! DON’T JUST SIT THERE LIKE AN IDIOT!!!
Amity went to take a sip of water trying to advert her gaze somewhere else, but to her dismay the water went down the wrong pipe making Amity go into a coughing fit.
“Sweet Potato!” Luz shrieked getting up from her seat and forcefully smacked her girlfriend’s back in an attempt to help her.
After a second Amity was able to catch her breath, realizing that Willow had also gotten up from her seat in a worried stance not really knowing what else to do but just stand there. Hunter did too, but he was merely an afterthought to her.
“Amity are you alright? I didn’t smack you too hard, did I?” Luz asked with a concerned and almost guilty look on her face
“No, no, I’m fine. Really, I’m fine. I promise” Assured Amity
So much for not trying to look like a fool…
“Are you sure Amity? You’ve seemed off since we got here” Chimed in Willow. Something about the thought of Willow being worried about Amity’s well-being made her feel all sorts of feelings she couldn’t explain.
Deep breathes Amity don’t blow this. Act natural, act cool.
She looked down to see that she had unknowingly placed both hands over her mouth. Slowly, she removed them halfway until out of nowhere she blurted out:
“OF COURSE IM FINE- WHY WOULDN’T I BE FINE HAHA! WHOS AMITY?” At an instant Amity could feel her whole face become tomato red. She felt like digging her grave right then and there, hey, maybe she’d ask Hunter to make it for her thinking back to that one offer he had made back when they first met in Eclipse Lake.
“Blight, if somethings bothering you, you can tell us. I honestly wouldn’t give two shits, but they would.” Hunter said in a somewhat joking way, which was his way of trying to lighten the mood.
Willow elbowed him in a I love you, but this is not the right time and place for this kinda way.
Something about the way they both interacted made Amity sick to her stomach. Why though? She had that very same thing with Luz. Somehow…it felt different.
“I…um… have to go”
Amity quickly gathered her belongings, as she reached for her jacket that was hanging on her chair she stopped and looked up when she saw a hand placed on hers.
“You can tell me anything, I’ll listen…”
She could hear the hurt in Luz’s voice. Luz had always told her she could never bare to see her Sweet Potato hurting, because if Amity has hurting Luz was hurting with her as well. Apparently all couples were supposed to feel this way. Did Willow feel this was with Hunter?
She looked at Willow for a spilt second then back at Luz. Then pulled her hand away and grabbed her jacket.
“I’m fine”
She had a weak smile, she waved goodbye without saying another word and walked towards the door. She stopped for a second then gave Luz a kiss on the cheek before walking out the door.
As she walked out, she felt the fresh breeze hit her face. Taking a small breath, she thought
“I’m a terrible girlfriend, aren’t I?”