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Aquamarine Hoshino is not a man capable of love. Or, to be more accurate, he should not be capable of love.
That was what I used to think. My single minded drive for revenge, my obsession with Ai Hoshino; all of those things told me that I was not a human being who should be in love. For if I was, then I'd only end up hurting myself and those around me.
But now, I've learnt that my father's dead. Everything I did up till now, everything I worked towards - it was all for naught.
But in hindsight, maybe that's a good thing. Maybe it's time for me to move on. Maybe it's time I put the man called Goro Amamiya to rest. Maybe it's okay for me to live again.
But there's some things I can never rid myself of. After everything is said and done, I am still Aquamarine Hoshino. A piece of shit who manipulates others to meet his own ends.
A liar.
Why did I call out to Akane Kurokawa that time? It would've been best for the both of us to go our own seperate ways. She'd finally be free to go and live her own life. She doesn't deserve to be hurt by someone like me.
Yet, I called out to her.
"This time, I want to protect you."
That was what I said.
Were those words genuine?
Or were they just another lie?
I don't know myself.
But really, truly, from the bottom of my heart, I hope they aren't.
I want to know more about her.
I want to know what kind of songs she likes.
I want to know what her favourite movie is.
I want to know which kind of plays she prefers.
I want to know what her hobbies are.
I want to know what she's thinking about.
I want her to smile.
Do I love Akane Kurokawa?
I don't know the answer myself. To be honest, I most likely don't, not yet.
But maybe, just maybe - it's okay for me to try. And maybe, somewhere along the way, this lie might just become reality.