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3:47 pm. school ended just a few minutes ago and i start to blast music. i continue to walk through the crowds upon crowds of mumbattan as i find the right playlist.
today wasn’t the best day, or even a good day at that. everything felt amplified and 10 times worse, from the occasional sticky note on your back to getting tripped. it happens to everyone, it’s whatever.
i’m used to passing pretty well, but today it didn’t seem so. the deadnaming from kids who i last talked to in elementary or who refuse to think i’m a different person, or misgendering from the same people and just complete strangers who have no clue.
there’s no use for me to dwell on the past, but at least i found a good playlist for the mood.
nothing super eventful happens on my way home, just traffic. when i do finally reach the comfort of my own room i just plop myself down and tears begin to flood my vision. i’ll never be enough for him, i don’t even feel like a true man
i pull up my hood as i continue to lay down. my window opens but i frankly don’t have enough energy to move over and do something about it.
“hey, are you okay? you see off” i hear pavitr’s voice ask with a hint of concern.
“yeah” i mumble
he sits on the edge of the bed and gently caresses my shoulder and assures me “you know you can talk to me if something bothers you”, but i only respond with a small nod
a few long minutes pass and he just sits there trying to comfort me, it does help to an extent. i finally sit up and wrap my arms around him without saying anything, tears stream down my face as a few quiet sobs are let out and followed by shaking breathing.
“shhh, it’s okay (y/n), i’m here for you” he repeats while rubbing my back as i continue to let it all out.
i begin to calm down and we both let go of the hug, i’m too scared to look him in the eyes because i know mine are probably red and puffy. he starts to ask what happened and what’s wrong and i finally open up about it, he listens and holds my hand as i talk about it. i try to keep it short and somewhat do.
afterwards he comforts me and reassures me about everything, ending with a small kiss on my forehead and an arm wrapped around me.