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Pitter, patter.
The rain keeps going on in an endless cycle— it falls from the clouds and makes small splashes on the ground. Is the weather really going to be like this for the entire week..? I don't want to spend my birthday alone in my house cause it's gonna be raining! That'll be so boring, won't it..? I don't want to spend it like that! No! No! No—
Oh.
There I am again..
I'm always acting so childish when it comes to these types of things.
I'm trying to do my best to be more mature, I swear! I feel like despite my age I'm too childish and annoying, is that why people never talked to me before..?
All of these thoughts race through my head while I spin round, and round, and round in my room. I come to a sudden stop as I almost fall, holding onto a part of my desk as support. My head hurts a bit now and I feel very dizzy. My mind rambles on and on, yet my eyes wander elsewhere— A photograph. Well, more specifically a photograph of a girl who's been my friend for a long time. Muu Kusunoki.
I first met her in my kindergarten year, she transferred in the middle of the school year. The two of us never talked a lot, I was always focused on random things, or playing— Yes, she did the same, but she was a lot more talkative, it was as if she had this aura around her that made people like her. I didn't have that, I didn't talk much, nobody talked much to me. I felt jealous, not just kind of jealous, very jealous of her.
Despite that, in first grade, she approached me while I was struggling to make a paper boat and asked to be friends, and we started getting closer ever since then! I also do appreciate that she helped show me how to actually make one properly. I never picked up on that. It was annoying, but eventually I got to find out how to do cooler origami on my own. Anyways, she's my best friend and she's always there during my birthday.. I hope a small bit of rain won't make her ignore me this year. I'm turning eleven soon, I can't wait!
Goddamnit.
My head still hurts from spinning..
I'm just gonna ask mom what to do.