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1. Five Times Etho Held Back with Joel and One Time He Didn't by BlocksRuinedMe

   Fandoms: Double Life SMP, 3rd Life | Last Life SMP Series  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • F/M, M/M
   • Work in Progress

   14 Apr 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • EthosLab/Joel | SmallishBeans
   • Joel | SmallishBeans/Lizzie | LDShadowLady (referenced but this time not in much detail)
   • Joel | SmallishBeans
   • EthosLab (Video Blogging RPF)
   • Polyamory
   • bisexual switch joel
   • anxious-about-sex joel
   • BDSM
   • BDSM Negotiations
   • pain play (thought about and discussed and planned)
   • Boundaries
   • Boundary Negotiation
   • the whole fic is about forcing yourself to hold back even though you both want something
   • please see author's note if you want to hear more about what's going on in etho's head
   • as he chugs his respect boundaries juice
   • more tags will be added with later chapters
   • it will be fully explicit
   • etho's slutty in a chill way
   • Cock Cage
   • not in chapter 1 but it's key to the whole situation
   • ha ha ha - Freeform
   • Collars
   • rope
   • Leashes
   • POV Ethoslab
   • Dirty Talk
   • no condoms cause we didn't install the STI mod pack it sucks
   • Hair-pulling
   • like so much dirty talk i had to revise the fic to fit it all
   • it's my emotional support dirty talk
   • Threesome talk
   • Group Sex Talk
   • it's a lot of talk i'm serious
   • sexy insults
   • Lizzie mention /pos
   • some general kinky stuff y'know?
   • joel really really really wants to be used
   • Shibari
   • Suspension (discussed in detail)

   Summary

   "It was exceptionally hard to not twist Joel just enough to kiss him. To pull his hair and start showing Joel what his sadism could give him. To bite his neck, make him gasp, and put Joel’s hand on his aching cock, then whisper filthy ideas to him about all the ways Etho could use and hurt him right now…"

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   5 Times Etho forced himself to wait with Joel, to hold back, to not give in to what they both wanted.

   And 1 time he didn't.

   A sequel/alternate pov for "The Key to His Problem". Context in the author's note if you don't want to read the original!

   Series

   • Part 2 of Locks and Keys
   • Part 20 of ~Canon Traffic Life
   • Part 15 of Can I tell you the good news of SmallEtho? I have this pamphlet...
   • Part 3 of Driving After Dark 2023 prompts (plus sequels!)

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   15,449

   Chapters:

   5/6

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