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There he was sitting in the living room with the other sidemen, they were all being interrogated by Simon and Jj after they found bloody tissues, bandages, and wipes in the trash
Harry was cursing himself inside. How could he be so stupid to leave that shit in the bathroom they all shared
“Well someone speak the fuck up now or ima start proper shit” Jj said with passion
“We’re telling you lad, we have no idea what the fuck all the shit is or where it came from” Ethan said sounded quite annoyed
“ oh come on mate, it’s not like the shit walked into the house all by itself. It has to be one of us” Simon said accusingly.
“Well lad what do you think it’s from, first of all” Josh said
“It’s be from anything mate, to a fucking gash on the toe to.. to something else” Jj said, saying the last part quite quietly
“What do you mean something else Jj? What are you thinking” Tobi said looking up at everyone for the first time since this all started.
“Well. I um. I don’t want to assume anything. But we do have very stressful lives, and um we’re all um we all came from you know we’ve all had something traumatic happen so..” Jj said stuttering. He really didn’t even want to think what he thought it could be
“Jj your not seriously think that someone could be hurting themselves are you?” Vik said slowly as to not say the wrong thing
“Ya that’s exactly what I thinking vik. And think about it we’ve all been through something traumatic and we live very stressful lives” Jj said
It was silent for so long that everyone was sure they could hear the traffic from the street as if they were right on it.
Harry is proper pissing himself right now. He wishes something would happen to take the attention off this topic, he was so stupid. Why didn’t he clean up everything and use his own trash can. He suddenly felt the need to go and cut again, but he can’t because he knows that if he got up right now he’d cause suspicion.
“Well I mean there is one way we could figure out if that’s the case, and it’s pretty simple” tobi said breaking the silents
“What is it mate?”ethan asked
“Well I mean we could all just strip” Tobi said without hesitation
Everyone looked at Tobi with peer shock.
“Well I mean we can’t keep our underware on, it would be like we were going swimming.it’s the easiest way” Tobi explaining himself
Everyone started agreeing and that it was the easiest way. Harry was now getting ready to run, he didn’t know were he was going to run to but it would be somewhere far. Not only because his friends would know that it was his shit in the trash can and that he was self harming but because he’s also trans, and they have no idea. Every time the went swimming Harry would wear a swim shirt and a swimming binder, but now he was proper fucked.
“Well than lads, let’s strip” Simon said as he started taking is sweater off
Everyone starts striping whilst Harry stands up and starts to make a silent exit. He hasn’t said anything and he seemed to have gone unnoticed the entire time so he thought he could get away with it when.
“Hey Harry where do you think you’re going. Strip.” Simon says. Which makes everyone look at him, he’s halfway threw the living room by that time.
“Well at least take me out to dinner first lad” Harry says back swiftly. Everyone laughs. “But in all seriousness my mum called and so did my brother so I’m going to go call them back and see what’s up” he says almost to quickly
“ well I’m sure you can strip first mate. I mean if it was an emergency they’d spam you or text you after you didn’t answer the first time, no?” Ethan says look at Harry as he slips his pants off
“Well yes of course but you know how I get when I think something might be wrong. I need to know.” Harry says slowly backing up.
“Harry mate if you got nothing to hide just strip right now then go call your mum.” Jj says
“ I can’t. I cannot strip, I won’t and you can’t make me”Harry says with a new found confidence
Everyone looks at Harry suspiciously. He knows he’s in too deep now. He stars panicking slightly.
“Harry”Simon says. Harry looks at him. “Why won’t you strip?”
“ because I don’t feel like getting almost completely naked with my best mates” Harry says creating more space between him and the others
“Mate. We’ve seen you in swim trunks there’s nothing you could show that we haven’t seen” vik says encouragingly
“Actually. No we haven’t come to think about it we’ve never seen Harry in just swim trucks he always wears a long sleeve sweatshirt”Josh brings up
Everyone is now look at Harry expecting at explanation.
“ lads please can we just drop it. There are things that are better left unknown” Harry says sternly, the boys looked shocked they’ve never heard that tone come from Harry before
“ Harry if you are harming yourself you can tell us we won’t be mad. We can help you” Tobi says along with everyone else agreeing with him
“ oh my lord mate I’m not harming myself” Harry says directly to Tobi
“Then why won’t you strip. We won’t let this go, trust me whatever it is we won’t care” Jj says carefully
“ you promise” Harry says sounding like a child
“Yes” everyone says
“Ok. I um I’m trans” Harry says blunt and straight forward
Everyone looks shocked and completely confused and taken aback
“ oh Harry mate that’s okay your still the same old Harry”says Josh everyone else simply nods
“ okay now that that’s done with. Strip we don’t care.” Jj says
Everyone else is already sitting on the floor going over each others body’s looking for marks. Surprisingly no one has any marks anywhere. And after they’ve all gone over each other. They look at Harry. He still standing there looking. The rest of the boys look at eachother, and have come to the same conclusion. It’s Harry.
“Harry role up your sweater sleeves” Ethan says
“No” Harry says almost immediately
“Yes do it or we will do it for you” simon says with an almost bitter sounding tone
“No I won’t and you can’t make me nor will you ‘do it for me’ because frankly it is none of your business” Harry says he’s done with this conversation and just wants to leave
“ Harry come here”
“No”
“Yes”
“NO”
“YES”
“OKAY FINE IS THIS WHAT YOU WANTED TO SEE. HAPPY NOW” Harry says as he rips his hoodie off and throws it. The sidemen are now properly looking all over Harry’s arms, there are scars everywhere some old and a lot new
“Harry” Simon say softly
“No don’t you’ve seen what you wanted to see are you happy now. Now I’m leaving, I’m going to the pub to get absolutely shitfaced I will see you guys tomorrow morning. And we are never talking about this again.” Harry says as he grabs his wallet and walks out.
“ well he knows we’re going to talk about it wether he wanted to or not” Jj says
“ ya but let’s wait for him to come to us. Atleast for a little while. But if he doesn’t speak to anyone in the next week we will confront him then” Simone says everyone seems to agree so that’s what they’ll do wait.