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You tried hard to control your sobs as you saw Jisung's contact flash on your screen. You had texted him that you had something to say to him and he had called you right after seeing your text.
"Baby? You good?" He sounded so worried.
"Where are you?" You hiccuped.
"At Minho hyung's dorm. I'm with him and Seungmin. By some chance, did you want to come over? Miss me already?"
You were together just two nights before and you didn't see each other daily hence his surprise.
"Can I talk to one of them?" You asked, obviously surprising your boyfriend.
"What's up babe?" Jisung queried.
"Please? I beg of you." You begged.
"Okay, I'll give the call to Seungmin." He gave up and called Seungmin over. You heard them whispering to each other before Seungmin's voice came to the call.
"Ena-ssi? Hie." Seungmin greeted and you sighed in relief.
"Seungmin-ssi," You answered, " I just wanted to make sure Sungie was with someone."
"Is everything okay?" He questioned.
"Not really," you admitted. "Please take care of him for me. I'm so sorry but I beg you."
"Ena-yah, what's going on?" Seungmin pleaded and before you could reply, Jisung took back the phone.
"Babe, you're scaring me. Should I come and get you?"
"Let's break up Jisung," You said into the phone, trying hard not to let a sob out.
"What?" He was panicking and you could hear Minho ask in the background what was going on.
You took a deep breath, "I am sorry I can't be with you anymore."
"Wh-what do you mean let's break up?" The quiver in his voice made you want to let out another sob but you had already said it and there was no going back now.
"Please don't call or text me anymore." You replied instead, keeping your voice as firm as you could manage. "Don't look for me. I have removed your fingerprint from my apartment's entrance and I will be blocking your number after this call." You couldn't believe the harshness in your words and you could picture his shock, "I am so sorry."
Just after apologising, you cut the call without waiting to hear his response and you switched your phone off completely when he tried calling you back. You loved Jisung with all your heart and that's why you had to do this over the phone after making sure he had someone with him. You couldn't for the life of you break his heart in person and witness his pain. It was simply impossible.
As you were still crying into your pillow, having lost track of time, you heard your intercom ring. You didn't need to check to see who it was. You knew it was Jisung and maybe, hopefully, for his sake, with one or two of the members. Without checking your camera in order to not see Jisung's heartbroken face, you called security and asked them to get rid of whoever was buzzing your apartment. They asked if they were threats and you simply told them that you wished to not be disturbed.
After a few more minutes, the security called you back to say the men who had come for you had left but had requested that the security keep periodic checks on you just to make sure you were okay. The security apologised in advance for the disturbance they were going to be but they had to be careful in case you were suicidal. You thanked them and said you understood though you weren't suicidal. The action brought you into a fresh bout of tears, how could he still be so concerned about you after breaking his heart like that.
You were almost asleep when your intercom sounded again. You wobbled to your camera and found Mina worriedly waiting by your entrance. You promptly buzzed her in and she all but ran to your room. The moment she got in and saw your state, she engulfed you in a hug as you broke down for the umpteenth time that day.
She didn't say much, just allowed you to cry in her arms after moving the two of you to the couch. Just as you sat down in her arms, her phone rang, surprising you a little.
"Can I please answer Jisung's call? He is worried sick about you." You nodded in agreement as you willed yourself to calm down so he wouldn't hear you.
"Jisung-ah," she answered and you could picture your boyfriend's relief, ex-boyfriend now by the way.
"She let me in, I'm with her." You heard Mina say and you felt so bad. "Don't worry much, I will call you back in a bit but she's not alone anymore." You let out a sob at that and he must've asked to speak to you cause you heard her say, "We can't risk having her throw me out of here too right?" He must have agreed because you heard her then bid him farewell with, "I'm sure she knows how much you love her. I'll call you back, okay."
Mina continued to pat your back until you fell asleep in her lap. Honestly, you were exhausted. You had cried a lot in the last few days. When Jisung slept over, he had noticed you weren't fine but you had avoided his questions about it by making passionate love with him. You knew this was your last and you were very sentimental during it. He kept asking if you were okay, you kept saying you were and eventually you caved in saying you'd let him know what was on your mind in time, only for you to break up with him two days later instead.
*
You woke up to the pleasant smell of eggs and bacon and when you walked into your kitchen, you saw your table set with a full English breakfast. Next to it was a sticky note written very neatly.
Dearest Ena,
Sorry, had an early schedule and had to leave without saying goodbye. Something is definitely wrong and please talk it out with Jisung. Make sure you eat okay, you look so pale. Will check in on your later tonight.
With love,
Mina.
Your first thought was why she had to write on a sticky note and not just text you but then you remembered your phone was off. As you went to remove the sticky note, you found a neatly folded paper plane beneath it. Your heart bit quickly, seeing the 'please read' scribbled on it's surface in Jisung's unmistakably chaotic handwriting.
Babe.
My love, my baby, I don't know what's going on. I don't know why so suddenly you have decided to break up with me. I wish you could please tell me? I don't want to believe you've suddenly fallen out of love with me. Not with the love I saw in your eyes the last time you were in my arms. Maybe do you just need a bit of space? Is it something you can't tell me about? Do you have anyone you can talk about it with? You made sure I had the members with me so don't you dare be alone through this time. I love you babe, always will. I know if I love you I should respect your decision to end things but how can I just accept this without ever knowing why. If I couldn't dream would I believe that there could be a you and me? And if I couldn't sing, would you be able to hear my melody? I know that something's wrong and I'm afraid that you're moving on. How can I got when you're my wings? I love you and you never said you've stopped loving me even as you broke up with me.
Yours, always.
Ji 🤍
You could see the dried tear stains on the paper and you couldn't stop yourself from crying all over again. In your tears, you opened your laptop and went on to Bubble to announce to the fans that you had broken up with Jisung. There was a target recipient to your notification and honestly you simply wanted the threats off your family's back.
Morning.
I sincerely apologise to all of you for this sudden news. I want to let you know that Han Jisung and I are no longer a couple due to some reasons beyond our control. I hope you continue to love and support him and stay by his side.
I am well, be well too.
Ena.