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I'm in the corner watching you kiss her
I'm right over here why can't you see me
Life's not fair, Caitlin mused. Sometimes it gives you what you don't need and robs you of what you want. Or it does gives you what you want, only to yank it from your grasp on the time you need it the most, leaving you feeling empty and incomplete. Those thoughts were running around Caitlin's head, repeating over and over as she watched Barry run on the treadmill. She didn't know when it started, honestly. When her infatuation to the speedster blossomed. All she knew that it was there, and wasn't planning on leaving any time soon.
"Hey, you OK?"
Caitlin looked up. Barry was next to her, peering at her worriedly. Caitlin didn't know she was crying until Barry reached over, wiping a tear from her face. Caitlin sniffed, nodding.
"Yeah. Yeah, I'm good." She lied, giving Barry a watery smile. If he saw through the lie, he didn't comment.
"Barry, can I ask you something?" Caitlin asked after a few moments of silence. Barry nodded.
"Have you ever felt like... Never mind." Caitlin said, changing her mind. Barry took her hand, making her jump.
"Hey, what is it? And don't lie to me." Barry added sternly as Caitlin was opening her mouth.
"It's just... Have you ever felt like nothing is going your way? Like no matter how hard you try, it just won't align?"
Barry chuckled. "Cait, that's pretty much my life almost twenty-four seven when it comes to being the Flash."
Despite herself Caitlin huffed out a laugh.
"That's true. But I'm talking about feelings. You like someone so much, yet they're out of reach."
Barry sobered up. "I've been there, and it sucks. Back when Eddie was with Iris, I was constantly a wreck. It physically hurt me whenever they show affection towards each other. I was pissed, always thinking that it should be me. And then Eddie died, and now..." Barry shrugged. Caitlin nodded. Just then Iris appeared, and Caitlin hastily exited the room.