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I remember thinking this could be heaven or this could be hell.
You see, I'd canceled one of her so called dates. Then, regrettably, I'd realized what I had done and the consequences of my ….cancelation. That was a week or so ago I think. I'm not sure.
Probably because of the hell that followed. And then, admittedly, heaven. God! She's such an enigma. So, so, so…well, Vala.
The hell part lasted about six days. Complete with searing vocalizations that had the entire base on edge. And of course…burning desire...mine which I hated to admit to. Hated, but not now.
She's so incredibly beautiful when she's like that. You know, alive, spitting fire, full of life. Sexy.
That – I think – is why I do it. Or did it in the past? To see her come so fully to life, to wanting me, to throw all caution to the wind in order to make me crazy. Make me see her as she truly is. I realized that. Recently.
There was this conference in California I'd signed up for. About halfway through day six of our most recent showdown she'd shown up in my office with that light to her eyes that made me want to... well...you know...toss her on the desk and... oh, god! The things I can think of to do with her!
Anyhoo. I was finishing up a paper I'm submitting (under my fake name) for the conference when she walked in. She could have been completely shrouded in paper bags and I'd have still been dumbstruck by her. However, she was wearing a plain black tank top and those low slung BDU pants – the black ones – that looked so hot on her.
"Daniel." She blurted out, and the way she says my name always makes me nuts, "Cameron wants to know if you are off schedule for two days or four?"
She appeared totally bored. Let me tell you something...she was anything but, and as happy to see me as I was to see her.
I'm not known for bouts of speaking without thinking, however, I just said it straight out. "I'm leaving tomorrow for Anaheim to attend a conference. Would you like to come with me?"
"Disneyland!?"
"Ah, yeah, I guess we could do that too."
So here we are. Laid up in bed in the hotel room – at Disneyland. I presented my paper, left the conference, and we've been here ever since. Two days now. She's sleeping- totally spent – I'm not bragging.
If I had a gun to my head I couldn't sleep. I just want to watch her sleep. I can tell you this...I haven't been this happy in a long time. She makes me laugh and she makes me happy.
And truth be told. She can make me cry. I love her so much. A relationship between the two of us really could be heaven or hell. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I want this - whichever way it goes.
~END